Chapter 8

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I feel myself moving towards him as well. He leans down. I can hear his breathe coming out a little roughly. He puts his hands on either side of my face. I tippy-toe up closing my eyes waiting for his lips to meet mine and then I hear a gasp. I look up, as does Adam to see my MOTHER standing on the staircase. I blush scarlet and take a step away from Adam. He does the same.

"Sorry sweetie. I am going pretend I am not here." My mom says, slowly making her way up the stairs. Uhh. Just my luck. The women sits there telling me to throw myself at guys, but then ruins the perfect moment.

"Okay, well that was a bubble burst-er." Adam nods. His eyes look regretful. I bet mine do too.

"I will see you tomorrow Amber." He says giving me a hug. I walk him out the door and then stops. I give him a questioning look, but he ignores my look and crashes his lips on mine. At first, I am totally shocked, but then realize a hot guy is making out with me after my mother walked in on us when we were almost kissing. Our lips move perfectly together. He licks my bottom lip and I deny him at first. Yeah I am a tease, but I grant him access when I hear him groan. As his tongue snakes into my mouth, I taste him. Yum. He is sweet like sugary sweet not minty. I feel his hands rubbing my back up and down. I snake my hands into his hair pulling it gently making him groan. His lips make their way down to my neck as we catch our breath. I moan as he finds that spot right under my ear, my sweet spot. I cannot take it anymore; I have to have his lips. I pull him back to me and we continue to move our lips in perfect harmony until he pulls away. I pout and he laughs.

"Sorry I had to kiss you," he says.

"I'm not sorry." He smiles hugely and I give him a grin back.

"Look, I really have to get home, even though I really don't want to." He says starring at my lips. "But I will talk to you tomorrow, okay?" I give him a grudging nod.

"See you tomorrow Adam." I wave as he walks out of the drive way and out of sight. I smile at myself. Ahh. I have to call Emily. I walk back into my house and into the living room, where my mom is sitting.

"Hey hon. Sorry about ruining the moment." I shrug my shoulders not caring. She smiles a big smile. "OH MY GOSH. He totally kissed you outside." She screams causing my brother and Logan to run into the living room from the kitchen.

"He did not." I say unconvincingly.

"Yes he did. I know what a girl looks like after she has kissed a hot guy. I mean you can't even stop smiling." I tried really hard not to smile, but I could not help myself. I would be crazy if I did not smile after a kiss like that and Adam is so sweet. He is not a perv like Chase, not a cheater like Rick and definitely not a man-whore like Logan. Speaking of Logan, he looks annoyed and I think he is glaring at me. I shrug my shoulder. What is up his butt? If he can screw Jennifer in MY house then I can kiss Adam. Whoa! Ambs you sound like a jealous girlfriend.

"Fine we kissed. Happy." My mom is jumping up and down as if she was 16 and just got kissed by a guy she was crushing on.

"Finally. I knew you would find a guy after all that stuff I got you and the hair and nail and don't forget the tanning." I roll my eyes at her. Jeez, my mother was a piece of work. She acts as if Adam would not have liked me without new clothes, new hair, and a tan. "I cannot believe you finally got your first kiss." I stare at my mom for a second, remembering my first kiss. I shiver involuntarily, hating Chase. I look up to see Logan looking at me. He looks pissed off and anxious at the same time. I put my head down avoiding his stare. I cannot not cry if I look at him. He had saved me that night even if he had left me afterwards, and for that, I will be forever grateful.

"ermm...yeah...I am going to sleep," I say as I walk-run up the stairs before the tears spill from my eyes. I hadn't seen Chase since his 'accident' that had him locked up in the hospital thanks in large part to Logan. Now that I think about though, he will probably be back soon and I will have to face him. I can't do it though. Logan had saved me that night, but I could not ask him to follow me around school and make sure Chase never came near me.

Why do I always like the creeps first Rick and then Chase. Wait what if Adam is the same. I mean Rick and Chase had been sweet in the beginning, but they had ended up being jerks. I had not thought of that. Wow, I am stupid. I never even thought to realize Adam could be a jerk. I mean if history shows me anything, it is that my judge in character is totally, always off.

I change into a big shirt and decide to sleep. I hear my door opening, so I make my breathing sound as if I am asleep.

"Ambs?" Guess who it is? Yup. That's right, Logan. I decide to keep on pretending; maybe he will leave if he thinks I fell asleep. "I know your faking it. I am not going to leave until you talk to me." I sigh, turning around to face him.

"What do you want?"

"Well it's nice to see your finally up." he says a little sarcastically. "I just want to make sure your okay." He walks into my room and sits on my bed. I feel my heart beats pick up. I hated that he could do that to me.

"I am fine Logan, but I would appreciate if you let me sleep!" He looks at me for a second. I always hated the way he looked at me. It makes me feel so vulnerable when looks at me like he can see past all my crap and totally get what I am feeling and thinking. He doesn't seem to believe me but nods his head.

