Chapter 16

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Em and me cautiously make our way to Logan's car, each praying by some miracle we can avoid being in trouble with the boys. I hop into the front seat and give Logan a sweet smile that I hope portrays some emotion of I am sorry and feel super guilty. He does not look at me. As soon as Em is in the car and buckled in Logan, starts the jeep up and drives without saying a word. Crap. Adam is hurt and Josh and Logan hate my guts. The only plus side I did not have to carry my books and I was given the most amazing kiss ever. The unfortunate news: it was in front of an entire class, Adam happened to be in that class, and again Josh and Logan hate me. I have got to come up with a way to fix this.

There is a sudden jerk and I notice we are home.

"Well?" Logan says. I realize he is waiting for me and Em to get out of the car.

"Emily, you can go. I want to just talk to Logan." Emily gets out of the jeep mumbling something that sounds like 'of course she wants to be alone with him'.

"What do you want to say?" Logan says coldly.

"Logan. I am sorry. I did not mean to use you like that... Okay. I did, but I did not mean to hurt your feelings. I was just goofing."

"Fine, whatever. Are you done?" I nod and see he has nothing to say, so I get out of the car angrily. Jerk. He kisses me and uses me constantly but I am the one who has to apologize. He told me he cared more about my brother than me, he told me I was just some scared little kid and he still did not apologize. I am so done with Logan's crap.

The next two weeks where beyond boring. I did not speak or look at Logan if I could avoid it and he did the same to me. I think things are better this way. If I am mad at him then I do not have to worry about doing something hormonal and regrettable with him and he will not try anything either. I just have to figure out a way to learn how to drive without him or my brother.

Me and Emily did end up going with Rick to Six Flags. We watched the whales and tigers swim, much to Emily's amusement. I think she might be getting over David too. She was also thankfully nice to Rick, which made my day and Rick's as well. When she smiled at him, he could not wipe the smile off his face.

Today, I am going on my third date with Adam. The second date happened last week we went surfing and ended up making out on the beach. It was a sweet date and I actually got to eat because this time we went out which meant I got to order the food. Yummy.

"So what are you wearing?" Emily said to me as I stood in front of my closet looking at all my clothes.

"I have no idea?" Decisions, Decisions. What to wear?

"What are you doing?"

"Going to see a movie."

"Go with something casual then."

"Yup." I say from in my closet. As I go further in something hits me in the knee making me fall. "Oww."

"Are you okay?" Emily screams. I look at my knee and I am not bleeding. I fell over one of my paintings.

"Yeah." I say in a rush hoping to avoid having Em come here and see all these paintings. If she sees then she will question me on my seriousness about being an artist. I still have not answered Mrs. Olsen about the art gallery thing either. I get up and start putting the paintings away fast. After grabbing most of them, I see the painting I had done of Logan's eyes. I cannot help, but feel a pang of sadness. I know I said it was for the better not talking to him, but it does not mean I do not miss his inappropriate comments. I put the painting away and swallow the lump in my throat. I have a boyfriend now. It so does not matter. Oh yeah, I am officially dating Adam. It is pretty cool. We have fun together and hang out all the time. We go swimming together and take long walks. It's great. I like Adam. He is a sweetheart and he makes me laugh. I don't love him but I do like him.

I walk out of my closet in a pair of jeans and a blouse I got from Forever 21 that is light pink with flowers on it. "Okay I am just wearing this."

"It looks cute. I am borrowing it after you are done with it."

"For sure. So what are you going to be doing tonight?"

"Nothing." She says with a sad voice. Okay maybe she is still sad about David.

"Do you want me to cancel? We can go to the mall and shop. Talk about how boys suck. "

"No. You go be with your hot boyfriend. I am fine. So I got dumped for the stupidest reason alive. " I look at her and don't believe for a second that she is okay. I should get Josh to give her company. The fact that Josh is who I am considering to give her company tells you how sad she looks. I hear the doorbell ring and know its Adam because it's eight and he said eight. He can be annoyingly punctual. It actually is beyond annoying. It is just so, so proper. I am used to going with the flow and chillaxing, but why does he have to be so perfect.

"Are you sure?" I ask one more time before I leave Emily in my room to sleep. I run down the stairs and open the door. "Hey." I say to Adam giving him a kiss on the cheek and then try to walk to the living room to say bye to Josh. Adam pulls me back to him and kisses me on the lips. We stand there kissing for a couple more minutes before I push him back and smile. "Hold your lips. I just want to say bye to Josh." I walk into the living room and see Josh on the couch with Jennifer and Logan sitting with Sarah. "Hey Joshie. I am going out with Adam. Do me a favor and call Em down later and give her some company."

"Yeah. Have fun." He says. "Why is Emily here?" He sounds like a five year old, who still believes girls have cooties.

"Because she doesn't want to go home."

"But you're not even going to be here. What are we suppose to do? Look at each other's faces all night. "

"If I remember correctly you and Emily get along pretty well. You where comfortable enough to snuggle up with her. " Josh glares at me. " And besides Logan is here when you're not. So me not being here is no different."

"Fine."

"That's what I thought. " I say smiling. Josh glares more. Maybe I should stay home. "Just be nice would you."

"Don't worry, he will." Logan says. I am totally surprised he said that, but he is doing it for Emily. I just stand there looking at him, bewildered. I then shrug my shoulders and walk out of the room without another word.

I make it home at 11 after watching the Killers. Adam liked the movie. Personally, I liked Ashton Kutcher shirtless.

Now we are standing at the door. "Night." Adam says leaning in.

