Chapter 492

Winter night gave up on me, because she knew that, with her, the purple garden would not say anything.

Ziyuan didn't advocate taking a taxi. She kept her head down and walked silently in front.

I broke the silence. "Want to eat something?"

"Can you eat with people like me?" I can't tell if she is laughing at herself or venting her anger. She sighed: "anyway, I can't eat it. I want to go back alone and be quiet."

Born so many things, the heart of the purple garden must be in a mess. Now it's really not suitable for her to be forced to relieve her. It's not a good choice to give her time to calm down first. I smiled and said, "well, where should I send you back?"

Ziyuandun stopped and slowly turned around. Under the dim light of the street lamp, she could still see the red and swollen eyes. "Are you satirizing me?"

I immediately reflected that she knew that I had been to the hotel yesterday, and asked about the secret that she only opened a room but didn't stay. With a faint smile, I asked, "do I seem to be satirizing you?"

The purple garden didn't make a sound, and tears came down again.

I went to her, broke her fingers, took out her tight handkerchief, wiped away the tears on her face, gathered a smile to soften the atmosphere, and pretended not to say: "yesterday when we went shopping, I met my landlord, she wanted to rent the house opposite my house, the rent was very low, so I thought of you, aren't you also looking for a house?"? It's very convenient for us to stay at the opposite door, but I'll call you and shut down all the time, so we went to the hotel to find you. As a result, the waiter of the hotel told us that you just opened a room there, but never lived in "

the garden choked for a while, and didn't deny," and then? "

"And then?" I smiled again, "and then I knew you couldn't live there, so now I'm going to ask you where I should send you back"

the purple garden snatched back the handkerchief, looked down at the tip of its foot, and for a long time, just said: "why don't you ask me why I lied?"

"Since you are not telling me, why should I ask?" "When you want to tell me, you will tell me," I said

"Yuan Yuan is right. Xiao Nan, in order to care for the people around you, you always wronged yourself, even if these people are not worth your doing, you know? It's not gentleness, it's cruelty. "

"So I never said I was a good man."

"You" Purple garden language plug, turn around and go, I silently follow behind her, did not ask where she wants to go.

"I've been living in minrou's house" Ziyuan didn't look back, more like saying to itself, "I opened a room in the hotel, and I took you there specially. That's to make you think that I live there, so as to cover up the fact that minrou and I have close contact with each other. I don't wronged me. I have ghosts in my heart. What I do now may not hurt you, but it won't let you Feel comfortable. "

At last, she said, "Xiao Nan, I know what you want to know, but now I can only tell you that I am responsible for providing all the information she wants to know about you to miss three and completing all the things she asked me to do."

"What did she ask you to do?" My brow couldn't help jumping, "including sleeping with me that night?"

Ziyuan didn't answer immediately. She turned her back on me, which made me unable to observe her expression. "If I said it was my voluntary, do you believe it?"

My heart moved, xuan'er said with a wry smile: "that's not your character"

"my character?" Ziyuan slowed down. When I came to my side, she gently put her arms around me and put her head on my shoulder. The bangs blocked my eyes. I saw only two lines of tears running down my cheek. She laughed at herself and said, "what is my character? Cowardice? Yes, I'm a child without a father. I'm a mixed race. I'm different from the people around me. Since I was a child, I've been very self abased. People around me call me a wild species. They call me a freak of mother and wild man's life. Everyone rejects me. No one wants to be a friend with me. I can't do anything except cry. I'll only rely on you. I'll watch you come out for me and beat others' heads over and over again Blood flow from small to large, no matter what choice I make, I either ask you, or ask my mother, there is nothing I can make up my own mind, including my mother asked me to go to the United States with her, I am reluctant to go to the United States, but I still have no courage to oppose, but, Xiao Nan, that was five years ago, now I have been different from then, you know how I spent these five years, in How many things have happened to me? "

"People will change, change means growth, but people will never change. In my opinion, you are still you"

"no, Xiaonan, you don't understand me. The first thing I made my own decision was to leave quietly five years ago, or even say goodbye to you. Since then, I'm not Xue Ziyuan you know," Ziyuan said The hand holding my arm used some strength, but her voice was even smaller. "I want to change, but I don't want to change. Do you know how painful the ambivalent mood is? I don't want to change my dependence on you. I want to live like that and be protected by you all my life. So I know that our relationship must change, because we have grown up. If we continue to be good friends, you will be robbed by her girls. However, I don't have the courage to ask you face to face. If I don't have to go to America with my mother, I think I am very I don't have the courage to write that letter to you. "As expected, this is the reason why Ziyuan left without saying goodbye. However, times have changed. Now it's too late to say that there are not only fringes around me, but also Murphy who is ambiguous, and the gradually ambiguous winter night

"that night, half of it" Ziyuan said softly: "the third lady just put forward this request, and I have no objection, that's all."

"Why?" I can't understand, "why did miss three ask for this?"

"I can't tell you yet"

"why didn't you object?" I'm a little angry. I'm angry at Ziyuan's insensibility.

The purple garden nestles close to me like a bird that only depends on people. I can't tell whether I am cooperating with her or she is cooperating with me, so we walk forward slowly and walk into each other's hearts In reply, I didn't reply, but I had a girlfriend. That's the second reason. Maybe the third reason is that I just want to do that "

my heart beats faster and my face heats up a little. The words of Ziyuan are very explicit. Is it a confession to me? The purple garden also shamefully cannot raise the head, a time silence atmosphere is very awkward.

Ziyuan couldn't help but pull me to the side of the road to stop a taxi. My heart was flustered and my head was blank. I didn't even pay attention to the address she told the driver.

"Do you hate me?" At the exit of Ziyuan's words, the driver was stunned, because she and I sat separately on the left and right, looking out of the window like strangers.

"You should hate me."

"now I know I'm wrong."

er, before tonight, you've been hating me for being honest in asters, which makes me a little bit unbearable

"you're not wrong. The letter was torn up by fate, but it's my fault," I also honestly said: "I'm confused because you asked me questions in the letter. I don't know what to do Reply you, struggle, confusion, Chu Yuan mistakenly thought that the letter made me unhappy, so in the final analysis, it was all because I was not clear. "

"I'm too naive." the purple garden leaned to my side and rested on my shoulder. "Is it irresponsible to answer that kind of question? You struggle, confuse and prove that you are serious. I am too naive to think that only one commitment is enough when two people are together. I haven't considered how heavy this commitment is in reality. If I change to today, I will not be in a hurry to ask you to give me an answer. "

"Then why didn't you write to me again?"

I clearly felt the body of purple garden tremble for a moment, "you can hate me."

I was stunned. "I just want to know why."

"Because I hate you."

"Do you think such a lie can deceive me?" I said: "little purple, why did you stop me from going to find Miss three to settle accounts? Do you still protect me if you really hate me so much? "

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