Chapter 706

This seems to be contradictory feelings, but also seems to be intertwined feelings, I do not know how to answer Shu Tong.

"It's hard to answer, isn't it?" Shutong nodded rationally instead of being hard for me, saying: "you didn't grow up together. When you became family members, you all knew that there was no blood relationship with each other. When you knew each other, it was the relationship between strangers and strangers. This kind of estrangement that you didn't attach importance to accompanied you to grow up, and it's not difficult to understand what happened today ”

"can you understand?" I was a little surprised because Shu Tong was calmer than I thought.

"Without such experience, it doesn't mean that she can't understand it." Shutong felt that she was looked down upon, puffed up her cheeks, and said: "don't always look down on me. I am a teacher at best and at worst. I don't know more than you, but I don't know less than you. What's more, you are a man. You are certainly not as well as I know - girl's Psychological age is generally precocious than boys. If predestination takes you as the object of vision rather than the elder brother when it accepts you, what are the results today that are hard to understand? When a girl's psychology and physiology are well developed and her emotions are just beginning to develop, is there anything else difficult to understand about the emotional tendency exposed to the object she is looking forward to? "

"Are you mistaken?" "When I became a family member with yuan yuan, she was only six years old. A six-year-old girl knew what she liked? Like a 13-year-old boy? In any case, she is too precocious "

" I'm talking about longing, not like it, but that kind of longing will eventually turn into liking. What's more, the object she yearns for has always existed in her life, never disappeared, and in this process, there has never been a person who she thinks is better than you. Of course, this is the character of fate There is a very direct relationship. She is very introverted, even a little autistic. She is reluctant to contact with people. Her world is very small, and there are few people. So don't get me wrong. I didn't mean to praise you for your excellence. I mean, there are too many people who are better than you, but they are not touched by fate. "

What's my mood? Shu Tong is still interested in making fun of me. She's not normal today. Is she taking care of my feelings intentionally or taking the wrong medicine in the morning?

"even so, there are people who are looking forward to when she's six years old, or it's not so realistic. What do some children know?

" just because she's a six-year-old, she's wary of you. So It's not easy to accept you. Think about it. If she saw you as a relative at the beginning, how much more could she like you today? " Shutong sighed: "a six-year-old child, who already has the knowledge of the bad environment, the judgment of right and wrong, the ability of thinking and emotional experience, the consciousness and instinct of self-protection, is facing you, a stranger who suddenly appears. When she adapts to you and releases her vigilance, she may be eight, nine or even eleven or twelve years old. I ask you, you How old is your first love? It's OK to ask another way. Didn't you have a girl you cared about when you were in your teens? For example, Xue Ziyuan, don't tell me that you didn't care about her at that time. "

Brother's face, it's hot again. When I began to care about asters, it seems that Shu Tong was less than ten years old. There's some truth in it. However, when did Chu Yuan fall in love with me is not the key to the problem. The key is, how should I face this problem after knowing it? Do you think it's a mental illness I had a lot of effort to ask this sentence out, but in fact, I was more skeptical about whether I had a psychological problem The school ran out, but I don't know why I ran out, probably because I felt like a thief, stole people's secrets, my time as a teacher was too short, and I've never met such a thing, what's more, it involved not only my students, but also my cousin. I called you because I was at a loss, and I contradicted you When I got up, I realized that I was too excited and had too many subjective emotions in it, so I forced myself to calm down. I called you, not to quarrel with you, but to communicate with you and discuss with you how to face the fate problem. I said that there was something important to give back to you. Here is the dress. In fact, I went to the dry cleaner to get it back after hanging up the phone Come here, ha ha, I've been busy these days. I've forgotten this dress. I'm afraid I can't remember it without the phone call just now. I'm just using this topic to force myself to calm down. I don't need my subjective emotions to create pressure for you. "

So, what's at stake? What must I see at noon? Otherwise, if I take my clothes home, I'll be found by the fringe. It's all deceiving? I was stunned, then I smiled bitterly, wasn't it? Shutong is not stupid. He dare not take the clothes home. He will leave them in the dry cleaning shop and give them to me tomorrow. Even if they have already been taken out, they will not be the same in the office? You don't have to take it home Shu Tong has shown that he is willing to help me and Chu Yuan from an outsider and an objective standpoint, and I feel a lot more secure. In fact, I am very clear about this kind of comfort, just because I am eager to have someone to share and bear the heavy secret hidden in my heart, "do you think our brother sister relationship is very abnormal?""It depends on whether you are normal or not," said Shu Tong, shaking the ice in the paper cup, and looking at me: "even if there is no blood relationship, you are also legally recognized brothers and sisters, which is doomed to be supervised by secular morality, bound by the shackles of ethics. Now, the relationship between fate and you must be abnormal. As a woman, I can understand, but no matter what you do Teacher, as Su Su's cousin, or as your friend, I can't accept that such feelings happen between you, so what I want to know most now is whether you have such feelings for fate! "

I can't help but pick up Chu Yuan's novel again, turn it around absently, then raise my eyes and ask Shu Tong, "what do you think?"

Shutong was stunned, and some of them avoided my eyes. "You should answer me. Why do you ask me the latest w?"

I was silent for a moment, and honestly said, "you asked this question just now, but I can't answer it. You said you understand it, and now you ask again. So looking forward to my answer, can only prove that you have an answer in your heart? I want to know your answer "

Shutong was silent for a long time, then murmured:" I have no answer, the answer is in your heart "

the answer in my heart is greed - my sister or taboo emotion, I want to put it in my heart, never change, just have it forever, I know it's wrong, so I hope Someone has thrown my heart away and wiped out such greed.

However, Shu Tong indulged me, and she refused to tell me my secret

I summoned up my courage and went to find "self destruction" again. "Then I said hello, as a person, after reading this novel, do you think Murong's brother really likes Murong

"Like it!" Shutong did not hesitate at all, because this was the answer in her heart.

"But if Murong's brother likes Murong, how can he explain that he told Murong that he had a girlfriend?"

"So I'm far from interested in the stories before and after this," Shu Tong's eyes changed sharply. "Murong's brother is really a good man. He is gentle, considerate, sometimes very strong, very domineering. He has many advantages that men don't have. He protects all the people around him in his own way. He tries not to hurt everyone around him But just because of this, many people around him are used to relying on him, trusting him and actively approaching him, and he is obviously a man who doesn't know how to refuse other people's amorous feelings. It's certain that he likes Murong. He confesses to his sister that he already has a girlfriend, perhaps because he really sensed his sister's abnormal feelings for himself, and her sister obviously can't Accept this reality, what will she do next? Will she completely confess her feelings to her brother? If she confessed, her brother who didn't know how to say no, what would her brother who was reluctant to hurt anyone do? He knows that his sister loves so hard, so tired, and has suffered so many grievances for himself, can he still bear to refuse? In particular, after cohabitation, they know each other and depend on each other, which has made them used to having each other's life. Can he persuade himself to give up? If he refuses, what will his sister do? What about his girlfriend if he doesn't refuse? This novel is not finished, and none of us know how it will develop, but we are all curious about it, aren't we? "

"Yes" I stroked the blank after the last page of the novel, "this novel should not end in such a place, I must help her to continue to write"