120 Her Reason 1

A woman in her early thirties stood in front of the girl's bedroom. She wore her fluttery white dress as she held her black-hard suitcase. She told the little girl, "Kezia, take care of yourself. Be a good girl when mom's away."

Kezia's voice was shaky, she clutched her blue clothes, tears fell from her cheeks, she shouted at her mother "Mom, where are you going?! Don't leave! Please let me come with you!"

She halted her smile and answered short, "No, you can't. Stay with your father." Kezia pouted her small lips and looked down with an annoyed feeling. She also wanted to come with her mother!

She looked at her mother with difficulty, "Mom, when will you come back? Next week, we'll have a parents day meeting. The teacher said she'll give me a reward for my drawing! Dad said he couldn't come, so the only who can is you, Mom. So, please! Please! Come! Promise me you'll come!"

Her mother curved her lips as she patted her hair. "I will."

She bid goodbye to her and left the house. Kezia looked at her departing figure as she bit her lips. She was gasping and rubbed her wet face with one of her hands. Her eyes were red, she wailed and buried her face to her cat doll in her other hand.

Her mother was weird today as well. She consciously stared at the outside window all the time, looking with a blank face and sobbing at night. She never showed her pretty smile again and her usual routine to tell her bedtime stories. Her constant odd behavior made Kezia worried, she felt bad for her mother.

In truth, she knew why her mother feeling like that. She was having arguments with her father. It wasn't their first fight, but that night was special because Kezia witnessed it with her curious thoughts. She didn't know what they were talking about. But she could hear a wine bottle crash, leaving a stain on the floor. It followed by other things as well.

She peeked her little head and looked at her mother covered her eyes, turned her back as she faced the window. Her father left her as he closed the door loudly. Bam! He strode his legs outside without noticing Kezia hiding behind the wall.

Although she didn't hear the full story. She heard a word which she learned today at school. 'Divorce'. Was this the reason?

When she looked at her mother's dress and the huge suitcase she brought. She didn't know why but she felt ominous inside. She diverted her presumption as she hoped her mother would keep her promise. She trusted her. She trusted her how she would never abandon her own daughter.

But, as Kezia predicted, she broke her promise. She didn't come to school. She would never come back.

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Kezia stood in front of the woman who will be her new mother, Lucy Dean or now she changed her name to Lucy Ginga, "This is your new mother, be nice and treat her like she's your real mom and this is your sister, her name is Sarah." Her father introduced the two of them to Kezia for the first time, yet Kezia felt familiar with Lucy.

She was his father former secretary. She once saw her came to the house, she was delivering important files to Ranbo Ginga. So, Kezia knew about her before. While Lucy, herself, didn't have time to see Kezia because she was preoccupied with her own task.

Kezia noticed the little girl hiding behind her mother legs. She looked like she was two years younger than her, but the thing Kezia felt angry was her face. She had the same features as Ranbo and Lucy. 'Is not possible, right?" She asked with her shocking eyes.

Ranbo noticed her gaze and he felt awkward. He didn't know what to explain to her. He diverted her thought by praising her for her good grades in school, yet Kezia didn't bit his bait.

She opened her eyes wide, her face was boiling heat, she pointed her little finger to her father with furry. "Father! It's only been a year since mom left us. How can you married again?!" She glanced at her sister angrily and stomped her feet. "She's not my sister! I don't have a sister! I don't have a sister! I'm your real child! She's not! She's not!!"

Paa!

Her father slapped her to calm her down. Kezia held her hurtful cheeks. Her eyes began tearily and she cried uncontrollably. When Ranbo Ginga heard that, he couldn't help to sigh. He didn't know the heart of a child, he once a child but he forgot how it was. He wondered when did Kezia start calling him 'father'. He felt hurt inside.

Ranbo Ginga held his ached temples and began to explain, "I'm married again as you can have a mother to take care of you. Kezia you are eight years old now. Stop acting like five years old. Your mother left you because of her own decision so you must be ready to accept that."

Kezia didn't want to here his obvious remarks about her. She pouted her lips and cried once more, "But it's all your fault she left! Mom didn't do anything wrong! You always ignored her and work and work and work! She felt lonely all the time! I saw it father, I saw how she cried when she was alone!" Kezia shouted as she held her gritting teeth. She sharply glared at the woman and the girl. "Father, tell me the truth! All this time you weren't busy, right? You were cheating behind mother's back! That girl has your own blood right? But she's still not my sister! She's not my mother's child!!"

In truth, she was right from her guessing. Sarah was indeed his daughter from Lucy Ginga. He had been keeping secret from Kezia's mother about the child, yet he had a complicated reason from doing that. Unfortunately, Kezia's mother knew about that. She once hired a detective to investigate him. From there, she knew about his other child beside Kezia.

She felt as if her world collapsed. She felt hurt betrayed as if there was a needle pricked her body and letting them pierced. She confronted about this to Ranbo as she decided what to do next with their marriage life.

Divorce was something Kezia's mother chosen. Ranbo didn't accept it. He placed the paper back to her, yet in the next second, her next words made him furious. Therefore, they let their relationship fell apart.

"Kezia!! When did you learn those words?! Stop talking nonsense and up to your room! You are grounded! You are forbidden to go to school until you can accept them as your new family! You hear me, Kezia?!"

Kezia looked at her father with a disappointment in her eyes. She turned her back and dashed to her room, closing the door and locked it. She screamed as she pounded her hand on the bed. Her snots were everywhere, she choked to tears and gasping as she was huffing up and down. "...uwuu...uwuu...mom..."

She held her mother's diary in her embrace which she accidentally noticed it under her mother's bed one year ago, that day when she left. She rubbed her sore eyes and began to read her diary once more. She cursed inwardly that his father was a bad man. 'It was his fault that mother left her!'

She read her diary from the beginning until she finished it once again. She lost count how many times she read the book. She focused on her mother's last sentence which was saying about her hatred feeling to a certain man.

'I wish him to love me, but I know he can't give it the same amount I gave to him. I don't want him to die because it's so easier for him. Let him suffered as I leave and curse him inside.' Kezia repeated the sentences like chanting words for black sorcery until it printed into her memories.

Little did she know she grew up as she followed her mother's words. She knew it wasn't a piece of advice for her, but it was something to make her wake up to face reality.