4 A real adventure

I finally stand up and stay still seeing the distance between the door and the bed.

'Oh my god, it's like 15 steps, I'm going to die'

I gather some courage and lift the first foot.

'Oh, it wasn't that bad'

But as soon I put it down on the floor, I regret those words.

'Holy fucking sh-' I cover mouth.

This time it wasn't loud enough.

'It feels like I'm getting burned and stabbed with 5 knives at the same time'

I know if I take my time between every step, I'm going to give up.

'Here we go...'

I give an enormous sigh and start walking towards the door.

'1 oh, 2 ouch, 3 god, 4 fucking, 5, 6 damn it, 7, 8 shit, 9, 10, 11 I, 12 want, 13 to, 14 die...'

The door is in front of me.

'Fuck, at least it wasn't 15 steps'

Gently, I open the door and peek out the corridor.

'He isn't here, good, this is my moment'

And in that moment, I realized that the distance between my room and the bathroom is the double.

'Fuck. Me'

And there I am, standing still, wondering about life.

'What did I do to deserve this? Well, I think I did go out for a walk all by myself and I got lost in my thoughts like I always do, but it's dad's fault, he didn't... What I'm saying? It was totally my fault'

I always try to be logical and objective, but sometimes is pretty hard to me.

'Then, what I am doing hiding this from him? Yes, he is going to kill, but at least that will end my suffering. Okay, I think I'm going to tell him...'

But a second thought attacks my mind.

'Wait, how I'm going to tell him that I shoot thunderbolts from my hands? He is going to think that I'm crazy. I don't even know how I got back. And what if he uses this as an excuse to make more time to tell me about mom. Or even worse, never tell me'

I think like crazy trying to decide if I'm going to tell him.

'Fine, I'm going to wait until he tells me everything. I just hope he doesn't find out'

Realizing I got lost in my thoughts. Again. I come back to life.

'Right, I need to get to the bathroom or I will piss all over the floor. Here we go'

I'm wearing socks and I cover my mouth hoping I don't let out any noise.

'oh my god this is hell...'

The bathroom is in the corner of the corridor and turning is dad's room, so I can't see if he has his door open, but because of the pain, that doesn't cross my mind.

'Finally, here I am'

I grab the doorknob and then I turn to my right, seeing that dad's room door is open.

'I need to enter qui-' but a noise stops me.

*toilet flushing*

'Oh oh...'

The door starts to open.

I try my best to stand with a normal posture.

"Hello Alex, were you waiting? If you knocke-"

"No don't worry, I just got here..."

"Oh, well, if you don't mind, I'm going back to sleep"

"Sure, sleep well"

We both smile at each other and he starts to turn towards his room.

'It went better than I expe-' I'm interrupted from my thought.

Dad had the great idea of giving me a little slap on the shoulder.

It was weak, but in my state, it was enough to make me bend my knees and almost fall.

But I get grip on the wall.

"Alex? Is everything alright?" he asks me confused.

I put a lot of effort to adjust my posture.

"Yes, I'm just very sleepy" I answer him with a noticeable forced smile.

He glances at me with a suspicious face.

Takes some time to speak.

"Okay then..."

And he starts to walk to his room.

'Phew... that was close' I say relieved.

I start entering the bathroom and when I'm about to close the door...

"Hey Alex, I want to ask you something"

'For fuck saaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa-'

"Yeah sure..." I have a wide smile, to the point of being scary.

"Okay..." he seems a little out of place.

"When I arrived, the house's door wasn't locked"

'Shit. I don't know what happened, I just woke up here'

"Really? I'm sorry, I was really tired, so I think I forgot to do it"

I hope he doesn't notice my nervousness.

"Don't worry, I just don't want it happen again"

"Yes, I'm really sorry" I say with a serious face.

Meanwhile, my body is dying, and my sanity is going down.

"Goodnight" he says to me.

I just give him a smile and close the door.

'I need to calm down and compose myself, this isn't healthy at all'

...

Finally, I let out all I had inside.

'Phew, that is always relieving'

I flush the toilet and start walking out, when I see the mirror…

'Oh no…'