Chapter 376

The fact that she may no longer have a baby is that a demon enters her body, opens up the pain of her deep suppression, makes them rebound strongly, makes them capture all the emotions of Luman at once, and makes her unable to suppress even if she tries her best!

But she couldn't cry, and she couldn't feel sad, because if she cried, if she was sad, they would worry. So she tried to make herself the same as before, so that they couldn't see that she was about to be swallowed by the darkness.

She told herself, what if there was no baby? She also has her husband who loves her deeply, and Xiaochen. Her life is still very beautiful. She tries to persuade herself to be more open-minded and happy.

One day she saw that Pei Zichen had little supper, so she made a midnight snack and sent it to his room. When she went in, Pei Zichen was chatting with Wang Nan.

"Xiaochen, mother miss you so much."

"I miss Mom so much, too." Pei Zichen face that can't restrain missing, let the road man see heart a tight.

"What about your father? Or won't we meet? "

"Now Dad is dealing with grandma. He forbids me to see her and you."

Wang Nan sighs when she hears this. Pei Xiuyuan's means are becoming more and more fierce recently. It seems that Pei Xiuyuan won't let his mother go, but he won't give up. She's not afraid that Pei Xiuyuan will accept fili, because even if she does, fili is still her son. On the contrary, she's happy that she can kick all the people out of fili and make them poor, because she hates him It's just that she can't see her son. "Mom has tried very hard to persuade your grandmother, but..."

"As long as my mother doesn't have to persuade her to work hard, even if my father doesn't have to work hard for her." Pei Zichen said like a little adult.

"Son..." Wang Nan couldn't be moved. The more moved she was, the more she loved her son and wanted to live with him. She couldn't help saying, "my mother misses you so much, wants to live with you so much, and wants to see you every day..."

Pei Zichen was moved by her desire to show her true feelings. She couldn't hide her words in her heart, "Mom, I really want to be with mom, too..."

"Do you want to tell your father that you want to be with your mother? If you want to... "

"Sorry, mom, I can't. dad loves me very much and I love dad very much. In the future, dad may only have one child for me. I have to stay with dad and stepmother. I have to be her child here. If it wasn't for me or grandma, stepmother would..." What Pei Zichen can't say is full of guilt.

Looking at their mother and son that kind of desire, looking at Xiaochen is so want to be with his mother, like a stone in the heart of Lu man, let her gasp.

No matter how good she is to him, no matter how good she is, she is not his mother, what he wants is not her.

He accepted her and treated her well just because of his father. He didn't want his father to feel bad

Also, guilt for her

This cognition seems to be the last straw to crush the camel. The bottom line of Jean Luman's active resistance completely collapses. She is instantly engulfed by darkness and negative emotions

She is not uncomfortable, not sad, just lazy every day, do not want to do anything, no interest in anything, give them a smile is reluctantly.

"Long, can we talk about it?" Pei Xiuyuan knew that she was hurt because it was difficult for her to get pregnant again, but she couldn't go on like this.

Lu man looked at him, pulled out a smile, "talk about what?"

"Talk about your current situation." Her perfunctory smile really made him uncomfortable.

"I'm fine now!" She can eat and drink every day, not cry, not uncomfortable, take medicine on time every day, everything is very good.

"Is that really good for you? Do you know that you are so worried about me and Xiaochen? " Pei Xiuyuan sighed.

"I'm sorry." Lu man saw his worried eyes and was very sorry. She didn't want them to worry about her. She really didn't want them to.

"Long, you know what I want is not your apology."

"I know."

"Then try to put it down and be happy, OK? We really can't have another baby. I've taken you to many doctors. They say that although it's difficult, it's OK. Besides, even if it's not OK, we can have test tube babies, surrogate pregnancies and have children in many ways! " It's really not a problem to want children!

"I know." She knows that, too.

Pei Xiuyuan looked at her and said, "long..."

"Xiuyuan, I know you are worried about me, and I don't want to. I will try my best to let myself out. I will really try my best to make myself happy. You don't have to worry about me. You really don't have to worry about me." Lu man said it sincerely. He just raised his hand and swore.

Pei Xiuyuan looked at her silence.

Lu man hugged him and buried his head in his arms. "Xiuyuan doesn't have to worry about me. I really don't have to. I'll be fine after a while."

"Well."

After their conversation, Pei Xiuyuan spends more time with Lu man. When he can be at home, he will never go out. If he has to go out, he will let Hou Qingqing and Liang Feiyue accompany her.Hou Qingqing even lives in Pei's house again. She has just finished a book. If she has nothing to do, she will accompany Luman around the corner and go out to eat delicious food.

But even in such love and friendship, Lu man's situation is more and more serious.

Before they let her go out, she would go out. Now they drag her, she doesn't want to go out, she just wants to stay at home. In the past, she loved to cook for Pei Xiuyuan and his son. Now, let alone cooking, she barely eats. Every day, she likes to sit in the princess chair on the balcony, not moving, not sleeping, not talking, just looking at the scenery outside the window and sitting Even in the morning, how to drag her, she doesn't move. If you drag her up, she will follow you listlessly and have no interest.

This makes Pei family father and son, Hou Qingqing and Liang Feiyue worried.

"Long, don't do that! Don't do that Hou Qingqing, seeing her like this, couldn't help grabbing her shoulder and yelling.

Lu man looked at her slowly, "I don't want to be like this, I also want to be good, really, I really want to be good But I What should I do? What to do... "

She also wants to be good and happy. When she sees so many of them busy for her every day, she is so careful to laugh at her and make her laugh. She really wants to laugh and play happily with them, but she can't be happy and has no spirit. She just wants to be paralyzed here.