Chapter 1142
I like Murphy, first attracted by her beauty and coldness, then captured by her straightforwardness and fragility wrapped in Pride and strong appearance... I am very clear about my feelings for her, which are simpler and clearer than my feelings for Tassels and asters. I didn't play from childhood to childhood, wash my feet in a basin, sleep in a bed, cover a quilt, or eat, drink or have fun For Murphy, I only have men's original Yu hope for women - desire to get, conquer and possess.
The most primitive, often the most simple, so I did not hesitate to stay in Fengchang, willing to pay for her all I can pay, I think, is because in front of the feelings is always embarrassed me, only to like her this thing, there is no confusion.
Madame Duanmu didn't force me to answer her questions. She was a smart woman. Chu Yuan and sister tiger's claws could hide from her eyes. But the two young girls were so careful and thoughtful that she read the bottom of their hearts. They were bright. So she just sipped tea and asked me gently: "Chu Nan, don't you think... You just left Beitian like this, and I was in the same year Just left the room like that, is it the same? "
Her tone was more casual than before, but this words got into my ears, but it was as heavy as a mountain hit my heart. Madame Duanmu lowered her head, only the tea cup in her hand was in sight, but I, who was close to her, still felt her eyes staring at me, as if every beat of my heart, she knew it.
This abnormal sense of oppression made me realize - that's why Madame Duanmu brought me to this place obstinately and recklessly.
Indeed, if I also hold my feelings for Murphy and choose not to leave candidly, it really looks like Duanmu's wife in those days.
Chu Yuan and tiger sister also stay. Their thoughts are not hard to guess. They don't want to hear me admit that I like Murphy, and they don't want to see the story that has been proved unfortunate repeated in me. So Chu Yuan quickly says, "it's not the same!"
"What's different?" Madame Duanmu raised her head and said with a smile, "people are different, so the same choice may have different results?"
It may be because Madame Duanmu said what she was trying to say, so Chu Yuan, who was peeped into the heart, was at a psychological disadvantage. When she said it, she had no bottom line. "It's hard... Isn't it?"
"That's right, but you and I have different perspectives on things," Mrs. Duanmu said. "Xiaoyuanyuan, I ask you why I say that I'm telling 'my story', not 'my past'?"
Chu Yuan shakes his head.
"Because the people in the story are called" hornses ". People are different from people, but what about people who play the same hornses in the same story? It's like a classic drama. No matter how many repetitions are performed, Romeo is Romeo, Juliet is Juliet, 1000 times, 10000 times, the result of martyrdom will not change... It's the story that decides the angle se, or the angle se that decides the story, which is not important. What's important is that such a story, such a angle se, is doomed to be this at the end What kind of tragedy... "Madame Duanmu slowly said to me:" Chu Nan, in your body, I see the shadow of two people. You are the same as Duanmu. I don't have much direct contact with you. I don't know much about you. I don't know who is more like them. But I know that no one has more say than me. In such a story, no matter you go there It's wrong to play any of them... "
Chu Yuan is silent. Madame Duanmu's words are profound to her. Even if she doesn't agree with them, she doesn't know how to refute them. But Dong Xiaoye just chews them carefully and agrees with her. Because she's too absorbed, she's ravaging my tiger claws and has no strength at all.
"I can't think," I said, "are you here to talk to me about Fifi?"
"Of course, fei'er doesn't want you to leave Beitian, but I think she would prefer you to stay for her rather than for what I said. So, I just said these words to you for myself," Mrs. Duanmu said: "I know you must want to ask again. Don't I like fei'er? Why care about her? People will change, woman It's more fickle. I didn't like her before, which doesn't mean I don't like her now. My guilt for fei'er is much more than Xiao Qiu's. I just ignored Xiao Qiu, but I cursed fei'er endlessly and maliciously. So you can understand that I am eager to make compensation for fei'er, or to redeem myself, reduce the guilt in my heart, so as to feel at ease. "
"If I were you, I would not feel at ease," I said with a wry smile, "I am wrong to be a master of Mohism and a master of Duanmu, but who can prove that I am right not to be a master of Mohism and a master of Duanmu?"
