20 Chapter 20

*Andy's POV*

I held Lydia in my arms. I was never scared like this before. How can I be so careless? I knew it from the start that she was pale and I really didn't care about it. I was so blinded by my anger. I hurt her so badly. I was yelling at her. I cursed her yet she never raised her voice at me. She just told me that she loves me over and over again. She was begging me for heaven's sake and what I did is hurt her even more.

I rushed her to the nearest hospital. She was taken immediately to emergency. She lost too much blood. I haven't heard from the doctors yet. An hour later, a doctor came out. I was too eager to know if she is fine.

"Are you the husband?" the doctor asked me. I nodded my head I can't even utter a word.

"I don't want to give you any hopes Sir, both your wife and the baby are safe.... for now. She lost too much blood and it seemed that she's rejecting everything. The next twenty four hours will be very crucial. She's in deep coma. It's really up to her now. "The doctor tapped my shoulder and left."

I still refuse to believe that this is happening. We are having a baby. I can't let them go. We will be a family. God, she was begging me so hard. Now I understand why. I should be more careful. I shouldn't have pushed here. It's all my fault. I should have talked to her property. I should have given her a chance to explain.

"No... no... no... please Andy. I love you. I will die without you. I can't do it.. please... please... we need you. I beg you please... I love you..."

Those were her last words. It's still playing in my head. I grabbed my phone and called Marcus, my personal assistant cum bodyguard. "I need you to go to the mansion. Check those files and pictures inside Lydia's room. I need to know the truth. And track down Diana for me, she should be in one of Asia branch now."

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*Andy's POV*

Lydia is still in a coma. She's already in a private room that I arranged for her. I am still waiting for Marcus's report about the file that I gave him. I was hoping that it was all a lie. I was so blinded by my anger that I didn't gave her any chance to explain. I should have given her the benefit of the doubt. Lydia was never secretive. She's like an open book. She's not even materialistic for God's sake! Right now, I can't still forgive myself for being so harsh and rude to her. I should have listened to her. I thought I am going to lose her that night. And the fact that she was pregnant with my child and fighting for her life made me feel very guilty about it.

It's been three long weeks and I never left her side. Not even once. I wanted to be there when she opens her eyes. I want to tell her how sorry I am. I want to tell her that we can talk things over. And that I want to listen to her side. I want to tell her that I am happy about our baby. And I still care for her. Oh, there are a lot of things that I want to tell her. When are you going to wake up darling? God, Lydia please fight for me, for our baby.

Yes, I loved Lydia but after what happened I admit I am having doubts. I am still not sure if there would still be a wedding but what's important right now is for her to survive. We are having a child. I can't let the child grow up without a father but I don't want to marry someone I don't trust anymore. And yet, I decided to give her a chance. I want to hear her side of story.

It's almost noontime when I noticed Lydia stirred. She slowly opened her eyes and I am greeted by the pair of emerald eyes. It's so beautiful and yet she still looked very fragile. I came close to her and held her hand.

"Wa... wa... ter" she's having a hard time talking. Yes, she needs water. I took a glass of water and helped her drink it. "Thank you." she said softly.

"You're welcome. How are you feeling?" I asked her.

"Fine, I guess." she turned to me with so much longing in her eyes. "I'm happy that you're finally awake." I told her and I squeezed her hand.

"Why? I thought you hate me." I was caught off guard I didn't know how to respond. She sighed. "You know, I thought I was not coming back. I saw grandma. We were in a beautiful garden. I was at peace and happy. I was loved. I didn't want to leave that place but grandma told me I should go. She took me to that bridge and then I woke up." Tears started to fall and it breaks my heart.

I tried to console her but kept saying she shouldn't be here. She wants to be with her grandma. We were on that position when the doctor came. He told me that making Lydia cry is not best for her health and for the baby.

"Please keep her from being upset. She's still very weak." Dr. Woods gave me a friendly tap on my back before he walked away.

Somehow, we'll talk things over Lydia. It's not yet the right time. I don't know what to believe anymore. I know deep in my heart that I still have feelings for her. But the fact that she is the culprit, I don't think I can still trust her again. How about the baby? God, I hope Marcus will be able to find out the truth about those files. I just hope that it was just a mistake.