221 Extinguishing An Old Flame

Now that he thought it through, Lei Xinyi was her first cousin and Lei Xinyi wasn't the only woman making a fool out of him! Su Qianwei knew it all along but opted to keep him in the dark so Lei Xinyi could slip away easily and now her motives for doing so were evident too.

To have him for herself...

The girls were toying with him that when Lei Xinyi was bored of him she passed him to Su Qainwei?! The thought constricted his heart.

Su Qianwei mockingly laughed at her fate as her eyes blurred her vision and clouded her head, "Lei Xinyi...it's because of her, right?" 

Her heart broke at the agony her name brought on his face. She was the one who had desired him all her life! She was the one who had spent all her life waiting for him!

Lei Xinyi...the woman who didn't give a f*ck and left him was the one he was leaving her for? Her rage blinded her senses.

She shook her head at the irony, and spat in disgust, "And here I thought, she couldn't ruin me anymore, than she already had. But she turned out to be a world-class wh*re!"

Li Yuan grabbed her by her arm, jerked her to her senses, and gritted through his teeth, "Su Qainwei, stop it! Don't bring her into this for your own well-being!"

Su Qianwei eyes blurred her vision, So he would stand up for the b*tch now, in front of her?! How blinded was he by that wh*re!

Su Qianwei smirked sarcastically through her agony that was piercing her heart and shook her head as she tried to prey his arm that was clutching her arm away, "Why should I?" 

"My bad! I underestimated the town's wh*re. At the age of fourteen, she could seduce the Lei's rightful heir, and do you know how she has passed from one man to another, sheesh...the slut truly left an impress..."

"Su Qainwei!" Li Yuan jerked her arm making her hit the wall again and fall on the floor due to forceful jerk. He neared to her face and harshly hissed, "Don't force me to forget my mother raised me to be a gentleman!"

It was a warning. Her heartfelt a pang of betrayal. For a woman he knew for only some months, he was warning her?! He was going to sabotage all their years together for a mere wh*re?!

Su Qianwei saw him take steps further away from her. She panicked and desperately tried to reach him, "Yuan, listen to me. She is probably dead and if not, I know her. She didn't love you! I love you! Why can't you see it, she will never love you like me! No other woman would! Even if she is alive she would be probably back to her old lover..."

Li Yuan shook his head at her antics. He couldn't believe she was the same woman who he called his friend. What was happening was getting him more out of his senses than he already was.

He huffed out a frustrated breath and shouted for his servant, "Butler Yang!"

"Yes, Young Master!"

The Butler at once appeared at the end of the corridor and not at once did his eyes wavered from his Master to the wailing familiar woman on the floor.

Li Yuan at once turned around to leave and commanded in a cold tone, "Have a maid help tidy Ms 'Lei' Qianwei, then escort her out."

"Yes, Master!"

Li Yuan rushed in his study and locked himself there, he ran a hand through his hairs in frustration and threw the nearest million dollars wine on the wall.

His heart felt constricted and he wanted to end it all, he wanted the world to feel the burn of the fire he was being stoved in.

It was all killing him. Su Qainwei was a friend...and now she was something he, himself couldn't name.

She had hurt him but not like it should have been assumed. He felt grief piercing his heart, He felt like he had led her on somewhere. Like he had made her into the self-destructive and spoilt woman she was.

Her being a Lei wouldn't have changed a thing. He would have protected her instead. He would do it still but he couldn't comprehend the woman who was wailing on the floor outside.

When did it all go down to this?

He had known she wasn't dating any man seriously and had assumed she was into girls or maybe not into relationships. He had even thought she was asexual or waiting for a guy.

Out of all his assumptions, he had never judged or questioned her but he never thought she was waiting for him. Had he known...

He told her he didn't see her like that, time and again! He even hinted it many times to make sure noting ruined it for them! When he had seen her for the first time surrounded by all the kids in a flowery dress, he had assumed her a sister he never had...

All his cousins despised her but he defended her always. He could see all the vile things she did to his partners but naturally assumed it was a sisterly instinct...Li Yuan growled and threw the nearest vase on the wall in the front.

He held his head in his hands. It was all going out of control. Everything around him was withering in atrocity.

But that wasn't what was killing him more, it was like he had lost everything in a matter of minutes. The woman he thought of as his sister and the woman he wanted to make his wife.

He wasn't a hypocrite. Though it bothered him that any man would have touched her before him but, it was obvious, it bothered Lei Xinyi too. It should too, she should be bothered. He would be bothered if she wasn't.

But what if Su Qianwei was right and Lei Xinyi had gone back to a lover or is in love with a man, already?

He could fight the world for her but how could he fight with her?! Li Yuan drank directly from the bottle.

He drank till the ache in his heart would subside but with every sip, he was hyper-aware of the miseries of his agony. 

He switched his phone on and opened his Gallery. He only had one photo in his gallery. The one mirror selfie he had captured of them together.

In the photo, she was smiling at him and he was standing there pridefully behind her. It was like she was his pride and there was nothing left of him if she wasn't in front of him any more.

He wished he could rest his heart by getting her out of the photo or getting in the photo if it meant he could be with her forever, still in a moment when she only looked at him while resting in his arms.

He dialled his mother in desperation, his mother picked on the first bell. 

"Li Yuan, Baby, is everything alright?" The worry in his mother voice was an entity well distinguished.

"Mom." The words were of an exhausted man and sliced through his mothers' heart. "I am tired, so tired."

Madam Li kept a hand on her heart as it felt the pang of his word and looked at the sky in her balcony. Her strong boy voice was broken today, she let out a ragged breath.

She hadn't been able to rest lately. Her heart was restless but how could a mother heart not be restless when her son was in this agony.

"Please Baby...let her go. For your Mama, your Mama needs you." Madam Li begged as tears skipped her eyes.

"Mom, I...I think I love her." Li Yuan exhaled at the words that weighed the world on his heart, "I don't think I can live without her, Mom. The thought of her not in this world or...or with another man kills me."

Madam Li kept a hand on her mouth to stifle the sob that was about to breakthrough. She had loved a man too like that. She knew the agony but how could she wish something like that on her own piece of heart.

If it was up to her, she would tie the wretched girl with him forever.

She couldn't help but feel hatred for the source of this agony on her son. She knew her son wasn't working properly, eating or resting. She wanted to avenge her little Boy who had grown to be a man and was breaking in front of her.

Only God knew how this was falling like hail on her heart...

Li Yuan chuckled weakly without humour, "Mom...her search keeps me alive." Unknown to him a tear slid down his left cheek, "Everday...Mom, everyday, I hope that she would be at the end of the dark tunnel but...Mom, I can't. I can't. I am broken, an incomplete man without her."

He drowned another gulp full of liquor that burnt his soul, "I love her to the extents that it hurts. If...Mom, if I had realized this sooner I...I would have begged her to stay with me."

"Baby..." Madam Li swallowed the lump in her throat and prayed, "Everything will be alright, Mommy promise you...Every...Everything will be fine." 

He kept the phone hopping his mother knew what she was talking about. He drank till he could feel his conscious slipping but before he could fall asleep his phone ringed.

He wanted to ignore it but it was his private number, only numbered people had it. He looked at the caller but it was an unknown untraceable number...