CH 75.1

Chapter 75 — Eyes open

She was Chi Zhengzheng!

She may not be the original Chi Zhengzheng, her body may be fake, and the world she came to may even be fake, but her memories were real, Wen Yu was real!

She thought the original storyline had completely changed, but even though she came to this world, a year later, Chi Zhengzheng’s ending and Wen Yu’s “CP-free” fate were still heading towards the same course.

But how could this be possible?

Chi Zhengzheng was very anxious.

How could she die?

She couldn’t die, she absolutely mustn’t die!

If she dies, what would happen to Wen Yu?

She promised him that she would be with him for the rest of her life, and they would go on together.

How could she break her promise?

No way.

If she was destined to die today a year later, then she would never have gone near Wen Yu, let alone let him fall in love with her!

He should have had the course of the CP-free male lead from the dominance novel, without her appearance, although lonely, it was just as spectacular.

He was strong, he was fearless, he was powerful, he had no sorrow, no pain, and never lost.

If he hadn’t fallen in love, he wouldn’t suffer and wouldn’t be sad!

No one should be able to defeat him!

Wen Yu had suffered so much in his life. He had no family, he only had their love, she only wanted him to be happy, with their future happiness, she wanted to heal the pain and loneliness from his past.

She didn’t want him to be sorrowful, because of her.

The world with a vast expanse of whiteness, she couldn’t break free.

The weakness and powerlessness of the body, the dispirit of her consciousness, were telling her the situation at this moment.

– She was going to die.

No way!

If this ending was already predetermined, why let her come to this world and disturb Wen Yu’s, peaceful heart?

How could it be?

Wen Yu put Chi Zhengzheng on the bed and covered her with the quilt.

The heating in the house had been turned on, so it didn’t feel frosty cold like the outside at all.

– He was next to her, holding a pen and paper and writing something, there wasn’t many words.

After he finished writing, he put the pen and paper on the table, walked over, hugged her, and let her head rest on his knee.

The window was open. It was getting dark earlier in the winter, it had already turned dark outside, but because of the reflection of snow, he sat on the bed, and could still see the world with a vast expanse of whiteness, full of snowflakes, the road was already all white on both sides.

“It’s snowing again.” Wen Yu gently tidied her hair, she loved to look pretty, and he couldn’t let her look bad. “Zhengzheng, I remember you like to see snow the most. Tonight, it’s snowing heavily outside, if you wake up, tomorrow at dawn, we can go inside the pavilion to have tea and enjoy the snow.”

It had snowed heavily once before, but he was afraid she would catch a cold and didn’t agree to let her go out to play.

He was so controlling with her at that time, he was afraid that she would get sick or catch a cold, he was so cautious that he wouldn’t even let the slightest accident happen, that’s why he was especially cautious.

She pouted at the time and was very angry.

She was going to protest, but Wen Yu easily diverted her attention.

He was always able to easily distract her and could also easily make her happy and make her forget about what was on her mind before.

But now, he regretted it.

Wen Yu lowered his head, and his forehead touched her forehead. His voice was low: “Zhengzheng, I regret it, I shouldn’t have stopped you. If you like to see the snow, you should go out to see the snow, not to be afraid of the head, terrified of the tail, being so cautious…” (t/n: to be afraid of the head, terrified of the tail means being timid and worrying.)

He was so cautious, so afraid that she would get sick.

All the dangers were eliminated, however, he still failed to protect her and she still collapsed.

And in that regard, he had his hands bound and was unable to do anything about it.

If he could do it all over again…

He would make her happy and let her do anything to her heart’s content.

“Chi Zhengzheng, that day I proposed like you, actually, you were going to say yes, right? I heard you say half of it…” Wen Yu pulled the corners of his mouth. “So, you are my unmarried wife.”

What happened that day, he actually didn’t want to remember at all.

“Wife…” He called out to her.

Then, teardrops slipped down from the corners of his eyes.

“You promised me that we would always be together, and you also promised me that you would spend every Spring Festival with me in the future. You made me so happy, yet…”

It was such a happy day, but the moment she collapsed, it became a day that Wen Yu never wanted to remember again.

