Chapter 3176

The biggest achievement of going abroad these years is learning to smoke.

Learn to smoke, just because sometimes anxiety, despair, always need something to fill.

These days, I've been addicted to cigarettes. I've been regarded as a kind of spiritual food. Whether it's paralysis or decadence, it can at least fill the gap in my heart.

The sound of "Chi" and the light of the lighter are particularly clear in the silent night.

I took a deep breath, and the smoke came out from the tip of my nose. I saw the oblique shadow on the ground. I followed the shadow and looked up until I saw the cold eyes as deep as the abyss. I was stunned at the spot for a moment.

Dong Yu stood still under the street lamp. His tall and straight figure almost became the fulcrum of my whole sight. His handsome face became more and more white against the light.

In my memory, there is always a kind of gentle and elegant temperament in his body, but now it has become a little cold. A pair of cold and deep eyes silently focus on me, and the line of sight moves slowly, and finally falls on the cigarette end of Mars between my fingers.

His appearance caught me by surprise. I didn't even think about what kind of expression to face it with.

Just like when I was a child, I was caught doing something bad on his back. I was a little bit embarrassed to throw away my cigarettes and pretended nothing happened.

He just looked at me in silence, as if he wanted to see enough of the eight years in this quiet time.

I think he seems a little strange. I don't know him a bit. If it wasn't for those eyebrows and eyes, or the memory, I would not recognize this man in the first time. It's Dong Yu that I miss.

Dongyu, this name gives me joy and sorrow, but I can't love him.

I have considered the proposition for eight years, but I still can't solve it.

But

Fate is not fair.

Clearly know, I and he is impossible.

However, when I came to this world alone, I also need to give me hope and tenderness, and then use the bloody reality to turn it into a blade to separate my heart into flesh and blood.

Who let this huge world, only Dongyu, is my only dependence.

Childhood memory, he occupied so big a river and mountain.

I don't know, besides him, who can I depend on, who can I love.

If it wasn't for him to occupy such an important part of my life, I would not fall into such a fate.

I stood awkwardly in place, shaking my hands behind me and staring down at my toes.

I'm used to biting my lips so they don't seem to shake.

I couldn't face Suki as easily as I could face him. I even thought of escaping here, and I still went back to my apartment in Los Angeles to hide a turtle in my own shell.

However, Dong Yu never looked away from my face. He looked at me in silence, as if he had frozen time. He seemed to trace my five senses into the brain and the marrow.

For a long time, he finally spoke, according to the familiar tone. "Xia Chun."

How many times, in a dream, he called my name like this.