Chapter 11

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Emily and me wait by the car for Josh and Logan to get there butts out of the locker room. Adam already left for home after giving me a hot kiss on the lips and thanking me for the good luck kiss. We won so I knew Josh and Logan would be taking forever and partying hard tonight, which meant one thing: A BIG MESS TO CLEAN in the morning.

Emily is reading a book with a weird picture on the cover in the back seat while I am sitting on the hood of the car sleeping or pretending to sleep so I can avoid Emily talking about David or worse asking me about Adam. Every time I think of Adam my stomach starts hurting and I feel sick and not in the first love way. I am terrified that I made a huge mistake, but what am I suppose to do go to sweet Adam and say 'hey I know I told you I wanted to go out with you earlier but I lied. Also I think you are going to leave me or worse.' I sound ridiculous saying this in my head, so I will sound insecure and immature if I was to say this out loud. I want to tell Emily, but I know she will not believe me because she thinks I am just freaking out about almost being raped, which she would understand. I do not know what to do or who to tell something like this too. I think I need to talk to Taylor and Cody. Somehow, I feel like they might get this and they both like boys and have super healthy relationship. They are like a newly married, sweet and hot for each other.

I feel a familiar warm hand grasp me by the waist and I wrap my arms around there neck as they put me in the back seat. As we walk to the door they whisper into my ears, "you know if you wanted me to hold you, you didn't have to fake sleep all you had to do was ask." I roll me eyes even though they are shut. As Logan places me onto the seat he whispers Crossie into my ear bringing a huge smile to my face. I open my eyes a smile still visible on my face and see that Emily is looking at me with a questioning face. Just as I am about to give her a what the fish are you looking at face I realize I am grinning like an idiot because Logan called my Crossie and mentioning this would mean I have to tell her about our movie night and a whole mess of other details I would rather not bring up. So I just nod my head and look forward and say," great job guys. You guys where amazing. When the referees where discussing whether that last touchdown was really I nearly died of a stroke."

"Yeah me too. I was about ready to pass out if they said it wasn't a touchdown." Josh says smiling hugely with relief. Logan on the other hand looks at me as if he cannot believe I know what a touchdown is. I mean I may not rape football but I do understand the game and actually like watching it. I was raised by Josh and him.

"Dude this party is going to be epic." Just as the words leave Josh's lips Emily jumps up.

"Em you are so lame. Calm yourself."

"Me? You are the one who made out with Adam for like ten hours straight in front of everyone and there mom." Must that be the topic every person wants to talk about?

"uhh....well you don't like eating frozen yogurt."

"well you like eating chocolate with cheese puffs."

"hey don't judge til you have tried it whore."

"whatever slut and fyi I have tried it." She says smiling hugely. I smile too showing all my pearly whites.

"did you not love it?"

"dude it was hella good. I ate like a whole bag of cheese puffs." Josh and Logan look at us like we are totally bizarre, but whatever we fight but we love each other to death.

"been there done that."

"yum cheesy puffs." Josh says as an afterthought, while Logan looks out the window. He looked deep in thought and might I add mighty sexy doing it, but if you ask me to say it out loud, I will deny it.

When we reach the house, everyone runs to their rooms and changes clothes. I decide to go with pants seeing, as dresses are a curse. Emily decides to steel one of my dresses after telling me I was ridicules for wasting a good dress. In my defense, I was almost raped in one.

When Em was done, she looked beyond hot. Her hair was out falling to her lower back and the dress hugged every curve of her body. If I were a boy, I would totally be drooling over her. The purple color made her skin glow in a crazy but sparkling way. No not, like a freaking vampire in the sunlight because vampires burn in sunlight. If this were my universe, they would totally turn into bats because that is wicked cool! {a/n: in twilight I thought that was going to happen but when I turned the page he shimmered:( but my friend told me it was because diamonds are a girl's best friend...personally I think chocolate is a girl's best friend but yeah okay you can read now}

When I am done, I had on a pair of black shorts and a white v-neck because it was too hot to wear pants unless I wanted a mega-weggie.