"Okay fine. I just wanted to make sure you were all right. You seemed upset." He says looking into my eyes, making me melt. How can he do that?

"yeah I am fine. Why wouldn't I be? I mean a gorgeous guy, who is extremely sweet just kissed me. It's every girls dream. "

" yeah, but you don't seem happy. Although I don't blame you. I mean how can a kiss from Adam be amazing, once you have kissed me?" I roll my eyes at him, but am a little relieved that he is changing the subject.

"You know if you keep rolling your eyes at me they are going to become permanently cross eyed and then you won't be able to see this gorgeous face." I laugh. Logan could make cocky seem hot. His face was so flawless. Once again, I see why girls throw themselves at him.

"In your dreams. You are so cocky."

"No in yours and I am not cocky, I am confident and I know you think I am irresistible." I sigh knowing I cannot win.

"Look Logan I am really sleepy."

"Well I know how to wake you up." He says suggestively licking his perfect lips. Wow, they are so perfect. I blush yet again as I think of his soft lips moving against my own.

"Okay time for the man-whore to go." I hated Logan for this reason. He had the power to make me feel fragile and powerless. When I am with Adam, I never feel like this. As if he can make me blush and know me better than I know myself. It is scary because Logan is more insightful than I like. He can tell when I am lying and freaking out and embarrassed and upset.

"aww Amby ...your words hurt." He says with a pout.

"aww....I'm sorry, jeez. I hate that face. It is so cute. I can't help it but melt." I freeze. That was not supposed to be said aloud. I blush scarlet. Crap. I do not look up because I know Logan is going to put on his triumphant 'I am god' face and tell me then I am in love with him.

"I knew it. I knew it. You so love me." See told you so. I hate him so much. He has that hot, sexy smirk on his face that I really, really hate, but love so much because it is hot. His bright blue eyes are smoldering me.

"I do not love you. You're a slut and I take back my sorry." I say sticking out my tongue.

"Amby, Amby, Amby. I know you love me and I know that you know that you love me, but you just don't want to say that you love me like every other girl in the world because you hate being like everyone else. However, there is a reason EVERY girl loves me. I am a catch and you can't deny it." Uhh. How do you even respond to that? I sit up on my bed completely and decide I am going to kick him out of my room before I give him my virginity. Giving him my dignity is enough. He will not deflower me as well. [IMPORTANT NOTE: WHEN TRYING TO STAY A VIRGIN KEEP LEGS CROSSED AT ALL COSTS]

"okay get out." I try pulling him off my bed but man he is heavy. He doesn't even notice I am using all my strength. As I pull at his left arm, he just yawns as if he is bored and cannot even tell I am using all my strength. Uhh. I HATE HIM. I jump on top of him using my entire body weight to try to get him to move. I can feel his body against mine. Okay stupid idea. I am about to get off him when is arms snake around my waist holding me to him. His teeth graze my neck and I let out a small moan.

He leans into my neck so his lips are touching the soft spot right under my ear. Maybe I should let him deflower me. WHAT? AMBER SHUT UP! He then whispers into my ear "I like a woman on top." I shiver as his cool breath tickles my neck. He smells a-mazing. His voice sounds so filled with lust. I feel my body tingling and my skin burning up. Okay, I have to get him or myself out of this room.

"Logan, let go or I will call Josh and have him kick your sorry butt out of this house." Logan laughs a husky laugh. He knows me well enough to know I would never do that, even if he deserved it.

"are you sure you want me to go Ambs?" He says kissing my soft spot. I bite my lip trying to hold back a moan. "I know you want me," he says kissing me along my jaw. He looks into my eyes and for a second I don't think I see humor. Before I can even read his emotions he bends his head down again, kissing my soft spot.

"uhmmm," I moan unable to hold it back this time. He looks up at my face again but this time I do not dare to look into his eyes. Afraid that looking into those perfect blue eyes, I will be unable to stop once I start and tomorrow I will wake up alone and de-flowered. I refuse to be a conquest on the Logan's de-flowering list. My first time is going to be perfect. I will not let him steal it away from me because of lust.

"Logan...please go," I say pleadingly. He looks into my eyes and then surprisingly nods his head. He rolls over so I am under him with his body pressed against mine, but luckily, he gets off me before I can let my thoughts go further into the perfection of his body.

He as leaves he starts saying, "Amby...I...I" but never finishes. He shakes his head a couple of times and mumbles something under his breath as he leaves. I am left starring at his ghost dazzled and confused. I shake my head trying to clear it, not working I grab a sleeping pill and knock out.

