8 memories

I always go from bad to worse. I was born into a world full of filth, a world full of murder and rape

A world that was downright, crazy.

I was born in a world that is full of surprises. Sometimes, these surprises are good, sometimes these surprises are bad. Some surprises are good for some people, but those same surprises would be bad for everyone else, so because of my bad luck. I got the short end of the stick.

From the day I was born to the fateful day I was abducted, I didn't know what was going to happen in the future.

I recall having been a powerful gang leader fourteen years ago. Everybody was terrified of me or even the mere mention of my name

My name was sufficient to make grown men piss their panties in terror

In those good old days, I was right down psychopath. I was labeled as a human, but everyone knew that I was a monster.

I still remember the eyes of the last girl I raped, she was so beautiful. I remember the first time I saw her smile when she came into my lair. Her smile was so bright and full of joy, too bad I didn't get to see her smile one last time before I left that world. Before everything went to hell and I died.

I didn't do anything wrong, I just did what I wanted to do like always. She couldn't protect herself because she was weak so that's her fault, not mine

I.....

I remember when I was dying, I heard her mother crying. Why was she crying when she was killing me? Is she sad about my death? Or was she crying because of what happened to her husband and daughter or was she also falling in darkness and despair like me?

I just kept on falling. Except this time in a very literal way, I'm falling to my death off a high mountain

Is it all over for me?

Falling is a strange and beautiful feeling. You feel that your body is free, with no one controlling you, but as always, everything that is beautiful must come to an end.

I had to face this ugly reality, there is no escape from that

That pitch is the reason why I am falling now. I don't know why I followed her to the top of the mountain, but that doesn't make any difference now.

I'm going to die again

I always had bad memories with falling

I remember my first fall, it was while I was playing when I was a little boy. At that time I hurt my knee, I was just a little kid how doesn't know any better

I wasn't the monster that is in front of you now

My mom saw me crying and she looked at me then smiled, that was the first time I saw my mom smile since I was born.

She carried me and entered the kitchen, lit the stove and put a knife on the fire

She said to me, "I don't want to hear your screaming anymore" and put the knife on my hand.

Every time I screamed, she would push the knife harder. She continued on doing this until I shut up, I didn't want to feel that pain anymore.

Since that day I hated falling, however, falling is really a beautiful feeling

This world is so strange... despite the repetition of its stories and events..... But everyone in it still tends to fall into the very same mistakes and repeat the same events.... and feels the same pain over and over again

Everything in human life revolves around,

Hope ..... and... pain

But the worst thing you can do in life is to give someone hope and then take it from him to give him pain instead.

I learned my lesson

I shouldn't trust anyone and shouldn't love anyone, everyone is bad so you must be worst

What's new?

Since the day I was born, I have fallen

fallen into madness.

fallen in darkness.

fallen in despair.

.. everything I loved, all my morals and dreams are gone

It all gradually decreased until the last collision, known as death!

So I asked myself an important question

Do I really want to fly?

Do I want to feel that I am without any restrictions?

Do I want to feel that I am free from gravity?

Or do I want this black end?

She stands there and looks at me with those damned eyes

I don't want to meet my end. Not now not again, Not in front of this damned pi.....

All I thought about during the fall was Freedom.....

To fly towards the sky to end the pain...

I felt the air around me .....

At that moment, I thought of her words before she pushed me off the edge...

Before my head reaches the ground...

I remembered...

"control your Mana and stay alive ..."

Stay alive, she doesn't want me dead she wants me to survive this.

But how?

Control my mana so I did exactly that, I controlled my Mana with all my strength, suddenly all my inner energy. It turned into a certain shape that I always loved

« you have learned a new class, Shape Shifter. »

I opened the skills and went to the Shape Shifter class and opened the first skill and raised it to the fourth level

Then I closed my eyes

And whispered

" transform "

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