Chapter 74

"Every era has its mark. For example, my grandmother's generation was poor, hungry, had a big meal, and went to the mountains and countryside. They suffered all their lives. When they were old, they would not be idle. They got up before the sun came out every day. They really had nothing to do. They took a broom to sweep here and there in front of the gate, hoping to sweep down the road."

Since Jiang He came here, Xu Qing has unconsciously become a chatterer. He forces her to talk when she has nothing to do. But Jiang He still likes listening, just like listening to stories. It's very fresh.

"Later, when I came to my father's generation, life began to get better... In fact, it was not very good, but it was much better than the previous generation. Especially when he grew up, the national distribution of housing and work was very stable, and it was good to concentrate on his own affairs. So they had a crazy pursuit of iron rice bowl, and they wanted their children to join the establishment and eat imperial food, We will ensure a good harvest in drought and flood. "

"And you?" Jiang He didn't understand. He only knew that the establishment was equivalent to working for the government.

"I am the latest generation, pursuing the meaning of life, the meaning of living."

"The meaning of life?"

"Yes, the meaning of life, often reflect on why to live, live for what." Like a philosopher, Xu Qing reaches out his finger to push the nonexistent glasses.

"What's the point?" Jiang He is ignorant.

"The meaning of being alive is that everything has come."

"It's all here?"

Jiang He is more confused.

"Yes, they all come, so they live." Xu Qing shrugged, "and then there is the second meaning, that is, happiness, or freedom - to come, of course, to live a bit more moistening, so that they don't have too many regrets, don't have to compare with others, each family is bitter, each family is sweet, all are warm and cold, I know I'm warm enough, simply put, life is short, enjoy the moment."

"Of course, this is not all the ideas of the new generation, but this idea belongs to the new generation. It may not be obvious now, but in many years, the mark of the times will be obvious."

He looked at Jiang He's confused expression and said, "you, too, have the mark of your time. You are older than my grandmother... Well, you are older than them. For example, what do you think of the word "keep the income from drought and flood"

"It sounds... Reliable." Jiang He is inexplicably fond of this word.

"Keeping income through drought and flood is a reliable pronoun, because it means that no matter what, you will not be hungry. This is the common characteristic of people who have suffered. Because they have been hungry, they do not want to go hungry any more.

But for many people today, it's just a word. There's nothing special about it. It's the difference between us and our different values. "

Xu Qing stopped for a moment to let her have time to understand, and then continued: "of course, it doesn't mean that I'm better than you, or that you're better than me. We don't have the distinction between high and low. Being hungry and not being hungry are just experiences. No one is wrong. My grandmother happily lives every day in her hometown, which is nothing.

But the point is, you should learn to know something new, and don't resist it instinctively. Maybe you can find new fun. There are so many wonderful things in the world that you haven't experienced before. If you stick to the old way of thinking, it's a pity. "

"For example?" Jiang He asked.

"For example, can I hold your hand? It's wonderful to hold hands. I can feel my heart beating. " Xu Qing looked down at her hand, "this is a very small thing, I really want you to experience that kind of beautiful feeling."

？？？

Jiang He looked at his serious expression and was stunned.

Find new fun, new beauty, is to start from hand in hand?

"Do you want to try? Anyway, we're pretending to be girlfriends and girlfriends. It's no big deal to hold on to them. " Asked Xu Qing.

“……”

"Try it. It's not to do anything to you. Hold a hand... You should hold the sword. My hand is the sword. The light of the sword is like me. I'll cut all the bulls." He waved his hand twice. It was like that.

"Then... You try."

Jiang he hesitated for a moment, rolled his sleeve and handed out his hand.

Anyway... Anyway... It's not about doing anything.

"If we sit here, it's not called pulling, it's called touching. Can't we play hooligans?" Xu Qing got up and put on his coat, "let's go shopping."

“……”

In the cold winter, the sunshine outside doesn't have much temperature. It can only make people feel slightly warm.

The snow will melt in the daytime, and then form ice at night. It will continue to melt in the daytime. Now it's not noon, and the ground is bare. Jiang He doesn't play skating any more. Xu Qing slowly walks beside him holding hands.

"Do you have a different feeling?" Asked Xu Qing.

"No

"What about that?"

He gently hooked Jiang He's hand with his little finger. Jiang He immediately drew back his hand and stared at him with wide eyes.

"That's what it's like... I'm just demonstrating it. Come and get it."

Xu Qing teaches her to talk about love... Bah, feel the better things in the world, and then hold her hand to sway slowly.

I don't feel like cheating. In winter, my palms are sweating. My little hands are warm. Besides the cocoon in my palms, the back of my hands is smooth.

"Good morning, uncle Zhao."

Go to the gate of the community and say hello to Uncle Zhao. Xu Qingle is just about to leave. He thinks of another thing, "by the way, aunt Cheng hasn't seen her for a while?"

"I heard that I went to live with Xiao Li for a while. What's the matter?" Uncle Zhao shrinks his neck and smokes in front of the security booth. "What can I do for her?"

"If it's OK, just ask."

Xu Qing left with a small hand, "Uncle Zhao smokes less."

"It's this cigarette that keeps me alive."

Uncle Zhao joked at the back. Jiang he followed Xu Qing with small steps. He was a little farther away and then asked curiously, "what's that cigarette?"

"It's also a kind of recreation. It can stimulate people's spirit and become addicted. It's not a good thing."

"Then why do you smoke?"

"Because I like it." Xu Qing quietly squeezed her hand, "like my hand will be a little cold, but still want to hold you, this is like."

“……”

Jiang He turned to look away, "don't say that."

"I'm just explaining to you that this thing is unreasonable, like moths to fire, but also because moths like fire."

Xu Qing side said, with her stop in front of the bus station, "the world is not so much, why, like, to do."

"What if I don't like it?" Jiang He asked.

"Didn't you say it yesterday? It's unreasonable not to like it. If you don't like it, you can refuse me. It has nothing to do with anything else. Just simply refuse." Xu Qing turned to her smile, "this is your freedom."

"I..."

Jiang He's fingers vibrated twice, and he didn't make any more sound. He looked at other places.

The bus came quickly. Xu Qing took her to the bus, felt two coins with her other hand, threw them into the coin box, and then walked back to the empty seat together.

The car started, and the scenery flashed through the window.

"I'm experiencing what you call fun." Jiang He looks out of the window and makes a sound.

"Well, I know."

Xu Qing took her hand and nodded seriously.