Chapter 899

Regret?

Ruan Mo doesn't want him to regret, because it's meaningless.

Ruan Mo came to the back hall, a courtyard of green bricks and tiles. Ruan Mo saw Mo Zhan sitting there chanting scriptures. He was thin and dressed in blue cloth

Just at one glance, Ruan Mo wet his eyes, as if he were in another world.

"Mo Zhan!" She whispered.

"Come and sit down," he said to her, in a tone that was inaudible, but it was also good.

Ruan Mo was so afraid of acting like that on TV. He said that there was no Mo Zhan here. She would really feel bad only if she regretted.

Ruan moo sat down and Mo Zhan added a cup of tea for her, which made her think of the tea house called Zen. The tea house was established shortly after Mo Zhan divorced her. I think he had the idea of escaping at that time.

After drinking tea, Ruan Mo is probably thirsty. The taste is very mellow, which is more refreshing than the tea in the teahouse.

"You'll be quiet," Ruan Mo sighed.

After leaving the world, regardless of the world, even his daughter, the ancient Buddha cleared the lamp all his life.

"It's hard for you," Mo Zhan answered.

Ruan Mo smiled secretly, "since you know that others are working hard, you shouldn't make such a choice."

Ruan Mo doesn't blame him, but feels it. Although this choice is good, Ruan Mo always feels that Mo Zhan is avoiding.

Mo Zhan didn't answer, but looked at her, "you don't look very good."

Ruan Mo nodded. "Recently, I've been dreaming about some people and things that have left. I'm depressed and flustered, and I don't have strength all over."

Speaking of this, she sighed, "I remember when I was a child, my parents used to say that people who dreamed of death were bad. Now can you tell me?"

Mo Zhan shook his head. "Think every day and dream at night. You'll be troubled only when you think more. There's also too much worry about the dead, which will make them restless. Let's put it down silently!"

This silence made Ruan Mo think again, but the green clothes on Mo Zhan reminded her that the silence at this time was different from that in the past.

"Mo Zhan, is it difficult to put it down?" Ruan Mo asked him.

"Hard!" He nodded, "tear the heart and crack the lung, peel the skin and cut the bone, but if you really put it down, people will be relaxed."

"Are you completely down now?" Ruan Mo asked him.

Mo Zhan poured her another cup of tea, "never!"

Although he lives deep on the green hill and lives in the Buddhist hall, his heart is always floating. Therefore, when facing her, he can't be cold and hard to let her call himself master of repentance, and he can't call her benefactor Ruan.

In the past, he thought that he could really be quiet after entering Buddhism. Now it seems that he is delusional.

"You are honest!" Ruan Mo smiled.

"Monks don't lie," said Mo Zhan, a Buddhist.

"Did you know I would come to you?" Ruan Mo asked again.

"Well, you're not a person who can stand it. Last time you saw me, I knew you would come again," Mo Zhan said, which made Ruan Mo silent.

"Can't I sink?" She whispered that if she couldn't calm down, she wouldn't fall in love with him for so many years, and she could endure his cold violence for so many years in her marriage.

"You've only sunk on the once Mo Zhan," Mo Zhan seemed to understand what she thought.

Ruan Mo smiled bitterly, "so you know everything."

Yes, in those years of marriage, he knew how much she loved him, but he stubbornly refused to respond, was angry and proud, and finally woke up, but it was too late.

"Then why are you here?" Mo Zhan asked her.

Ruan thought silently and replied with two words, "jiejie!"

Mo Zhan looked at her, and Ruan Mo said again, "untie the knot in our hearts, and also untie the knot in the heart of Si Yu."

Mo Zhan was silent. "Knot is easy, knot is difficult, knot is easy, knot is difficult to solve."

Although Ruan Mo understood his meaning, she smiled faintly, "Mo Zhan, I'm here to tell you that everything in the past has passed. I don't blame you or blame you, and I don't regret loving you, and I hope you can let go of yourself."

He will clear the lamp here because he wants to redeem his mistakes. Just like his Dharma name regret, he has been living in regret.

Mo Zhan nodded, "you don't blame me. It's Thanksgiving. I remember!"

This made Ruan Mo feel very uncomfortable. She didn't want him to be grateful.

"Mo Zhan, let yourself go and return to normal life," said Ruan Mo, the real purpose here.

He looked at Ruan Mo in a daze, and Ruan Mo said to him, "you don't belong here, and you can't stay here. Niannian needs a father. Since you brought her to the world, you have a responsibility, and I'm not willing to share it for you, but it's unfair to Niannian."

Hearing this, Mo Zhan closed his eyes, and Ruan Mo said again: "some time ago, I was tied to the place where Guan meiyang died. At that moment, I understood why she would rather use her life to save you, because she knew she couldn't take care of your daughter alive, but you can live. She died for you, and you shouldn't bear her life."

Mo Zhan stroked the Buddha's hand and tightened, "Mo Zhan, we were born with too much debt. If we don't have clear debt, we can't calm down. It's like you leave a teahouse in Jiangcheng. Although you never go, your heart is there."

Mo Zhan's throat rolled, "why do you want to break it? I'm fine now!"

"You're not good. You're avoiding Mo Zhan. You're cowardly and let me down. If you really put down the past instead of hiding here, you left the responsibility of Mo School to Mo Chi and MR to me, and you? What's the use of swallowing and licking the past here alone?" Ruan Mo admitted that what he said was a little heavy, but there was no way.

She thought for a long time and finally decided to do so!

Although it is good for everyone that Mo Zhan does this, when he is gone, no one will remember him slowly. Even years later, he will forget that Ruan Mo has such an ex husband, only knowing that now she is Mrs. Si.

Mo Zhan should think more about her, but if she doesn't know he's still alive all the time, and he's alive, but he can't see the light for her, Ruan Mo can't be at ease.

"Silence is blaming me!" Mo Zhan asked in a sad voice.

"Yes, I blame you for being selfish as before and thinking it's for who's good, but in fact, your self thought is just your self thought," Ruan Mo turned the teacup in his hand. "Just like the taste of this cup of tea, it's different in every population."

"Mo Zhan, I came to tell you this today. I'm not forcing you to do anything and how to do it. You must know in your heart that I'm just finishing with us. If you go out here, I respect your choice. If you want to continue here, I won't say more," Ruan Mo said here and put down the tea lamp in his hand.

"Mo Zhan, you should be able to understand my mind!" Ruan Mo looked at him and said it seriously.