7 Chapter 7

Few days had gone since the last time I saw Royal. I must admit, I miss him. But if I continue myself seeing him, I might fall really hard. I might end up copping my feelings and it would just give me embarrassment because fessing up my feelings mean accepting defeat.

"It's so sad. You can't go with us." Janrez stated, frowning.

Janrez and I are friends again. To be honest, I can't stand ignoring her the whole day knowingly she sits beside me. And it's really hard for me not to talk to her because I'm used in chitchatting with her everytime our professor is boring.

"Yeah," Via agreed, pouting. "We hope you can be with us, you know. It'll be fun."

We're inside the coffee shop near the university. We decided to go here to relax. One hour ahead is our next class. Good thing we have ample of time to freshen up our minds.

"And you'll be out of topic everytime we'll throwback." Angelika added.

"Yeah," I sighed in defeat. "But you guys know my situation. Up to now, my parents are blaming me for Omega's death."

"I really don't understand them." Janrez growled in furrowed brows. "It wasn't really your fault. It was an accident."

"I know." I replied torpidly. "But I can't blame them though. And a part of me blame myself for being irresponsible."

"Irresponsible?" Angelika mouthed. "That's too harsh, Alpha. It was just an accident. In fact, they should be the one to blame because they weren't there to look after Omega."

I looked down and propped my elbow on the table and rested my jaw at the back of my palm. My heart is sinking vigoriously. I don't know what to do. Royal isn't around. I need him right now but I have to be remote from him. I want him to think about his feelings. He just broke up with Ria. I know it's not easy to move on because I could really see how much he loves that girl. So it's hard for me to believe him that he loves me more than just a sister.

"That's enough, guys." Trixie butted in, dismissing the topic. "Let's not talk about that thing. We have... two days. Two days to confirm if Alpha will go with us or she'll stay inside her room the whole Saturday night."

I chuckled at her line and she furrowed her brows in confusion. Nothing at all. I just found her line funny.

After the class, I decided to go home. And I admit, I was expecting him to fetch me but I ended up disappointed because no Royal showed up.

Anyway, I locked myself inside my room when I felt my guts rumbling because of hunger so I decided to go down to get something to eat. Just when I saw Royal sitting on the couch while tapping his phone. And few minutes passed when my phone rang inside my pocket. We both flinched and my cheeks started to heat up when our eyes met. Just in, I feel the emptiness in my heart that he's the only one who can fill it up. And a moment later, tears pooled over my eyes so I whirled around and marched the way to the kitchen. I forgot I'm hungry.

Goddammit, Raphaela!

"Alpha..." he called out, sounded hurt, but I ignored it because my heart started to race. I really hate the idea of meeting him. The feelings are getting stronger and I know they are no good at all.

"What are you doing here, Royal?" I asked, straining to be cold and strong but I failed miserably.

"Alpha..." he called out again. This time, I whirled around to face him with a scowl.

"Haven't I told you to stay away from me?" I clenched my jaw tight but when I saw a hint of misery in his eyes, my heart melt and all I wanna do is to hug him right now. I want to console him, to tell him that it's okay.

But I just couldn't. He's like a fire that burns everything that gets near to him no matter what kind it is.

"I did my best."

"You did your best?" I chortled sarcastically. "You aren't playing fair, Royal. You know..." I looked down, feeling stabbed behind my back.

"I know what? I'm serious here, Raphaela."

And for the first time, I heard him saying my second name and I must admit, it hurts me so bad.

Memories of us crept into my mind. The last time I saw him, he told me he loves me. That even though he's in a relationship with Ria, if he'll be to choose between me and that girl, he will choose me because he knows I'm up to something.

"Leave, Royal. Please leave."

"You can't say that to me, Alpha." He said as he came closer to me and I gulped once because I sensed his fiery scent that droves me beyond sanity. "Listen, Raphaela." He demanded and gripped my shoulders, making me moaned in pain. "You can't do this to me."

"I can, Royal. I can! Let me go! You're hurting me!"

"I-I'm sorry," he said and pulled away from me. "I-It wasn't my intention to hurt you."

"You're always hurting me!" I broke down into tears. "Without your knowledge, I envy Ria for having you! That every single breath I take, I wish I'm that lucky you're crazy of. And whom you don't want to let go of. But now... I wish I never loved you. Or I must say, I never met you."

"Please, Alpha... I will court you if you want to."

I shook my head in disapproval.

"My parents would kill us if they'll find out we love each other."

"No," he quickly objected. "They won't, Alpha... they won't. I will tell my mom that I want you."

"You just want me." I coldly said and paused for awhile. My heart is sinking. "But I'm not that someone you need." I walked past by him and immediately broke down into tears. I wish this pain would end. What shall I do? I'm afraid of my parents. They are not allowing me to have any relationship with other boys. And I'm scared that they will bring up the topic about what had happened to Omega. They will blame and accuse me again and again for being irresponsible sister.

Weekends when I decided to stay at home. My parents are around and I'm glad about it. But as expected, they aren't talking to me unless they want something.

"I heard you're not good with Royal." Mom coldly stated in the middle of our lunch.

