Chapter 159
"What, what?" Tang Xiaoge has not yet said the words choked in the throat, card pain, he almost thought he heard wrong.
Lin Wenwen lowered her head. Her lips were blue and white, and she couldn't feel a trace of blood.
Tang Xiaoge stood there, his eyes looking at Lin Wenwen, but she now lowered her head, can hardly see the expression, can only vaguely see her slightly undulating shoulders.
After a while, Lin Wenwen began to speak again. Her voice was choked, but her tone was still cold. There was no temperature. It was like despair and guilt, which made people feel uncomfortable.
She said faintly, "I know, I know the situation of the child, don't blame you, selfish person is actually me."
Tang Xiaoge looks stunned, he is still repeatedly determined what Lin Wenwen is saying, because he has always been difficult to believe.
"You know? You know that? " Tang Xiaoge was a little surprised. For a moment, he didn't know how to express his complicated emotions.
Lin Wenwen nodded, his face looked thinner, and the outline of his cheekbones became more prominent. "I know the child can be saved. After returning to Yuncheng, I went to the doctor for a re examination. He does have a chance to live. I killed him myself. "
Tang Xiaoge Leng in place, he is not opposed to Lin Wenwen's approach, but this decision makes Tang Xiaoge feel some incredible.
Lin Wenwen didn't look up at him. Holding the rope of the swing, she touched the ground with her feet and drew circles on the slightly wet soil, leaving a mess of marks.
"Do you regret it?" As soon as Tang Xiaoge's question came out, he realized that he was a bit stupid, but he still wanted to hear from his own mouth what Lin Wenwen thought.
She grinned bitterly and shook her head. "Regret? If I regret it, I regret that I will come to this world. These tribulations have made me live in hell. My favorite uncle and mother have all left me to live as a walking corpse. "
Lin Wenwen sneered, her eyes with despair, "I won't let my child come to this world with all the pain, my mother is the best example, she was later insane, so my father abandoned her, she was killed by a car."
"Just think I'm selfish. I killed him myself, so I'll have my own retribution." Lin Wen kept saying, mechanical words, no emotion.
"No, no, don't think about it. It's right for you to do so, because it's cruel for her to make up for her debt and leave the child behind, isn't it?" Tang Xiaoge squatted down and patted Lin Wenwen's shoulder with her long white hand.
At this moment, he saw Lin Wenwen's face, which had been washed by tears for countless times. She swallowed her tears silently, drop by drop, flowing into her heart.
"I have been punished," Lin Wen looked up at Tang Xiaoge, her eyes almost suffocated him, the unspeakable despair and sadness, beating Tang Xiaoge's heart.
Lin Wenwen sniffed hard. She murmured, "I will never have a child again. I heard what the doctor and Lu Jingshen said that day. I may not have the right to be a mother in my life."
At that moment, her eyes were red, burning the corners of her eyes, extremely painful.
Tang Xiaoge can't support himself on the verge of collapse. He pulls Lin Wenwen's arm, and she falls into his arms. The strong smell of sea salt and orange comes to her face, which makes her feel sweet and glutinous.
Lin Wen was immersed in the sad mood. For a moment, she couldn't get rid of her emotion. She just leaned on Tang Xiaoge's shoulder until his clothes absorbed all the tears she could release.
For half an hour, Tang Xiaoge has been squatting in front of Lin Wenwen, one hand caressing her back, the other hand grasping the rope of the swing. He tries to support his paralyzed body, hoping that this moment will never pass.
"Will I be beaten if I say so, but I'm a little happy..." Tang Xiaoge joked.
"What?" Lin Wenwen wipes the tears from the corner of her eyes. She leaves from Tang Xiaoge's shoulder, leaving a trace of being wet with tears.
"Am I the one with the most secrets from you?" Tang Xiaoge a little proud of the head, like a naughty boy.
"Boring..." Lin Wenwen raises his leg and kicks Tang Xiaoge's calf.
Tang Xiaoge then screamed and fell to the ground, he covered his legs, a face of ferocious cry, "you want to murder me, ah, pain to death!"
"Well, you said just now. It's up to me to kill, to cut, to fight and to scold. I don't think I'll go back so soon!" Lin Wendu mouth, a face of evil look to Tang Xiaoge.
"Good good good, you win, you win..." Tang Xiaoge face helpless, desperately beg for mercy.
