Chapter 585

After parting from Bai Wentao, Lu xialan walked alone on the street, suddenly feeling that she had never been so relaxed as now.

Before, there were too many things in my heart and too many things to worry about. Those things were like a huge stone, heavy pressure on Lu xialan.

This kind of pressure, Lu xialan has no way to accept, but there is no way to refuse, so can only let those things little by little crush her, her temperament also in such a life, become grumpy.

But at this time, she found that she was just a prisoner.

She suddenly noticed that she had missed a lot of beautiful moments before, because of Pei Li.

"It's so good to let go," she said to herself, sitting on the promenade of the park and looking at the color of the sky in the distance.

In this moment, Lu xialan suddenly understood everything.

"Although my heart is empty all of a sudden, I've never been so relaxed as I am now. I don't have to worry about anything, worry about anything, worry about the disclosure of what I've done before, and feel sad for Pei Li's finding other people."

Slowly exhaled, looking at the children still playing in the distance and the endless sky, she realized that she had missed such a beautiful thing for some reason.

It turns out that there is no other reason for all this. It's just that I was too narrow-minded to let those things go, so naturally, those things have become my shackles.

But I'm just painting a dungeon. Pei Li never wants to be with me, so it's meaningless to force himself. Why didn't he find this truth long ago?

If I could find out these things earlier, I would not do such wrong things.

When she opened the mobile phone, she saw the messages pushed on the mobile page, which were nothing more than trivial things in her life.

Holding her cell phone thoughtfully, she suddenly remembered something long ago. Why did she like Peili?

Is it because he is handsome or because he is every woman's dream? She shook her head, which had been forgotten for a long time.

"Why do I like Perry? When did you put your eyes on him? " She had such a problem in her heart, but she couldn't figure it out.

Thinking about those things in her heart, Lu xialan suddenly became confused. She didn't know why she liked him, so she made so many mistakes for her partner.

But now I think of it, she doesn't know why she likes Peili, but she keeps saying that she really loves her partner and that she won't marry her unless she does.

"It's really a bit naive. At the beginning, I did such a thing inexplicably. Maybe I cheated myself."

There was a light in her eyes because of her last words.

"Maybe it's because I cheated myself."

At this moment, she suddenly had an idea in her heart, "maybe I never like Perry? I just like the one who is in love

"What are my previous insistences?" She these some disappointments think like this, in the heart that point loses, swallowed Lu xialan oneself in an instant.

She didn't even know why she liked each other, so she thought that she was moved and great to do those things for each other, "so I've been making trouble out of nothing?"

Lu xialan is not happy with this idea in her heart. She doesn't know how to face Qin Yan who has been hurt by her, and she doesn't know how to make up for it.

It turned out that he was not as infatuated with Peili as he imagined, and he was not as reluctant to part himself as he was in his heart, but because of some obsession, some reluctance and some struggle.

But why didn't you discover all this earlier? If I had found my feelings for Peili earlier, things might not be like this now.

"The infatuation I thought before was just my own wishful thinking, but I also caused trouble to others because of my wishful thinking, and some people were hurt because of my unreasonable making trouble."

She thought with some loss, "but I don't want to do it. How could I have thought that I would have done such a thing because I was in a hurry?"

What Lu Xingyi said to himself before he moved is indeed right. He really should let go of his obsession.

Those obsessions will only make themselves afraid, and will only make their demons grow up unconsciously.

If I didn't turn back in time now, what would I become? Sometimes when she thought of it, she shivered inadvertently. She didn't dare to imagine what she was like at that time.

It must be terrible.

Fortunately, I have decided to let go now, so all things will end here. Since I have never really loved Peili, there should be no problem to let go now.

It's always good to stop in time.

I'm not so inseparable from Pei Li as I imagined, and I'm not so affectionate as I imagined. Since my previous love has always been my wishful thinking fantasy, I don't have the need to stick to it now.

What's more, I've been insisting on it all the time. I'm not happy in it. I just feel sad and sad that I can't ask for it.

What's more, in the process of doing it by oneself, it also caused undue harm to others.

"How did you find out about it now? I've been in love for such a long time, as if it doesn't belong to me at all, "she said with a wry smile, but she was relieved by what she thought today.

Before the pressure on the body of the heavy stone seems to be unloaded in an instant, which makes Lu xialan feel relaxed from the body with the heart.

"My previous insistence was just a funny joke, and now I have found it all in time."

She thought with some self mockery. Fortunately, she has not done anything irreparable wrong, and there is still room for everything.

"Now that I have decided to let go, then everything before has nothing to do with me," she thought happily. Those things that had made her sad before are finally abandoned by her, and she can finally live the life she wants.

What I was thinking about before was just because of my obsession. I may not like it so much, but I kept telling myself in my heart that I really like Peili.

Maybe I don't like it as much as I think, but because of my hypnosis day after day, I mistakenly think that those obsessions are deep love.

"I mean the love that has lasted so long doesn't belong to me at all, and I don't have to continue to worry about the love that doesn't exist."

She made such a conclusion with some affirmation. When she finished analyzing her heart, she found out such a thing. She really couldn't laugh or cry.

"It's almost your birthday this time. Why don't we have a birthday party?" Lu Xingyi carefully reminded the topic and looked at Lu xialan who was absent-minded sitting on the sofa.

"Well, good," she nodded.

But the purpose of Lu Xingyi is not as simple as he said. He wants to take this opportunity to find a boyfriend for Lu xialan.

In his heart, he is still afraid that Lu xialan will have obsession with those things before, and can't forget those things before. Maybe he will do something wrong.

He also knows that Lu xialan has realized his previous problems and is now correcting them, but after all, he is still a little worried.

"Then I'll hold the birthday party, and give it to me?" He some tentative of so asked out, but found Lu xialan for this matter and no reaction.

He wants to take this opportunity to find a person for Lu xialan to accompany her, so that Lu xialan will not feel too lonely in her later life, and with such a person, she will not think of those things before.

Lu xialan's birthday party is an opportunity to find her boyfriend.

"Brother, I really put down those things before," Lu xialan thought for a moment, or opened his mouth to explain.

She knew that what she had done before worried Lu Xingyi, and how much she had gone too far before.

Lu Xingyi decided to hold a birthday party for himself this time. It should be for this reason. He is still not at ease with himself, so he wants to divert his attention in this way.

This point, Lu xialan knows, but still did not say.

"Well, I know," Lu Xingyi nodded, knowing that she had understood what she meant.

"I've put down all those things before, so I also want to start my new life here," she said to Lu Xingyi. "I want to live the life I thought about before."

"Let's start with this birthday party," she said with a smile. "I want to start my life here."

"I wonder if you can come with me? Accompany me through this time. "

When Lu Xingyi heard his sister say this, he was surprised. He always hoped that his sister could put down the previous things and start a new life.

Now that it has finally come true, he is both gratified and moved.