114 Her dark Secre

Althea

"Still it means that I am going to be yours, and you mine." I push him a little again and he keep pulling me. "I love you. Doesn't it means to you." I look away unable to say anything at all. "I love you." He said it again. "I love you." And again and again.

"I told you, I'm not a woman for you. Agatha was seeking for a husband. Go to her." I push him.

"No." he held me tight. "I don't want her. I don't want anyone but you. No matter what reason why you are pushing me, I still want you." I keep looking away but he keep scooping my chin and make me look into his yes. I did look into his eyes and he wipe those treacherous tears of mine.

"I think that you won't want me."

"No. You are a gift for me and I don't want to let that gift get stolen from me. I don't want that gift push me away."

"Would you still want me if you know everything about me and my dark past?" I ask him and it started raining. Why the God of the is keep pissing me?

"Yes. I will. I promise you. Tell me, okay? Whatever past you have, it doesn't have to do anything today." I wanted to laugh on his last word. He smiled and kisses my nose.

"I don't know."

"It will be alright. I'm here now. I'm going to protect you."

"Does that mean that you are staying here?" I crease my brows. He smiled.

"Don't get too excited, my sweet love."

"I'm not excited."

"Where's your room?" what are we going to my room? I hate going on that room. I ask my brother if I could change my room but I couldn't find a time to fix that. "I'm not going to do anything at all love. Until you ask me." I only nodded and push him as I lead the direction.

My hand maiden came running with dry cloth. They give one to him and one was wrapped around me. I ask them to ready his room and I lead the way to my room. I get in and glare at the four poster bed.

"Oh, no." he face his palm on the bed and toss a ball of light as it scattered around the room. I can see that there's no shadow. It is lighter than before. "Are you ready to tell me now?" I walk to my fireplace and started putting logs on it. He help me and I let him do it. I sat down in front of it as he lighten it. He sat down beside me and scoop my hand.

"I hate this room." I started. He stayed silent waiting for me. "I'm going to say it here all of it. I hate my father more than Nicholas hate him. There are nights and day that I thought of smothering him, but I just couldn't. There are moments that while I am holding my bow and arrow I thought about him, but I couldn't release the bow to kill him." my angry tears started streaming down to my cheek.

"I'm here." He squeeze my hand.

"Do you know that he killed my mother when I was four years old?" he wipe my tears. "He smother her when they got into a fight. I saw it with my own eyes. Then when I turn into fifteen, I can see that his eyes burns on me though he had his wife." I sniffled. "Nicholas left to Mystical Academy to Marissa and pay them from my father's debt. That night, I was sleeping." I glare at the bed, my bed as I recall everything.

"He sneak into my room and tell me how much he see my mother on me. As he spread my legs and my wrist feels like in chain. That's when I saw a dark shadow that has red eyes smiling down at me as he raped me. This is why I don't want you to have me." My voice sound shaking. My heart is pounding.

"Shhh." He scoop my cheek and I let myself cry.

"I'm a shattered woman, Lancelot. You don't deserve a shattered one."

"I'll be here. I'll still be here no matter what. I promise that to you."

"You won't leave?" he shook his head. I keep my eyes on his eyes. It wasn't pity. His eyes was full of love. Why?

"I won't. If I'll leave I will take you with me." I swallowed hard and just trust him.

"If it wasn't for my brave brother, Aaron, I might've spend my whole night with him." he presses his lips. "Do you know that he make my father unconscious? That's when the shadow disappear and he help me go out from there. I almost killed myself when it wasn't for Sky who save me."

"God of the Sky." He murmur and kisses my lips. "It's alright now. He's not going to hurt you anymore, and if ever he came back, I will kill him myself." I get in between his legs and hug him.

"You promise to love me."

"I promise to love you for eternity even death do us apart in this life. I promise to find you again, my love. I will always stand by you."

"Thank you, Lancelot."

"Anytime love." He kisses the top of my head. "You don't need to thank me."

"Are you sure?" I ask him again.

"I wouldn't be here if I am not." Maybe, he'll leave tomorrow when I am asleep. Or maybe he'll leave when I give him what he wanted. Maybe he's just fooling around. "Do you want to sleep on my room? It's not nice to sleep here."

"I'll just have my servants put few of my things to the next room. I'll be sleeping somewhere else."

"Do you know that I don't like it when you are sleeping on a narrow sofa or somewhere else not comfortable?"

"Why do you care so much? I could sleep somewhere else."