"No one can prove that," Madame Duanmu's simply surprised me, and she looked at Chu Yuan and sister tiger on both sides of me, and said, "especially you little boy, you are the one who is destined to commit the crime of pickpocketing. There are many beautiful girls and good girls around you. It's reasonable to say that Phil hasn't been harmed by you, so I should thank God. How can I push her into your fire pit? To be frank with you, when I know that Xiaoqiu has a good feeling for you, I've evaporated your mind from the world. But think about it again. There's always a reason why so many girls can't be blind or stupid. They appreciate you, like you and have a good feeling for you. Once a woman falls in love with you, I know better than you. Let alone jump into the fire I know what you are worried about, because I have experienced it, because I have experienced it, so I know more about what I should do now, what I say, I have not, and will not tell you, 'what I let you do is correct', this is too big, too groundless, feelings are not a person's thing, it's uncertain, the parties themselves are difficult To control, let alone outsiders? All I can tell you is that it must be a mistake for you to leave fei'er without permission, because you like her and she also likes you. The regret that a lover can't get married eventually will become a piece of disability that can never be filled in your own happiness, and it's a big one. Maybe I don't know you enough, and I don't know whether you will become the same or the same, but I understand Fei I don't deny that I also don't know Xiaocheng, don't know the official of Dongjing around you, don't know the third lady who has no idea about you. I don't know if you accept fei'er, the ending of this story will be happy or more miserable than my story, but... "Madame Duanmu paused and said to me in a voice of emotion like asking herself, "no one's life that hasn't been experienced is a script that has been written, so why do you copy others' life that has been experienced as a script, and kill your own life's unknown, possible?"? No one in the pursuit of happiness at the beginning can predict whether happiness can be traced back to the results of the hand, so you have no reason to abandon yourself without efforts? The most important thing is... You know that this road is wrong and you still have the consciousness to go to the end. Then why can't you hold the same consciousness and go to another road that you don't know is right or wrong? Love is not a matter of one person. If another person is willing to accompany you to face difficulties and meet risks, it is a great happiness, isn't it? What's more, Ho Ho, from the perspective of my onlookers, it's not just fei'er who is willing to take risks with you. Maybe it's the luckiest thing for you and fei'er to meet a girl like Xiao Cheng in your life. "
I haven't spoken for a long time, and my heart is surging.
Of course, I won't change my decision to go to + sea to replace Jiang Yu, because the purpose of this trip is different. I don't know Duanmu's wife, who is prejudiced by Jiang Laofu's heart. But it's true that I deliberately took the opportunity to alienate Murphy and end this ambiguous feeling. But this remark of Duanmu's wife tonight made me waver. Am I determined to leave Liusu and Murphy Is it really too subjective? Do I hope that they will get happiness, but kill their happiness?
Fart - what kind of sweet cake are you Chunan? The man in the world is dead? Why can only you give them happiness? Why can't they be happy without you? Mr. Duanmu, who is as wise as a fool, doesn't believe that only he can give Mrs. Duanmu happiness in the world. In addition to being lazy and unable to make progress, you, Chu Nan, can take out a small grass root that can compare with others, and where is your self-confidence from?
A stove of sandalwood is exhausted. Madame Duanmu puts down her tea cup, gets up and starts to speak, interrupting my confused thoughts. "Well, my story is finished, and I have finished what I should say. It's not early. Let's go back."
This woman is always friendly, so that people will not feel nervous and oppressive in front of her. She can talk and do things, but often shows a strong and arrogant. Doesn't she think that she never answers any questions we have?
My heart is alert, my sweat pores tighten in a moment, as if blocked by countless small ice cones, shivering, bone cold - Murphy or tassel, who are not like Madame Duanmu's self and not frank people?
Madame Duanmu is afraid of the repetition of the story, maybe not because I am like Mo or Mr. Duanmu, but because Murphy is like her.
Liu Su has cried and made trouble, but she is more frank with her feelings than Liu Su, but she never asked me why I left Beitian. It's so abnormal. She doesn't want me to be embarrassed, doesn't she want to force me? If so, she was the Duanmu lady who sat in this room twenty-four years ago...
PS: I got up late, I'm sorry, I can't sleep well these days. I ate two pieces of stability, and I can't wake up...
I cut off the net yesterday. This chapter should have been updated yesterday. The leakage of the house happened every night. The heating hasn't been repaired yet. God and Netcom still make trouble together. It snows again He cut off the net again, bought an electric fan and put it on the table to bake his paws. The paws are warm, but his eyes are dry. It's hard...
