324 The Devil's Workshop

She drew closer to him till there wasn't space enough to pass paper between them and "No strings attached." She whispered and that jolted him back to the present.

His eyes flashed with bare emotions before he pulled distances between them. Her breath hitched as his face clouded with guilt.

All this time he had restrained in having a sexually based relation with her. He wanted to touch her very soul when she would be bare against him. She was no prude and the sexual tension between them was magnetic, if he wanted a physical relationship he would have had it by now.

When he would finally be inside her he wanted to dive in deeper with his every thrust. He had f*cked around a lot that it disgusted him now but with her, he wanted to make love.

His retreat was like a slap in her face to call her out on her bluff. It was like humiliation was dished out as the main course after a tasty appetizer. But it didn't deter her perhaps she felt pity for him now as she could see where this discussion was headed.

Poor Creature! His life must be filled with such shameful moments…

All lust flushed out of her feature and what remained was the deadly pale of her natural skin with pity and understanding empathy.

"You don't want me?" Her hoarse quiet question was moderately shading all the turmoil her soul was harboring.

How would he not want her? She was the first and last woman he had wanted as much but he wanted her more than in his sheets and he wanted more than needs and desires harboring their shores.

Li Yuan stared at her and then cupped her face delicately, "Cara Mia…I need you, more than I desire my next breath but, not in pieces, not a hollow piece of you when I am trading my very soul to you… It's all of you: your f*cked up soul, twisted mind, and unhinged heart or none of you. I can't."

After the momentum of deafening silence as Lei Xinyi assessed the truth in his features and he assessed her feelings for him but it was a disappointment to see plain curious eyes staring back at him.

She was right in her assumption! Her diagnosis had never been wrong.

Her instincts were telling her there was something fishy with the situation. He hired so expensively one of the finest and peerless surgeons just for kicks and giggles and that too without a cause when he had a whole team of professionals waiting on his back and call? Shaddy!

But she had figured it out… It was because he didn't want anyone to know! 

Lei Xinyi smiled softly and rolled her eyes then placed a hand on his chest in assurance, "Listen, Li Yuan. You don't need to be embarrassed. In fact, nobody needs to be embarrassed about their body functions, it's totally normal to have an abnormality. Everybody faces crises, some sooner than others…"

He was blown away by her pep talk and couldn't hold his jaw in place. He held her by her shoulders and shook her hard, stopping her rant, "Lei Xinyi! What the f*ck is going on in that head of her?!"

What abnormality? What body function?

She gave him another sympathetic smile and cupped his face, "Please, Li Yuan. I know how hard that must have been for you. But nothing will change how I feel about you even if you… I mean you stood by me in my bad time so I will stand by you too. After all, this is what friends are for…"

"Lei Xinyi!" He snapped at her, having lost his temper at her strange blabbering "What is it?!"

Was she finally going nuts or was this another one of her figured out mystery?

She pressed her lips with a saddened smile and she sighed, nodding at him, "I know about your… problem." 

He was about to open his mouth to ask 'what problem?' when she cut him off.

She moved her brows up and down in motion, disturbing him further. With a shake of her head, she patted his chest in support, "I will do everything in my knowledge to help you. Initially, I was confused about why you hired me as your private doctor but now I know it was because you wanted it to be a secret…"

"What the f*ck are you talking about?!" He yelled in utter frustration.

Lei Xinyi gave him another sympatric smile because of his aggressiveness that was arising from frustration, sexual frustration: she would put her money on.

She opened her mouth to elaborate when she turned red instead and pointed at his lower region with her eyes. He too looked down frowning at what she was talking about, "I know." She whispered as she avoided eye contact.

Her elaboration, if anything confused him further but before he could voice it she cut him off abruptly yet again, "Listen, you don't really need to feel bad about this because pretty much it can because of stress, depression, and even horrible s*x…"

Saying that had truly mortified her and even she had to tell herself that it was a physical issue and she was a doctor.

His eyes widened at her insinuation and snapped, "Lei Xinyi!" She blinked a couple of times and then faced him with her hooded eyes and reddened cheeks.

"What the hell are you talking about?" He could imagine where she was going with this but wanted to believe otherwise for the sake of his own sanity!

She cleared her throat and closed her eyes, even the tip of her ears got heated. He wasn't making it easy. She was trying to put it as mildly as she could but he was hell-bent on embarrassing her.

She took a deep breath and blurted, "Erectile dysfunction is not that much of a rarity nowadays so you don't need to be embarrassed!"

Li Yuan's eyes widened at her absurd statement and he scoffed then ran his hands through his hair in frustration. So what was this 'let's seduce Li Yuan to check if he jumps your bones then he is healthy down there otherwise he can't keep it up?!'

He was f*cking planning to take her to his underwater resort to finally tell her straight about his feelings to see her reaction and she was planning to solve his 'troubles'.

Did she just question his sexuality or did she just question his performing abilities?! He was f*cking going red by rage or embarrassment, even a mystery to himself.

Lei Xinyi thought his exasperation was because of embarrassment and continued in sympathy, "I know many herbs and tonic that can help you and once we figure out the problem we can erad…"

He took a calming breath for patience and held her by the shoulders ending her rant, "I will say this once. I have f*cking no problem in making you sore for days or to do you the whole night, till the sun rises!"

Lei Xinyi frowned at his crude statement and kept a hand on his arm, "Please don't make it an issue of your pride and brag. I can help you. You will be better in no time…"

He cornered her against the opposite wall and hissed against her ear¸ "Don't you f*cking feel it?"

Oh, she could really well feel his iron-hot dagger on her stomach but many men with the dysfunction can do that the problems start later…

And besides that, she was confident in her assumption. Why would then a playboy stop playing around at once three years ago? Everything was pointing to the very conclusion but he had the gals to call her imaginative!

He saw the smugness on her face like she was about to retort. His jaw clenched and he hissed instead, "I jerk off on a daily f*cking basis thinking of you wrapped around my shaft with you withering as I take you. Every f*cking morning I take fifteen minutes to get this perky ass and ample bosoms out of my system and you are f*cking invited to watch tomorrow to end your curiosity! I may give a hand to you too."

She gasped and her mouth fell open as she stared at his complacent expression, horrified. He had never talked to her so crudely, she may have been mortified and enraged as her whole body got hot to the point she might as well be a tomato.

But… a man telling her, he jerks off every morning with the fantasy of f*cking you was… explicit.

She knew he took cold showers but assumed it was because they were healthy and to come to think of it he did take long in the bathroom for a shower…

What had she `said to him! She wanted to cry at her stupidity and where it had landed her. Now she will never be able to look him in the eye.

She faced down as the whole conversation did play in her mind and she cringed. All she could do was pray that the ground would open and swallow her whole.

She even had the question of why he left his wh*rish ways and why wasn't he having it from somewhere then but it was enough humiliation for a day. Picking up the last shreds of her respects she pushed him off her and ran out of the room. 

God, just kill her already!

She needed to get a job, an empty mind is the devil's workshop!