"Because I care about you so much as well. So now, love, would you let me sleep with you and guard you while you are sleeping?"

"I don't know."

"Do you know that I had a crazy dream about you last night?"

"And what was your dream?" I frown as I rethink the dream last night. It makes my thighs heat. I pull away as I thought about it. It was purely erotic and I can hear our moan inside my head. I look at him as he scratch the back of his head and look away from me. Did he dream the same dream that I had last night?

"It was…" he stammer. "Never mind."

"Don't tell me that you dream about me and you making love." His eyes widens and I know what it is.

"I—did." I exhales exasperatedly. "Sorry." He stood. "I'll have a shower, I'll see you." I nodded and he was about to leave me, I was about to stop him. This was an odd sequence of our conversation.

"Lancelot." I call.

"Yes, love?"

"Would have you a bath with me?" he stop for a while. Of course he wouldn't have a bath with me. I'm a dirty woman. "Please don't mind my question."

"Why? I am already thinking on how I will bath you." I frown at him. He grin and walk toward me. "You ready for anything that will happen between us? I am going to marry you right away."

"But—" he pressed his forefinger to mine.

"We are going to bath each other or,"

"I'm just joking about my proposition." I told him plainly.

"You just make my thing take a suicide." I wanted to laugh at him. "You sure?" I shook my head and laugh at him. He pouted.

Once that I dressed into one of my finest dress I meet the knights and the commander of the knights that Lancelot brought with him. My brother leave Era with Adhiti, and others through Phrixus and Blaze who gets bigger and can have accompany at her back. The whole castle was on the right hand of my brother which is my brother Aaron who facilitate around making sure their accommodation will make them comfortable.

Princess duties around the castle. Since it stop raining when we enter the castle, I visit the main town and the orphanage since Almira ask me to. I ask about their needs and whatsoever. Lancelot keep following me and even catch me whenever I got off my horse and hold me up whenever I straddle my horse.

The knights that he brought was on Commander Lopez's hands. He didn't mind at all, he knows that they are all in right hand. We walk around the garden of the castle and went on my secret garden where I make a swing on the big tree. He sat down there while I push him hard. I keep on laughing on how he act so childishly. When it is my turn he didn't push it hard I hate it when he didn't do it.

"Push harder."

"You might get hurt." He pouted and kisses my cheeks.

"I won't get hurt. I always get hurt." A cat come off from the three with meows as circled on Lancelot's feet.

"Hi Katherine." He easily adopt the Outsideworld. He look adorable in every way.

We settled a picnic on my secret garden. We lay down and cuddle more. He keep kissing me. I felt just loved by him more. I felt that I wasn't a disgusted woman who was lusted by her own father. A disgusted woman who was raped by her own father.

I wanted this. Can I be a little selfish? I couldn't tell him how much I love him as well. Like this was a dream back then. Like this happened before and it seemed going to happen all over again and again. Was it true that we are soul mates and had lived on different life back then? But something makes me anxious.

"What worries my sexy warrior?" his wordings makes me giggle.

"I do not know." I astride my other leg to his crotch and pillow on his chest.

"Baby, you know how much I wanted to see your skin under that seductive dress of yours." I can feel his hardened there. I don't mind at all. He love me, and attraction and desire is involved when it comes to different sex.

"Just devour my ankle for now." I tease him.

"Alright my love." He hold my ankle that is just on his reach. "What do you have under there?"

"Petticoat and bodice?" I wasn't that sure but when he seemed responding it, I am was sure that it turns him on. "Do you want me to remove my first layer?"

"Maybe later, love." He rubbed my lower leg up to my thigh. "I want you to tease me more."

"How?" I ask as I show my cleavage to him. He hold my cheek and caress it down to my neck to my naked shoulder, as he traces it to my collarbone.

"Your skin so soft like the felt of oil on the skin." He mutter. He look at my eyes, as I meet his gray eyes as well.

"Oil?" I giggle.

"I don't know how to explain it. What else are soft? You have to give me comparison of your skin."

"You are not much of a reader, are you?" I move my mouth to him and close it with his. He's just so kissable. I am not a decent woman to let a man do what he pleases to me. I am not that kind of woman who was overpower by a man. I wanted to have the same power that a man has to me.

"I am more of swords, archer and physical works my love." He hold my nape and pull me just to have more pressure on kissing him. I don't really know how to kiss, but he keep kissing me mouthful. I am starting to learn how to kiss. "God," he sigh as he suck my supple lips. "Why do you have such a perfect lips?"

"I should ask the same as well."