PS2: go out to do some private affairs in the afternoon. I don't know when I will be back, so it may be updated very late. Please don't wait for the change.
The most primitive, often the most simple, so I did not hesitate to stay in Fengchang, willing to pay for her all I can pay, I think, is because in front of the feelings is always embarrassed me, only to like her this thing, there is no confusion.
Madame Duanmu didn't force me to answer her questions. She was a smart woman. Chu Yuan and sister tiger's claws could hide from her eyes. But the two young girls were so careful and thoughtful that she read the bottom of their hearts. They were bright. So she just sipped tea and asked me gently: "Chu Nan, don't you think... You just left Beitian like this, and I was in the same year Just left the room like that, is it the same? "
Her tone was more casual than before, but this words got into my ears, but it was as heavy as a mountain hit my heart. Madame Duanmu lowered her head, only the tea cup in her hand was in sight, but I, who was close to her, still felt her eyes staring at me, as if every beat of my heart, she knew it.
This abnormal sense of oppression made me realize - that's why Madame Duanmu brought me to this place obstinately and recklessly.
Indeed, if I also hold my feelings for Murphy and choose not to leave candidly, it really looks like Duanmu's wife in those days.
Chu Yuan and tiger sister also stay. Their thoughts are not hard to guess. They don't want to hear me admit that I like Murphy, and they don't want to see the story that has been proved unfortunate repeated in me. So Chu Yuan quickly says, "it's not the same!"
"What's different?" Madame Duanmu raised her head and said with a smile, "people are different, so the same choice may have different results?"
It may be because Madame Duanmu said what she was trying to say, so Chu Yuan, who was peeped into the heart, was at a psychological disadvantage. When she said it, she had no bottom line. "It's hard... Isn't it?"
"That's right, but you and I have different perspectives on things," Mrs. Duanmu said. "Xiaoyuanyuan, I ask you why I say that I'm telling 'my story', not 'my past'?"
Chu Yuan shakes his head.
"Because the people in the story are called" hornses ". People are different from people, but what about people who play the same hornses in the same story? It's like a classic drama. No matter how many repetitions are performed, Romeo is Romeo, Juliet is Juliet, 1000 times, 10000 times, the result of martyrdom will not change... It's the story that decides the angle se, or the angle se that decides the story, which is not important. What's important is that such a story, such a angle se, is doomed to be this at the end What kind of tragedy... "Madame Duanmu slowly said to me:" Chu Nan, in your body, I see the shadow of two people. You are the same as Duanmu. I don't have much direct contact with you. I don't know much about you. I don't know who is more like them. But I know that no one has more say than me. In such a story, no matter you go there It's wrong to play any of them... "
Chu Yuan is silent. Madame Duanmu's words are profound to her. Even if she doesn't agree with them, she doesn't know how to refute them. But Dong Xiaoye just chews them carefully and agrees with her. Because she's too absorbed, she's ravaging my tiger claws and has no strength at all.
"I can't think," I said, "are you here to talk to me about Fifi?"
"Of course, fei'er doesn't want you to leave Beitian, but I think she would prefer you to stay for her rather than for what I said. So, I just said these words to you for myself," Mrs. Duanmu said: "I know you must want to ask again. Don't I like fei'er? Why care about her? People will change, woman It's more fickle. I didn't like her before, which doesn't mean I don't like her now. My guilt for fei'er is much more than Xiao Qiu's. I just ignored Xiao Qiu, but I cursed fei'er endlessly and maliciously. So you can understand that I am eager to make compensation for fei'er, or to redeem myself, reduce the guilt in my heart, so as to feel at ease. "
"If I were you, I would not feel at ease," I said with a wry smile, "I am wrong to be a master of Mohism and a master of Duanmu, but who can prove that I am right not to be a master of Mohism and a master of Duanmu?"