"Y-Yes, mom." I stammered and cowered a bit. I can feel the pang slowly destroying my system.

I heard the sound of utensils because they were hit on a plate.

"But why? Don't tell me you're not following him?" She said in disappointment.

"I-It's not that, m-mom. We just had a misunderstanding." I explained and immediately bit my lower lip the moment I ended my line.

"Misunderstanding?" She mouthed in dismay and I looked down, scared of her eyes. "How many times do we have to tell you you should not be against him? You know he's better than you. And you're too young to have your own decision."

"Fix it, Raphaela." Dad butted in, sounds like commanding. "I don't want Graciana to think that you're being stubborn to Royal. You should know the word "shame", Raphaela."

"Y-yes, d-dad." I answered, stuttering and I looked down because tears are wanting to escape from my eyes.

Later that night, I have no choice but to call Royal. I know it's a shame of counting on him but I have no one to talk to. I know he's the only one who can understand my situation.

"Alpha..." he called out over the phone the moment he answered my call.

"C-Can I see you?" I asked immediately between my cry. I closed my eyes tightly and cupped my mouth to suppress myself from sobbing.

"S-Sure, baby. What's wrong? I'm starting to worry 'bout you."

"C-Can you drop by here to fetch me up? My parents are here. I don't want them to see me like this. They will just get mad at me."

"Yeah, sure. Wait me up, okay?"

"O-okay," I nodded and he heaved a sigh.

"I miss you so much." He said before he hang up when I was about to reply him.

"I miss you too." I whispered in the air, hoping he would hear it.

I stood up and went inside the bathroom. I need to clean my messy face so I washed it with soup and after that, I changed my clothes into a tank top and a jacket paired with ripped maong jeans and a pair of white shoes. I also applied light make up to conceal my swollen eyes. And as everything is settled, my phone rang. I assumed it is Royal who's calling me.

"Hello?" I spoke up the moment I answered his call.

"I'm waiting outside your house. Where are you?"

I peeked behind the curtain and I saw him standing beside his car. He's wandering his eyes around and I hid again to take a deep breath.

"I'm ready. I'm still inside my room. Wait me in your location. I'll just tiptoe for them not to notice me."

"Alright, baby. I will wait you here."

"Thanks," I said and heaved a sigh. I realized how much I miss him. How much I need and want him for my life.

"Thank me later."

"Yeah, sure." I quickly replied and hang up. I need to go down the stair without their notice. I hope they are having a rest now.

I tiptoed while walking down the stair. The living room is lit up and I hope no one is there. And when I almost succeeded, I heard few voices so I hid behind the wall and pulled my phone up and turned it to silent mode. I then typed a message for Royal.

Me:

Wait me, can you? I think my parents are still wide awake.

After I sent the message, I switched off my phone so no light to be seen. And just few seconds passed, my phone vibrated and lit up. I just ignored it 'cause I can hear footsteps and voices.

"We shouldn't treat Alpha that way." I heard Dad stated.

"What do you expect from me, Raphael? Everytime I see her, it reminds me of incident. We lost Omega because of her."

I bit my lower lip as my eyes heat up because of forming tears on it.

"It was an accident." Dad convinced.

"It wasn't," mom objected. "It was her fault why Omega died. If only she was responsible enough, we won't lose her!"

"You're overrating, hon. It wasn't her fault at all. We are to be blamed as well because we weren't there when the incident happen."

"Whatever you say, Raphael. It doesn't make any sense. We lost Omega because of Alpha."

After that, stamping feet followed and the shutting of doors harshly.

My phone vibrated again and this time, I read the message from Royal.

Royal:

Take time.

Where are you? It's getting cold here.

I hope you're fine, baby. Don't worry, I'll wait you here outside your house.

I broke down into tears heavily as I realized how big the impact he caused to me. It's only simple words but I can feel myself wanting for more. How I wish I can freely express my love to him. But I know it's forbidden. My mom won't allow me. Or even dad. They will kill me once they know I'm into a relationship.

When I got the chance to escape from our house, I grabbed it immediately. I tiptoed again while running towards the gate. And I saw Royal moved immediately the moment he saw me.

Wearing a sweat jacket and jeans, he looked so innocent and strikingly beautiful. From here, I can see his deep coffee eyes that never failed to make my feet wobble in nervousness.

Once I got out from the gate, I ran towards him and hugged him tight. He hugged me back even tighter like he was dying to hold me in his arms.

"Shsh. It's okay, baby. It'll be alright." He shushed me soothingly and I closed my eyes more as my heart hammered inside my chest. I missed him so bad.

After awhile, I decided to loosen up from him. I looked down and wiped my messy face with the use of the sleeve of my jacket. I thank whoever made this because I have an alternative handkerchief.

"Take me home." I said. And when I say "home", it means it's in his room.

"As your wish, Alpha. I will." He said and once again, he pulled me closer to his chest and wrapped me around his arm, making my heart palpitate twice as I'm drowning into his manly scent and I couldn't help but to close my eyes while feeling him against my body. So much pleasure you caused me, Royal.