"how do I look Em?" She turns around, looks me up and down then runs into my closet, and walks back with a black skirt the high waist ones that fit like a glove. It is so cute. I totally forgot about that skirt one of my mother's better choices.

"put this on." She demands. She seems nervous and jumpy. I grab the skirt and but it on but decide changing my shirt is too much work so I just stuff it into my skirt and am done.

"Em is there something on your mind?"

"NO." She snaps back at me. I give her an -I know your lying so cut the crap and tell me- look and she sighs. "alright. I am flipping out. sorry."

"your flipping out? You never flip out. You scream and jump and go all crazy but flipping out and is not normal what is wrong with you?" I say poking her on her cheek like she has a contagious disease.

"David."

"wow. You are seriously crushing on him."

"yeah. I am nervous."

"don't be. It will be fine and if not we can have Josh kick David's butt." I say waggling my eyebrows.

"no way in hell am I letting your slutty brother near David!" Ha. Sometimes I think that she might like him, but then she says something like this and I feel relief. I love them both and losing either would break my heart.

When we finally finish we run down the stairs together or I should race. I am kicking her butt. I love Emily but sports are not her thing. I run down the stairs in full speed totally kicking her butt but then she pulls me and we topple down the stairs I run straight into....Logan. Just my luck. While Emily runs into David. She flushes like craziness and I cannot help it but laugh.

"Damn Ambs. I know I said I like a woman on top but you didn't have to fall on top of me."

"Logan no UNSLUTTY girl in their right mind would want to be on top of you." I say getting off him. I would not want to be on top of him...I would rather be under him with his hot body pressing on me. What?! I am not slutty and girls on top are slutty.

"dude. That is my little sister stop talking about her." Josh says angrily.

"First off Logan shut up and Josh thanks for trying to be a good brother but seriously I don't need you to beat the crap out of every guy. I can take care of myself fine and also at least your slutty friend didn't give every guy in the school a death threat for talking to you."

"Amber...I..." Josh said realizing there was no way to win this conversation.

"save it." I say storming off into the kitchen for a drink.

I grab a coke can from the fridge and sit down on the kitchen counter. I drink quietly think about nothing and everything. I see my brother walk into the kitchen. He looks like he is about to give me a heart to heart. Great, note the sarcasm.

"Amber, I am sorry that you found out about the death threat and all, BUT I did it for your own good. You're my little sister and I am all you got, I have to look after you."

"Josh, I am not 10 years old. I don't need my big brother coming in a saving me."

"Yeah well too bad."

"jerk-face."

"hey. Do you think I enjoy telling guys to not perv all over my sister? I am just doing this because I do not want you to get hurt by the Logan Clifton's of the world. The guys who sleep with anything that has a hole they can stick there member into."

"yeah well I can take care of myself and besides your one to talk you f*ck everything with boobs." I say with my anger boiling, but as soon as the words escape my lips, I regret them. Josh's face falls. He may be a slut but saying that was mean. Logan accepts, but Josh was not always a slut. He had been in love with Michelle James in his sophomore year, he was about to lose his virginity to her when he walked in on her with a senior from another high school. Needless to say, Josh took out his anger and hurt by banging everything with a vagina. "Josh I'm sorry, I didn't mean it like that. I was just angry and thanks. I know why you are doing what you're doing but I am a big girl I can handle myself and I also know I have an extremely sweet brother who would murder any boy in cold blood for hurting me."

"that's right." I jump off the counter and give my brother a hug.

The party is now in full swing I am sitting on the staircase watching Em and David dancing. David has his hands tightly around Emily and they are smiling at each other. They look ridiculously cute. I cannot believe that Emily was nervous. I always knew David had a thing for her by the way he looked at her when we would hang out, but she was always crazy about Jason so I did not say anything. I look at them and wonder if that is what me and Adam would look like. I guess the whole crashing into Logan and David worked out well because it probably broke the ice. I am glad Emily is having a great time. Someone should have fun at parties. When I sit here and look at them I all I can think about is how at the last party I was almost raped, then saved by Logan and then I asked him to spend the night with me and then woke up in the morning to an empty bed. I sit on the stairs continuing to stare at Emily and David when I feel someone come and sit next to me. I do not need to look to my side to know that it is Logan. I can tell just by the smell and warm touch as his hand casually rubs against mine.