In this way, the two people in the empty square, while crying in the dark, while laughing and scolding into a ball, the scene, really busy feeling.
In a twinkling of an eye, the time had passed for several hours. Lin Wenwen looked at the time and said, "Hey, it's late. We should go back. There's a trial installation in the afternoon, isn't it?"
With that, Lin Wenwen went straight to xiangzikou, but Tang Xiaoge didn't catch up after a long time“ Hey, you'd better help me... "Tang Xiaoge is lying on the ground, his trousers are covered with scattered soil. Lin Wenwen had no choice but to return the same way, holding Tang Xiaoge's arm, "Why are you so heavy? A big man is really weak!"“ What are you talking about? " Tang Xiaoge glared at her eyes and said angrily, "Miss, I just lent you my shoulder for more than 40 minutes. Ah, my legs are going to be scrapped. You're so happy to say that."“ And ah, you see how disgusting you are, my shoulders are full of your tears and snot... "Tang Xiaoge pretends to dislike, a tangled face“ If you don't say anything, I'll leave you here. " Lin Wenwen's mouth and eyes rolled. Two people are laughing and fighting along the way. Tang Xiaoge is limping against Lin Wenwen's shoulder. Where can her delicate body bear the weight of 185cm Tang Xiaoge. In fact, Tang Xiaoge's legs have long been paralyzed. He just deliberately clings to Lin Wenwen for more than a minute. Tang Xiaoge knows that everything will return to its original state after leaving here. There is always Lu Jingshen and three years of blank time between them. Three years of emotion, Tang Xiaoge has no confidence to cross. In Tang Xiaoge's eyes, this so-called secret base not only carries the only memories with his father, but also the memories with Lin Wenwen. He cherishes it all the more. It's like a treasure in memory for him. He's in an inconspicuous corner, but it's shining brightly. When passing through the alley, Lin Wenwen, on a whim, pulls Tang Xiaoge to the other side. The road can still lead to the parking place outside, but it's just a little farther away. Lin Wenwen wants to go on shopping, so Tang Xiaoge is also very happy to accompany her around a big circle“ It's strange that no one has seen it today. It's been such a long time, several hours. Last time, there was someone playing chess here. I watched it for a while Lin Wenwen murmured and kept looking around. Tang Xiaoge also looked around with Lin Wenwen, "you say so, it seems to be oh." It's really different here. Lin Wenwen and Tang Xiaoge walked and speculated all the way. Finally, at the end of the road, they saw the crowd gathering. They were very busy“ What happened? " When Lin Wenwen and Tang Xiaoge get together, they find that all the people in the old city are gathered here. There is a small yard with a wooden sign hanging at the door of a room. With the passage of time and the baptism of sunshine and rain, it has become shabby. Above barely a few words can also see the outline of the old city street office. Everyone was talking, and the rustling sound was in a mess. They couldn't hear the content clearly“ Oh, isn't this the girl who came to see us play chess last time? " An old man came out from behind the crowd and looked at Lin Wenwen. Lin Wenwen also vaguely remembered her grandfather's appearance. She was surprised. She nodded and said politely, "do you still remember me..." the grandfather laughed and stroked his beard. "Of course, I remember that there is no such beautiful girl as you in our shabby place, and this young man, who often comes here, I know him."“ Ouch, you are a handsome couple. They look like stars. They are as good-looking as the colorful little people my granddaughter watched on TV. It's just that I'm too old to see them. " Grandfather is smiling and his eyes are narrowing. He knows how to look“ No, no, we... "Lin Wenwen waved his hand to explain, but was interrupted by Tang Xiaoge. Tang Xiaoge is mischievous, embraces Lin Wenwen's shoulder, raises his chin and says with pride, "yes, grandfather, I didn't expect that you have such a good memory that you will live a long life." Lin Wenwen backs his hand and pinches Tang Xiaoge's waist hard. He clenches his teeth. He is about to shed tears in pain, but he has to continue to smile on his face. The old man stroked his beard again and sighed, "Oh, what a long life! This is my lifeblood. I grew up here, and I don't want to leave here until I die."“ I'll stay here all the time. Why do you want to leave Tang Xiaoge said casually, but he didn't forget to make faces at Lin Wenwen“ Ah, I would like to, but this is not... "The grandfather pointed to the direction of the crowd, shook his head and sighed, looking sad.
