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"Even if you know now, you can hate me for everything!" Lin Mu suddenly held my hand.

"I'm sorry!" I did betray your deceit. You were married to another woman because I didn't keep my promise! You can hate me! "

After knowing the truth of the matter, I didn't resist Lin Mu that much. So it turns out that everything he did was for me!

I was useless, I couldn't help him from the beginning!

It wasn't his fault at all! It's me, it's me that doesn't have the ability, otherwise he wouldn't have made such a helpless choice!

Thinking about this, I could no longer suppress my emotions.

"What should I do …" What do you want me to do! "What else can I do …"

I lowered my head and huge tears fell into the melon milk in front of me. I didn't know what I was thinking, but I actually picked up the milk and took a sip.

The scent of melons combined with the mellow aroma of milk was my favorite taste, not bad at all, but when I ate it there was only bitterness in my mouth.

In addition to suffering, there was also suffering.

How had he endured all these years? What had supported him to this day, step by step, except by virtue of his love for me?

And I, I don't know anything, and I'm desperately slandering him for hurting him!

I loved him so much, but I was the first to betray him.

Not just my body, but my whole heart.

I can't face him. I feel sorry for his affection.

"Xiao Ye, like I said, I won't force you, I only hope that you can be happy. After all these years, I have always accompanied you by your side.

"Don't say anymore, don't say anymore!" I cover my ears.

"Why are you so good to me! Why do you love me so much! I am not worthy! "

All of a sudden, my emotions seemed to have reached a critical point. I lay on the table and cried. I couldn't forgive myself.

"There's only one you in this world, and I've met many people, but I can't forget you. "No matter how much we've experienced, well, now that we know, it's all a misunderstanding. We still have a chance to return to the past."

The man in front of me has finally overlapped with the person in my memory who doted on me. Five years, I can really change a lot of things, but many things haven't changed.

For example, my favorite crab yolk bun, a snack street in University City that I often went to with him, my sister, my favorite honey melon milk tastes exactly the same as it did five years ago.

Like she said, maybe he could really go back to five years ago, the day he doted on me and loved me to the bone, but the only one he could go back to was him, not me.

"Ah Mu …" I looked at his gentle face and I knew how cruel the words I was about to say would be, but that was the truth and I didn't want to lie to him again.

"We can't go back."

We can't go back. Five years ago, we held hands and walked around the university campus. The days we squeezed into the rented apartment were almost empty, but we couldn't even go back to the day when we could cook eggs in the setting sun.

Maybe Lin Mu was still the Lin Mu of five years ago, but he was no longer that Ye Qianya.

"As long as you want, we can definitely go back! Xiao Ye, there are no misunderstandings or problems between the two of us now, is there not?! "

He looked at me, and I knew his eyes were longing for me to nod and tell him I wanted to go back with him.

But I can't.

"Ah Mu, it's my fault." Forget about me. "

I took a deep breath and finally said those heartless words.

I used to think of love as a necessity in life, so when he left me, I was in such pain because I had lost the spiritual support I had always had.

So afterwards, I spent a long time to remember him, those things I can't forget when I remind myself every day, must be engraved in the memory slowly forget.

It was because I completely separated myself from the previous relationship that I couldn't control my feelings for Jiang Yu, who appeared later on.

I had to admit that in some ways I was very similar to him.

In order to get revenge, he could even take his own life!

He would never fall in love with Song Ruyue, and would never be manipulated by his own emotions. No matter how much better Song Ruyue treats him, he would never forget me.

But I, who had always been so self-righteous, blinded me, blind to everything, including my own heart.

"You … Are you really in love with him? " Lin Mu finally realized this fact. He looked at me in disbelief, his face ashen.

I didn't answer him directly, but chose to remain silent.

So what if he answered?

Since he already knows, it will only cause him a second injury. Why do I have to admit it myself?

"Xiao Ye, no matter how many things I do to make up for you, you won't fall in love with me again?"

I looked down at him.

"For the rest of my life."

As long as Jiang Yu is alive, and I am still alive, these feelings cannot be stopped. Even if it is torture, even if it doesn't have any results, even if it all started because of revenge …

But in my lifetime, other than Jiang Yu, I will not fall in love with anyone else.

"I know."

He said without any business.

"I used to hate you, but I don't hate you anymore. Ah Mu, no matter what, we had an emotional attachment to each other. Even if I hate you, it's still a tie. But now, I don't have any feelings for you other than guilt."

I gradually calmed down, as I no longer wanted to continue entangling myself with Lin Mu.

Because I didn't want to hurt him again and again. I knew he loved me deeply, but my heart was no longer with him, and whatever he did to me was nothing more than to make me feel more guilty about him.

"So in the end, I'm still too late, right?"

He looked at me with a sudden pale smile.

Looking at him like this, I really feel very uncomfortable, it is I who let him down, but I can't let him down even more.

"I'm sorry, it's all my fault. You can hate me and hate me, but I beg you, please don't continue to love me. I'm not worth it. "

I looked at her, dragging my tired body away from his coffee shop.

There are many wounds on my body and I am completely exhausted, but I don't know why, but at this moment, I don't feel anything at all.

I didn't know how I got home, but the moment I knocked on the door, and saw Jiang Yu's face when he opened it, my vision went dark and I fainted.