"No one can prove that," Madame Duanmu's simply surprised me, and she looked at Chu Yuan and sister tiger on both sides of me, and said, "especially you little boy, you are the one who is destined to commit the crime of pickpocketing. There are many beautiful girls and good girls around you. It's reasonable to say that Phil hasn't been harmed by you, so I should thank God. How can I push her into your fire pit? To be frank with you, when I know that Xiaoqiu has a good feeling for you, I've evaporated your mind from the world. But think about it again. There's always a reason why so many girls can't be blind or stupid. They appreciate you, like you and have a good feeling for you. Once a woman falls in love with you, I know better than you. Let alone jump into the fire I know what you are worried about, because I have experienced it, because I have experienced it, so I know more about what I should do now, what I say, I have not, and will not tell you, 'what I let you do is correct', this is too big, too groundless, feelings are not a person's thing, it's uncertain, the parties themselves are difficult To control, let alone outsiders? All I can tell you is that it must be a mistake for you to leave fei'er without permission, because you like her and she also likes you. The regret that a lover can't get married eventually will become a piece of disability that can never be filled in your own happiness, and it's a big one. Maybe I don't know you enough, and I don't know whether you will become the same or the same, but I understand Fei I don't deny that I also don't know Xiaocheng, don't know the official of Dongjing around you, don't know the third lady who has no idea about you. I don't know if you accept fei'er, the ending of this story will be happy or more miserable than my story, but... "Madame Duanmu paused and said to me in a voice of emotion like asking herself, "no one's life that hasn't been experienced is a script that has been written, so why do you copy others' life that has been experienced as a script, and kill your own life's unknown, possible?"? No one in the pursuit of happiness at the beginning can predict whether happiness can be traced back to the results of the hand, so you have no reason to abandon yourself without efforts? The most important thing is... You know that this road is wrong and you still have the consciousness to go to the end. Then why can't you hold the same consciousness and go to another road that you don't know is right or wrong? Love is not a matter of one person. If another person is willing to accompany you to face difficulties and meet risks, it is a great happiness, isn't it? What's more, Ho Ho, from the perspective of my onlookers, it's not just fei'er who is willing to take risks with you. Maybe it's the luckiest thing for you and fei'er to meet a girl like Xiao Cheng in your life. "
I haven't spoken for a long time, and my heart is surging.
Of course, I won't change my decision to go to + sea to replace Jiang Yu, because the purpose of this trip is different. I don't know Duanmu's wife, who is prejudiced by Jiang Laofu's heart. But it's true that I deliberately took the opportunity to alienate Murphy and end this ambiguous feeling. But this remark of Duanmu's wife tonight made me waver. Am I determined to leave Liusu and Murphy Is it really too subjective? Do I hope that they will get happiness, but kill their happiness?
Fart - what kind of sweet cake are you Chunan? The man in the world is dead? Why can only you give them happiness? Why can't they be happy without you? Mr. Duanmu, who is as wise as a fool, doesn't believe that only he can give Mrs. Duanmu happiness in the world. In addition to being lazy and unable to make progress, you, Chu Nan, can take out a small grass root that can compare with others, and where is your self-confidence from?
A stove of sandalwood is exhausted. Madame Duanmu puts down her tea cup, gets up and starts to speak, interrupting my confused thoughts. "Well, my story is finished, and I have finished what I should say. It's not early. Let's go back."
This woman is always friendly, so that people will not feel nervous and oppressive in front of her. She can talk and do things, but often shows a strong and arrogant. Doesn't she think that she never answers any questions we have?
My heart is alert, my sweat pores tighten in a moment, as if blocked by countless small ice cones, shivering, bone cold - Murphy or tassel, who are not like Madame Duanmu's self and not frank people?
Madame Duanmu is afraid of the repetition of the story, maybe not because I am like Mo or Mr. Duanmu, but because Murphy is like her.
Liu Su has cried and made trouble, but she is more frank with her feelings than Liu Su, but she never asked me why I left Beitian. It's so abnormal. She doesn't want me to be embarrassed, doesn't she want to force me? If so, she was the Duanmu lady who sat in this room twenty-four years ago...
PS: I got up late, I'm sorry, I can't sleep well these days. I ate two pieces of stability, and I can't wake up...
I cut off the net yesterday. This chapter should have been updated yesterday. The leakage of the house happened every night. The heating hasn't been repaired yet. God and Netcom still make trouble together. It snows again He cut off the net again, bought an electric fan and put it on the table to bake his paws. The paws are warm, but his eyes are dry. It's hard...
PS2: go out to do some private affairs in the afternoon. I don't know when I will be back, so it may be updated very late. Please don't wait for the change.
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