Lin Wenwen lowered her head. Her lips were blue and white, and she couldn't feel a trace of blood.
Tang Xiaoge stood there, his eyes looking at Lin Wenwen, but she now lowered her head, can hardly see the expression, can only vaguely see her slightly undulating shoulders.
After a while, Lin Wenwen began to speak again. Her voice was choked, but her tone was still cold. There was no temperature. It was like despair and guilt, which made people feel uncomfortable.
She said faintly, "I know, I know the situation of the child, don't blame you, selfish person is actually me."
Tang Xiaoge looks stunned, he is still repeatedly determined what Lin Wenwen is saying, because he has always been difficult to believe.
"You know? You know that? " Tang Xiaoge was a little surprised. For a moment, he didn't know how to express his complicated emotions.
Lin Wenwen nodded, his face looked thinner, and the outline of his cheekbones became more prominent. "I know the child can be saved. After returning to Yuncheng, I went to the doctor for a re examination. He does have a chance to live. I killed him myself. "
Tang Xiaoge Leng in place, he is not opposed to Lin Wenwen's approach, but this decision makes Tang Xiaoge feel some incredible.
Lin Wenwen didn't look up at him. Holding the rope of the swing, she touched the ground with her feet and drew circles on the slightly wet soil, leaving a mess of marks.
"Do you regret it?" As soon as Tang Xiaoge's question came out, he realized that he was a bit stupid, but he still wanted to hear from his own mouth what Lin Wenwen thought.
She grinned bitterly and shook her head. "Regret? If I regret it, I regret that I will come to this world. These tribulations have made me live in hell. My favorite uncle and mother have all left me to live as a walking corpse. "
Lin Wenwen sneered, her eyes with despair, "I won't let my child come to this world with all the pain, my mother is the best example, she was later insane, so my father abandoned her, she was killed by a car."
"Just think I'm selfish. I killed him myself, so I'll have my own retribution." Lin Wen kept saying, mechanical words, no emotion.
"No, no, don't think about it. It's right for you to do so, because it's cruel for her to make up for her debt and leave the child behind, isn't it?" Tang Xiaoge squatted down and patted Lin Wenwen's shoulder with her long white hand.
At this moment, he saw Lin Wenwen's face, which had been washed by tears for countless times. She swallowed her tears silently, drop by drop, flowing into her heart.
"I have been punished," Lin Wen looked up at Tang Xiaoge, her eyes almost suffocated him, the unspeakable despair and sadness, beating Tang Xiaoge's heart.
Lin Wenwen sniffed hard. She murmured, "I will never have a child again. I heard what the doctor and Lu Jingshen said that day. I may not have the right to be a mother in my life."
At that moment, her eyes were red, burning the corners of her eyes, extremely painful.
Tang Xiaoge can't support himself on the verge of collapse. He pulls Lin Wenwen's arm, and she falls into his arms. The strong smell of sea salt and orange comes to her face, which makes her feel sweet and glutinous.
Lin Wen was immersed in the sad mood. For a moment, she couldn't get rid of her emotion. She just leaned on Tang Xiaoge's shoulder until his clothes absorbed all the tears she could release.
For half an hour, Tang Xiaoge has been squatting in front of Lin Wenwen, one hand caressing her back, the other hand grasping the rope of the swing. He tries to support his paralyzed body, hoping that this moment will never pass.
"Will I be beaten if I say so, but I'm a little happy..." Tang Xiaoge joked.
"What?" Lin Wenwen wipes the tears from the corner of her eyes. She leaves from Tang Xiaoge's shoulder, leaving a trace of being wet with tears.
"Am I the one with the most secrets from you?" Tang Xiaoge a little proud of the head, like a naughty boy.
"Boring..." Lin Wenwen raises his leg and kicks Tang Xiaoge's calf.
Tang Xiaoge then screamed and fell to the ground, he covered his legs, a face of ferocious cry, "you want to murder me, ah, pain to death!"
"Well, you said just now. It's up to me to kill, to cut, to fight and to scold. I don't think I'll go back so soon!" Lin Wendu mouth, a face of evil look to Tang Xiaoge.
"Good good good, you win, you win..." Tang Xiaoge face helpless, desperately beg for mercy.