"Night." I say before pulling his lips to mine. Adam pushes me against the door and presses his entire body against mine. His lips move perfectly with mine. He pushes me up a little so I can wrap my legs around his waist and pull him closer to me. Kissing Adam is good, but I can't help but think of how his kisses never can get the same response out of me as Logan's. I know I am screwed up I am making out with a guy and thinking about how he is not as good a kisser as LOGAN. I also realize I just referred to my boyfriend as a guy but Logan was thought of as LOGAN.

"Mmm....Night." He says again. Kissing my neck.

"N-night." I say again before I let my grip around his neck loosen and untangle my legs. "Bye." I say laughing at his pouting lips. "Bye Adam." I say before walking into the house. I feel a little guilty, but what can I do. If I break up with him then I hurt him more. At least he doesn't know I kissed Logan. That is kind of comforting, which also makes me feel guilty but I decide to avoid thinking about it.

"Finally. I thought you would never let go of each other."

"Em. You where watching!"

"It was either watching you or watching your brother." She says with a shrug of her shoulders. "Good date?"

"Yes." I say with a smile. "What have you been doing?" I say while we walk back to the living room.

"Watching TV."

"Oh... fun."

"Yeah. Logan got me to come down. Said Josh wanted me down here." She said with some amusement.

"Really?" I say. Again surprised. I look at Logan sitting in his spot on the couch. He looks at me with a sad smile. Sarah and Jennifer are gone and Josh is playing with the Wii.

"Hey Amber. How was the date?" Josh asks with his eyebrows waggling. Logan just gets up and walks into the kitchen and Emily steals his spot with a mischievous face .

"Good. We watched the Killers." I say pushing Emily over a little and sitting with her. I grab the pillow and hug it. It smells like Logan. He may be a boogery jerk face, but he smells good.

"Off." He says when he sees we stole his spot. Me and Emily look at each other and then shake our heads.

"NOOOOO." We scream together. Okay maybe we are asking for trouble, but pushing people's buttons is more rewarding than you would think.

"FINE. I will make you get off. Josh." Next thing I know I am thrown over Logan's shoulder and Emily over Josh's. Usually I would be hitting and yelling at Logan like Emily is to Josh, but I can't say a word. I haven't spoken to him in 2 weeks. I am not talking unless he starts. Call me childish but I don't care. Even through all this anger Logan's touch can still makes me tingle and he got me blushing too. But that could be because I am hanging upside down. He walks with me over his shoulder for what feels like forever. I finally am thrown on my bed. Wow. He is so strong. He carried me to my room. I lay on the bed with him standing at the foot of the bed looking down at me. "Told you I would get you off my spot." With that, much said he walks off.

I rise myself up on my elbows and just stare at the door. Weirdo.

"PUT ME DOWN JOSH!" Emily screams as my brother throws her on top of me and walks away too.

"EM...CAN'T...BREATH."

"Oh....crap...sorry. We have got to get back at them."

"Nah...I don't want to talk to them."

"Yeah Logan hasn't been his self since the whole special brownies thing. Josh is just Josh. "

"I know. Right?! Like so I made him carry my books. He's the one who is always kissing me and what not. Uhhh." I say angrily.

"WHAT? HE KISSES YOU AND WHAT NOT!!!!!!!!!!!!" Crap. My big mouth.

"Erm....."

"When did this happen and why do I know nothing about this? I am your best friend. REMEMBER. I am supposed to know everything!!!!!!"

"I-" I say starring at her and hopping my lack of speech will stop her from having something to say.

"I- that's all you have to say for yourself. Like Oh my gosh....oh my gosh...oh my gosh. I can't believe you didn't tell me. I mean I knew you guys liked each other. It is kind of hard to miss but still. You guys are kind of totally perfect for each other cause Logan knows how to have a good time and you, well you are just nice and a total pleaser, which is totally and completely great and the reason I love you to death. But like no juicy details. All this time. What the heck? You could of at least told about his hot, HOT body and how it felt. Why haven't you said anything? WELL?" Em says expectantly. What am I suppose to tell her. The day after the Chase thing, I made out with Logan. He was my first real kiss. I have since made out with him like basically every time I see him and then he told me he choose my brother over me in the sweetest way possible. After I was almost ready to lose my VIRGINITY to him. Wait was I really ready to lose my virginity to Logan Clifton, my brother's man-whore of a best friend? I mean its Logan, LOGAN. He makes my life a living hell with all his annoyingness and pervertedness. Is that even a word?! Okay beyond the point Amber. He stole my Barbie when I was like seven and told me I had cooties. What a poop head?!

I spend the next hour telling Emily everything well minus the paintings and the dream and the closet moment about his mother but basically everything that involved me and Logan lip locking. I did fail to mention the whole virginity part, but can you blame me?! Em was mad cause I didn't tell her about a couple of hot kisses. What would she say to me THINKING about opening the red sea for him?!

"You love him."

"No I don't. "

"Yes, yes you do and you know what else he likes you too. That's why he is all flirty and it presses your buttons when his with other people."

"IT DOES NOT."

"It does. I have seen the way you look at him when he is kissing random people. You look so sad and you know what he looks the same when anybody brings up Adam and you."

"No he doesn't. Logan is just a whore who likes the chase."

"What guy wouldn't? Nobody wants to be with someone so available. Flirting in the dating world is like foreplay in the sex world. It the part where your all hot and ready but it's not coming but waiting kind of makes it better when you do it."

"WHOS PANTS HAVE YOU BEEN IN?!" I say making Emily flush a scarlet red. She looks nervous and hides her face.

"I-"

"I- that's all you have to say for yourself. Like Oh my gosh....oh my gosh...oh my gosh. I can't believe you didn't tell me. I mean I am your BEST FRIEND remember. Like no juicy details. All this time. What the heck? Why haven't you said anything? WELL?" I say mimicking Em but being nicer.

"I- i slept with ........

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