12 Chapter 12- Memories

Xiaxia sat there in a daze...

She was completely in a mess.

So much to think about...

She grabbed here phone beside her with still her earphones intact.

Once the phone lit up, it showed two faces...

two happy faces, faces of happiness, pureness and harmony.

Yaoyao...

tears flowed down again. She can barely open her swollen eyes and now she's crying again.

I'm so pathetic. I'm the biggest joke the world had.

She put her earphones on and started to play the radio on...

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I don't need your honesty

It's already in your eyes

And I'm sure my eyes, they speak for me

No one knows me like you do

And since you're the only one that matters

Tell me who do I run to?

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Honesty

HUH what a bull, I was just a fool to believe. She never loved me. She loved what I have. She loved what I am, not who I am.

I have nowhere to run.

Love, riches, happiness...

Yaoyao...you're my every bit of everything

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Look, don't get me wrong

I know there is no tomorrow

All I ask is

If this is my last night with you

Hold me like I'm more than just a friend

Give me a memory I can use

Take me by the hand while we do what lovers do

It matters how this ends

'Cause what if I never love again?

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I'll never fall in love again. Love is the most powerful thing to make a person, and the most powerful weapon to destroy someone.

She can feel her heart shattering to pieces.

How did it turn out like this?

I'm alone again. I'm all alone.

She's all I got, now she's gone.

She glance at her phone and thousand memories played again.

Stop! please stop...

Those memories...

I want to forget them, those are the happiest moments of my life eversince my parents died.

But to forget them is just remembering that they are not supposed to be there. To forget is to remember once again.

I can't take it anymore.

She cried. She screamed while she cried. She doesn't care whether her throat bleeds. She just cried her heart out.

I give up.