In this way, the two people in the empty square, while crying in the dark, while laughing and scolding into a ball, the scene, really busy feeling.
In a twinkling of an eye, the time had passed for several hours. Lin Wenwen looked at the time and said, "Hey, it's late. We should go back. There's a trial installation in the afternoon, isn't it?"
With that, Lin Wenwen went straight to xiangzikou, but Tang Xiaoge didn't catch up after a long time“ Hey, you'd better help me... "Tang Xiaoge is lying on the ground, his trousers are covered with scattered soil. Lin Wenwen had no choice but to return the same way, holding Tang Xiaoge's arm, "Why are you so heavy? A big man is really weak!"“ What are you talking about? " Tang Xiaoge glared at her eyes and said angrily, "Miss, I just lent you my shoulder for more than 40 minutes. Ah, my legs are going to be scrapped. You're so happy to say that."“ And ah, you see how disgusting you are, my shoulders are full of your tears and snot... "Tang Xiaoge pretends to dislike, a tangled face“ If you don't say anything, I'll leave you here. " Lin Wenwen's mouth and eyes rolled. Two people are laughing and fighting along the way. Tang Xiaoge is limping against Lin Wenwen's shoulder. Where can her delicate body bear the weight of 185cm Tang Xiaoge. In fact, Tang Xiaoge's legs have long been paralyzed. He just deliberately clings to Lin Wenwen for more than a minute. Tang Xiaoge knows that everything will return to its original state after leaving here. There is always Lu Jingshen and three years of blank time between them. Three years of emotion, Tang Xiaoge has no confidence to cross. In Tang Xiaoge's eyes, this so-called secret base not only carries the only memories with his father, but also the memories with Lin Wenwen. He cherishes it all the more. It's like a treasure in memory for him. He's in an inconspicuous corner, but it's shining brightly. When passing through the alley, Lin Wenwen, on a whim, pulls Tang Xiaoge to the other side. The road can still lead to the parking place outside, but it's just a little farther away. Lin Wenwen wants to go on shopping, so Tang Xiaoge is also very happy to accompany her around a big circle“ It's strange that no one has seen it today. It's been such a long time, several hours. Last time, there was someone playing chess here. I watched it for a while Lin Wenwen murmured and kept looking around. Tang Xiaoge also looked around with Lin Wenwen, "you say so, it seems to be oh." It's really different here. Lin Wenwen and Tang Xiaoge walked and speculated all the way. Finally, at the end of the road, they saw the crowd gathering. They were very busy“ What happened? " When Lin Wenwen and Tang Xiaoge get together, they find that all the people in the old city are gathered here. There is a small yard with a wooden sign hanging at the door of a room. With the passage of time and the baptism of sunshine and rain, it has become shabby. Above barely a few words can also see the outline of the old city street office. Everyone was talking, and the rustling sound was in a mess. They couldn't hear the content clearly“ Oh, isn't this the girl who came to see us play chess last time? " An old man came out from behind the crowd and looked at Lin Wenwen. Lin Wenwen also vaguely remembered her grandfather's appearance. She was surprised. She nodded and said politely, "do you still remember me..." the grandfather laughed and stroked his beard. "Of course, I remember that there is no such beautiful girl as you in our shabby place, and this young man, who often comes here, I know him."“ Ouch, you are a handsome couple. They look like stars. They are as good-looking as the colorful little people my granddaughter watched on TV. It's just that I'm too old to see them. " Grandfather is smiling and his eyes are narrowing. He knows how to look“ No, no, we... "Lin Wenwen waved his hand to explain, but was interrupted by Tang Xiaoge. Tang Xiaoge is mischievous, embraces Lin Wenwen's shoulder, raises his chin and says with pride, "yes, grandfather, I didn't expect that you have such a good memory that you will live a long life." Lin Wenwen backs his hand and pinches Tang Xiaoge's waist hard. He clenches his teeth. He is about to shed tears in pain, but he has to continue to smile on his face. The old man stroked his beard again and sighed, "Oh, what a long life! This is my lifeblood. I grew up here, and I don't want to leave here until I die."“ I'll stay here all the time. Why do you want to leave Tang Xiaoge said casually, but he didn't forget to make faces at Lin Wenwen“ Ah, I would like to, but this is not... "The grandfather pointed to the direction of the crowd, shook his head and sighed, looking sad.