"hey Ambs!" He seems a little drunk with a huge goofy smile plastered on his face.

"hi."

"Ambs why are you all by yourself? It's a party."

"I am just watching everyone else."

"That's lame. Come with me." He says will pulling me up and guiding me to the kitchen to grab another drink.

"Logan I don't want to drink."

"fine don't but I want one."

"uhhh...why do I have to come then?"

"would you quit being so antisocial. Sometimes I wonder how the heck you are related to Josh and Rebecca." He say mumbling the last part to himself.

"I am not antisocial. I just don't want to wake up with a headache and besides someone needs to stay sober to clean this mess."

"you can clean the mess tomorrow. Today have fun. Dance with me."

"I would rather not."

"why are you afraid you might like it?" He whispers huskily into my ear. I roll my eyes at him and start to walk out to the backyard. Its empty because it's so hot outside. Josh had turned on the ac inside but it was a million degrees outside.

I walk over to the pool and sit on the side dipping my feet in the now warm water. It felt so nice. I sit there for a few seconds and then decide I might as well jump in. I get up taking my shirt and skirt off so I am in nothing but a plain black bra and a pair of shorts that I had worn under my skirt. I dive into the pool. When I come up for air I see Logan sitting at the edge of the pool watching me, but also away deep in thought. I swim over to him.

"what are you looking at?" I ask in a whisper loud enough so he can hear me. He looks into my eyes like he can see me, not the me I show everyone else but the real me. I feel my stomach doing flips and my heart pounding. I hate this boy. He always does this kind of crap. Uhh.

He continues to stare at me for a while before responding. "you." His blue eyes look sincere and calm. I am about to ask what he means when I hear footsteps and turn around to see Adam. When I turn again, I see Logan is not there anymore. It is like he is a vampire and used his super speed to hide or I just imagined Logan coming out here and watching me. Why would Logan be out here anyway? He is probably inside getting laid by a slut.

"hey Amber." Adam says sitting where 'Logan' was sitting.

"hey. What are you doing here? I thought you said you don't like parties."

"well fine I will leave if you don't want me here." He says forging hurt.

"that's not what I meant I was just wondering and also how the heck did you get in here without using the door."

He points to the house behind mine and says, "that's my house. I just hopped the fence." I just nod. "So how is the party going?"

"loud and kind of boring. I came out here for a swim."

"I can see that." He says staring at me and making me realize I am standing in my pool in a pair of short shorts and my BRA.

"he-he... so really what are you doing here I thought you weren't much of a party go-er."

"I'm not but I wanted to see you." Aww. He wanted to see me how sweet.

"oh...well here I am" I said out loud and mumbled "in slutty shorts and my bra." but Adam didn't hear or at least pretended not to.

"so how is the evening going?"

"better...now that you're here." I guess. "so how does it feel to win?"

"great." He said while taking off his shirt and pants. Dang the boy was hot. He then jumped into the pool; with a huge splash might I add. "the waters nice."

"mmhumm." I say as Adam swims next to me and puts an arm around my shoulder before I dunk my head into the water and escape from him. When I come up for air, I am not the other side of the pool. He starts chasing after me, but I keep swimming away from him. Starting a game of tag. When I am too tired to swim anymore, I just stand on the side and Adam comes from behind me and starts tickling. I splash him with water and then he pulls me by the waist close to him. This time I just let him. He stares into my eyes and I look back into his. I am not sure what I was worried about. I mean Adam and me have fun together and he is not a perv which is always a good thing, but I feel like this is not how its suppose to be like I should have butterflies in my stomach not just be embarrassed. Adam pulls me closer to him and I wrap my arms around his neck so he is unconventionally holding me up. He pulls me closer to him and our lips meet. I run my fingers through his wet blonde hair. He moans into my mouth.

