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I wanted Jiang Yu to throw me at my own doorstep. When I returned home, I found an auntie packing up for dinner.

I went into a cubicle at home.

The decorations of this cubicle are in sharp contrast to the bustling decorations outside my home.

This was something that I had looked for a decorator for, based on the small room that I lived in with Lin Mu previously.

The decorations were very simple, there weren't even floor tiles, but whenever I couldn't sleep, I would lie on the small bed and think back to the time when I hugged Lin Mu and warmed myself up even though I didn't have any money.

My nostalgia for him almost moved me, but he could not see it.

But in reality, so what if he saw it?

I put together all the photographs of him, all the clothes he had left behind, everything I thought I could remember about him, and filled a small basin with gasoline and set it on fire.

And I just sat there and watched it all turn to dust.

I once saw this in an emotional TV show, the female lead said to the male lead. Do you know what the most desperate thing in the world is?

You gave me hope and then destroyed it yourself.

I felt the oncoming heat wave and looked at those things that I had once regarded as treasures, but I couldn't bring myself to cry.

After burning everything, I had the cleaning auntie at home clean up everything. If you can throw it away, throw it away. If you can't, then destroy it.

I found a decorator and asked him to fill out this cubicle for me and seal it forever.

I don't want to see it anymore.

After settling all of this, I suddenly felt that the house I came out of had become very empty, but it was like a gorgeous coffin, making me feel like I was suffocating.

It was already evening, but I couldn't eat anything. I just wanted to go out for a walk.

I walked to the door of my house, the evening breeze blowing softly on my face.

It was another April day, but the past was like smoke.

I was staring at the clouds, lost in thought, when I heard a familiar voice behind me.

"Xiao Ye …"

I stopped, unwilling to look back.

That voice had once fascinated me, but now it made me loathe it.

"Xiao Ye... Turn around and look at me. "

The voice behind me was still calling my name, but I ran on without looking back.

The faster I ran, the faster he chased. It wasn't until I was exhausted and had no more strength left to run anymore that I fell onto the grass patch beside me. Only then did I raise my head and look at Lin Mu who was dressed in his suit and leather shoes walking towards me.

He squatted down and pulled me, who had no strength left in me, into his arms.

I tried to struggle, but I couldn't.

He could only collapse into his embrace and coldly laughed: "Lin Mu, oh that's not right, Mr. Lin Sen, are you not afraid of your fiancée getting jealous just because you're hugging me like this?"

His hand slackened, and I pushed him away from me.

He still wanted to get closer, but I said harshly, "Get closer to me! The closer you get to me, the more disgusted I feel! "

He just stood there, looking at me with a wounded face.

"Xiao Ye, listen to me, what happened today is not what you think!"

"Enough!" I interrupted him.

"I suppose you must have told me that you had to pretend to be dead to deceive me, and that you had to marry some other woman?"

I looked at him with a cold smile. My heart should have been angry, but this time it was strangely calm.

"Mr. Lin, I am no longer that underage girl from before. Just saying a few words of love is enough to make me unable to control my heart. I, Ye Qianya, do not buy into such a cliché plot. "

"Xiao Ye! It's been five years. We've been separated for five years. Do you know how I've been here? I have never forgotten you one day! "

Lin Mu looked at me with that kind of gentle and affectionate gaze again. If I hadn't seen him test his wedding dress with another woman with my own eyes this morning, I probably would have been deceived by him once again.

As expected, the man's words could not be trusted.

"So? What is your purpose in coming to me today? Do you want to be so humble as to beg me to reunite with you, or do you want me to be your lover? "

Listening to him talk about his love life, I actually didn't feel moved at all. I even felt like laughing.

"Don't be like this …"

"Lin Sen, you better make clear that the Ye Qianya today is no longer the Ye Qianya of five years ago. The Ye Qianya from five years ago also didn't love you, the man called Lin Mu whom she loves, the Lin Mu who said that he would never let her down! However, Lin Mu is already dead! "

Lin Mu looked at me with a face full of grief.

"Lin Mu no longer exists in this world, he had long died in the water five years ago!"

As he spoke, he took a deep breath, still wearing the same programmed smile on his face.

"Mr. Lin, is there anything else you need? If it's about work, I can talk to you, but apart from that, I don't think there's much point in talking to you anymore. "

"Xiao Ye, must we do this to each other?" As Lin Mu spoke, he looked at me with a pale face.

"Mr. Lin, you've misunderstood. There's nothing between us."

Yes, there was nothing between us, ever since I saw him talking softly to another woman in the wedding shop today, and I knew that I would never have anything to do with him again in this life.

"Xiao Ye... All of this is for us. Whether you believe it or not, in these five years, I have never forgotten you … "I know that you have no way of forgiving me now, and I have no way of returning to your side with my current identity. If you give me another year, I guarantee that I will give you one more year, and I will definitely make it up to you …"

I thought it was ridiculous. Why did he let me waste so many years of my youth on her?

I won't even give him a minute, let alone a year!

"If there's nothing else, I'll head back first."

After I said this, I was about to turn around and leave, but at that moment, he rushed over and grabbed my hand, pulling me into his embrace. I pushed him with all my might, but he remained unmoved.

In desperation, I had a bite on his shoulder, and he was in pain, letting go of me.

I gave him a slap without thinking. If it had been him in the past, I wouldn't have been able to do it, but now he was like a stranger to me.

"Mister Lin, respect is mutual, please take care of yourself!"

I said the last word very hard and left without looking back.

Lin Mu didn't follow me, but looking back, it was as if something in my heart scattered with the wind.