-dream-

I am sitting in the park by my house where I had first met Logan. I know it is the same park because it still has the tree that Logan, Josh, Rebecca, and I carved our initials into. I smile at the old memories of a simpler time. I see an old lady sitting on the bench that Logan had once pushed me off jokingly. She is smiling to herself. An old man, a husband most likely, comes up to her and wraps his arms around her waist tenderly. The old lady looks up and smiles at her husband. He looks up at her with so much love that looking into a moment like this makes me blush a little. The love in the man's blue eyes is so fierce that you cannot help but turn away. The man's eyes are actually beautiful. The deep blue is rich and familiar. I feel like I have seen those eyes before.

I decide to walk up to get a closer look at the man's eyes sitting myself down on the swings. When the man faces me, again I see why the eyes were so familiar the husband is Logan. He is sitting with his wife in pure bliss. I cannot help but feel my heartbreak a little, longing to be the woman Logan is looking at with so much love. The woman is moving and I get to see this women is and its ME. I watch on in complete shock. Just then, a little boy runs up to Logan and says, "Grandpa, did you see I rode my bike all by myself." Logan smiles at the nameless boy.

I wake up to the annoying quacking noise of my alarm clock. I hit the snooze button knowing that I have to get ready for another day of school. I sit on my bed thinking about last night's turn of events: my almost kiss with Adam, my kiss with Adam, remembering Chase, then Logan being nice-ish, Logan kissing me in a way to good way, how he left my room leaving me dazzled and confused and then finally my dream. I try to ignore my dream and focus all my attention on Logan, I mean ADAM. Stupid Logan. I hate him for making me think of him.

As I get ready for school, I cannot help but get excited. You know the anxious-excited feeling in pit of your stomach where it kind of feels like butterflies with big wings are in your stomach making you feel sick but in a good kind of exhilarating way, well that is how I am feeling.

I finish taking a shower and go to pick out an outfit for the day to come. I decide I should probably wear one of the clothes that my mom got me because I know she will ask why I have not been wearing them. I pick out the most presentable of the clothes that include a thin see-through hot pink tank top and a pair of short jean shorts that basically can pass as panties. I put on my new black lacy Victoria's Secret bra and matching panties and then the clothes my mom bought. I have to hand it to my mom she may pick slutty clothes but the bra and panties are way too cute. I run to the bathroom, fix my hair, which basically means running my finger through it, and put on some make up that makes my green eyes pop. I look myself over once and I have to say I look good, even if I do look like a slut.

I run down the stairs putting on some black old navy flip-flops on my way down. When I reach the kitchen, I see my brother and Logan sitting at the counter eating cereal.

"what the hell are you wearing?" Josh says looking at me with disgust.

"well good morning to you to brother," I say sarcastically. I mean I know I look slutty but he does not need to talk to me feel as if I have three eyes and a uni-brow.

"yeah good morning, whatever. What are you wearing Amber?"

"mom got it for me and yes I realize how I look. But She is probably going to ask when I will wear the clothes she bought me so I decided to wear them."

"oh...who cares what she thinks? She is leaving today anyway." I cannot say I am surprised that she is leaving. But what do I care, right? Rebecca left home and never came back and mom and dad never even thought to find out where there older daughter was. So what is leaving me and my brother home alone? I still cannot believe they forgot my 16th birthday though. I know it is stupid to still be upset over something like that but honestly, it was my SWEET 16. I am a girl. It matters.

"yeah." Josh shakes his head at me in disapproval. I know he wishes I would stand up for myself and not let her control me and make me do things I do not want but she is my mom and I am not like Rebecca or Josh. I cannot ignore her. She is rarely around as it is, so why should I start a huge fight for a week or two.

"Ambs, I think you look great." I blush scarlet as Logan says this to me. Logan looks at me with a smug smirk, which as always makes him look incredibly gorgeous. I didn't know how to answer him so I just nod my head. His smirk grows wider as he sees my obvious discomfort.

I decide to change the subject to avoid him saying, "hey Josh can you take me out to practice driving? Dad was supposed to take me, but that never happened."

"how about I teach you later? You have me to give you rides right now, so what is the problem?" I sigh.

"okay fine."

-school-

I stood by my locker trying to open it, but failing miserably. I start hitting my lock with my Calculus book in frustration.

"please...please...please open." I mumble hitting my locker again for the millionth time.

"Are you talking to your locker?" I look up to see Adam standing casually next to my locker.

"it won't open. It is so mean. "

"ha-ha...well maybe you should stop hitting it."

"No it deserves it.", I say stubbornly.

"hmm. How about I open your locker for you?"

"please 0-2-12" I move aside waiting for him to open my locker. He just stares at me smiling. "well are you going to open it.", I say annoyed.

"yes but first you have to promise me something."

"sure...what?"

"promise first?"

"alright fine I promise." When I say yes, he puts in my combination and magically opens my locker. Bless him.

"you got it to work! Thank you." I say smiling at him and giving him a kiss on the cheek, making him blush pink. "So what do I have to do?" I say as the bell rings for Calculus.

"I will tell you later. Come on right now, we are going to be late otherwise." I nod in agreement, as I see students running off to class.

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