"AMB-HER?!" Adam lets go of me and I see a clearly drunk Emily standing by the back door looking at me. "Oh sorrwie. He-he." I groan a little and Adam just laughs at me and tell me I should go to her. I jump out of the pool and put on my shirt and skirt wishing Adam had forced me to stay in the pool with him. I start walking when Adam puts his arms around me and whispers," night babe. See you tomorrow." I nod and walk over to Emily.

"Emily."

"HI AMBER!"

"ha...are we a little drunk Em?"

"who me? NOOO! I Fine."

"mmhum. Where is David?" I say while walking Emily in the kitchen to get her some water.

"he had to go home. HI JOSH!" She screams as she runs into Josh, who is talking to some chick from school.

"Hey Em. Are you drunk?"

"he-he...Nooo! Why does everyone keep asking me that? I only had 3 shots." She says holding up all five fingers, which wins her a laugh from Josh.

"Em that's five fingers." Josh says clearly having fun with this.

"oh right my bad. Josh you where really good today."

"thanks Em." he says and then turns to me and says, "I have to say drunk Emily sure beats sober Emily. We should have dragged her to one of these parties sooner. "

"Amber let's dance. You too Josh and Josh's girl." Emily says pulling on my hand to guide me too the living room. I nod my head. I need to change I have an epic weggie from my wet shorts riding up my butt.

"you guys go ahead."

"come on Em." Josh says dragging Emily and chick to the living room. How interesting. Who would have thought three shots could get Josh and Emily to be friends. Hell who would have thought Emily would drink?!

I run up the stairs and into my room turning on the lights. Wow the pink seems brighter that I remember it. I try drying myself but then decide I might as well take a shower. Dropping all my clothes to the ground, I jump into the shower. After 20 minutes of shower, I grab my towel and make me way to my closet. As I am walking across my room, I notice a certain someone, Logan, lying on my bed.

"Logan what are you doing in my room?"

"heeey...Ambs. I was just chillin. Re-lax." He sounded drunk.

"well leave and go get some water."

"aww....Ambzz don't be so mean. I'm just sitting. I didn't even make a perverted comment about how sexy you look in that towel." I decide fighting with him is not smart while I am in a towel and run into my closet quickly putting on a bra, panties, a tank top, and a pair of shorts.

Walking back into my room I say," Logan your drunk. Leave."

"Nooo. I'm fine. If I was drunk I would be doing this." he says walking over to me, pushing me against the wall, and kissing my neck. Even 'drunk' Logan makes me want to moan.

"Lo-Logan let me go."

"Why? I know your loving this." he says lifting my tank top until its off me and on the floor. He starts to kiss me down my shoulder leaving a hot trail of kisses. I know what you're thinking how can I just let him do this, but really, if Logan was kissing you like that I doubt you would have stopped him and also he is really strong. I

"mmm....Looo-gan..." He makes his way down my stomach licking my belly button piercing. "uhmm." His hands start to rub my back and then they are taking off my pants.

He groans," Amber." As my body starts jerking a little. I can't even fight him and I am a CHEATER. Adam. I can't let Logan do this to me.

"L-Logan you have to leave. I can't."

"why? Ambs, I want you. " H-he wants me. My heart is pounding and my head is spinning. I don't know what I can do or say. I am at a loss of words. But I know Logan, this is lust. Logan loves what he can't have. He loves the chase. No matter how badly my body is screaming to me to say yes, my mind knows better.

"Logan, I-I'm sorry." When I say the words Logan looks momentarily hurt.

"why? Is it cause of Adam?" when I look down at him, he has a mischievous look on his face. "I won't tell him if you do." His blue eyes are wild with excitement and undeniable lust.

"Logan, No." I say regrettably.

"but-"

"no"

"Fine. Go out with the dumb crap. What do I care? I can have any girl I like and they wouldn't be scared to say yes." With that, he storms out of my room.

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