Her promise hadn’t yet been said, and she might never open her mouth again.

“Chi Zhengzheng, I wasn’t able to hear you say yes to my proposal and wasn’t able to marry you. I’m sorry.” Wen Yun’s head was still against her forehead, and her forehead was somewhat cold.

With a hoarse voice, he continued: “You still owe me an answer…”

“But it’s okay, wait until I arrive at the other world, you tell me yourself, okay?” Wen Yu asked.

Chi Zhengzheng naturally didn’t agree, nor did she make any sound.

His hand touched her face, feeling the increasingly cold temperature, he paused slightly.

Then, as if he was unaware, he continued: “I’ve just written my will, we will be buried together. You like the snow and also the sea, but the snow is too cold, I’m afraid you’ll be cold, so let’s go to the beach.”

“If one day the sea changes and our graves aren’t there anymore, let’s go into the sea together, okay? In this vast world, you can go wherever you want, but until then, you still have to accompany me, we’ll be burned into ashes and we’ll be mixed together. Even if we go into the sea later, we can’t be separated.”

“The promises in this lifetime, I’ll keep it all in mind for you, in the next life you must come to have them fulfilled.”

Her temperature was even cooler, and Wen Yu no longer cried, he calmly said –

“The things you couldn’t do when you were alive, you can’t back out when you die.”

Such a lively Chi Zhengzheng, but he could only watch her collapse, watch her get colder and colder, watch her temperature get lower and lower, watch her life passing by, and no matter how hard he tried, he couldn’t grasp it.

Living a life without Chi Zhengzheng?

He couldn’t.

It wasn’t possible.

He was originally a lonely duckweed walking in the cold night, cold with no one to turn to, not knowing why he came and not knowing when he would go. He had no family, no love, no expectations, no joy, and no happiness.

It was she who walked to his side, grabbed him, let him have roots, let him think fondly of the world, fill his empty heart, so he would no longer be lonely, no longer be ice-cold.

After experiencing this warmth, such a meaningless cold night, he could no longer walk there.

Every step, every minute, he could remember that kind of warmth, and then – it would break his heart.

“It’s just, I’m still somewhat unwilling, and I have some regrets…”

His voice was hoarse: “I didn’t even get to hear another word from you… and hear you call my name again…”

She was lying in his arms, but he was missing her so much.

Closing his eyes slightly, it was as if her voice and smile were still in front of his eyes, and her every move was so vivid.

She was standing in front of him smiling at him, her smile was more dazzling than the sun.

Wen Yu stopped speaking, touched her forehead, felt the cold temperature, and stroked her face with his hand as if he wanted to carve her appearance into the depths of his soul.

She still owed him a promise, and in her next life, no matter what she becomes, she must fulfill it!

His eyes were always closed, and in front of him, it was all of her vivid appearances, it was all of their past, every happy scene.

– Chi Zhengzheng.

– Will I see you again? Will I hear your words again?

His fingers stroked something cold and wet to the touch.

Wen Yu paused slightly.

He opened his eyes, withdrew from his memories, and then, propped himself stiffly, looked straight at Chi Zhengzheng’s face with his eyes.

Inside his eyes, there was fear, disbelief, and… anticipation.

– It wasn’t an illusion, right?

At the corners of her eyes, two teardrops seemed to have slipped down.

Wen Yu froze, and then, his body trembled slightly, and raised his hand, his hand trembled so much, but still, once again, he touched those two lines of wet marks.

His eyes were instantly fogged up, his voice was extremely hoarse, trembling as he spoke –

“Chi Zhengzheng, Zhengzheng…”

He wanted to ask “Can you hear me?” “Can you open your eyes?” “I really love you.” “Please wake up, I don’t actually want to live another life. I just want this life”…

He had so many, so many things to say, but after opening his mouth, he just said her name in a voice, as if his voice was bloodied.

A thousand words he wanted to say, it all became just – “Chi Zhengzheng”.