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I said it so tactfully that I didn't even know if he understood.

But with him, I can never be too clear.

Because I'm too proud.

Pride makes it impossible for me to bow my head to a man out of affection.

After spending so much time with me, I think he understood.

Therefore, he didn't say anything. In the next second, he pushed me onto the passenger seat, just as I had previously thought …

After a while of rain, Jiang Yu cleaned up my lower body and sat on the driver's seat to smoke.

I sat up in the passenger seat and sat in his arms.

"Qianqian …" He put his arm around my waist and said my name over and over.

I felt the tip of his nose gently brush against my hair, making my heart pound.

"Tell me, do you love me?"

His voice was soft, but urgent, eager to prove something to me.

But I didn't answer him.

Even though I already answered in my heart.

"As long as we can be together, what does it matter whether we love each other or not?"

I always believed that loving someone was giving that person the right to harm you. Once you said the word love, that word would become a sharp sword that could make you wish you were dead any day.

He lifted my chin and looked me in the eye. "Why is it so hard for you to admit that you love me?"

I avoided his eyes.

"I …"

"Actually, you don't need to explain. All I want is a definite answer … If you can't answer me, I won't force you. "

As he spoke, I felt a twinge of guilt.

It's not that I don't want to admit it, but that I have my own principles.

No matter how much I like him, I won't make an exception for him.

Ye Qianya was the Ye Qianya that stood out from the masses because she knew more than anyone else who she was, and what exactly it was that she wanted.

I didn't speak for a long time, and neither did he.

There was a terrible silence between us.

"You're not, you've always wanted to know who I really am?" After a while, he opened the window and the wind and snow blew in. I could barely hear what he was saying.

"Since you want to know so badly, I'll tell you." He didn't wait for me to answer.

"I am an illegitimate child who cannot see the light of day."

When he said this, it was as light as a feather, like the sound of a snowstorm falling outside the window. However, it was clearly light and weightless, and he intended to slap himself in the face with a heavy, cold slap.

"I am the son of my father's mistress who was raised outside. My grandmother can't bear to have me stay outside and have my father bring me back. However, I am still the one with the least status at home. Because I am the son of my father, Xiao San. "

Saying that, Jiang Yu laughed, laughed very casually.

But I could see it in his smile.

I didn't know how to comfort him, so I just held him tight.

"But I never felt anything was wrong with my mother. If you have to say her fault, then the only mistake was to give birth to me. "

As Jiang Yu spoke, he gently caressed my face, but his eyes continued to stare outside the window. His gaze was as deep as a cold pond, causing me to be uncontrollably shocked.

"My mother is very beautiful. In my eyes, she is a gentle woman. It doesn't matter if you fight for it or not, you have to treat everything the same. "Sometimes, I would think that if she had been so kind back then, she might have had her own reputation by now, and I wouldn't have to hide like this everyday …"

"But I haven't seen her for a long time."

As he spoke, his voice suddenly became deeper.

"Why? I sat up in his arms and looked at him. "

"I haven't seen my mother since I was very young. I can't remember when, but I can only remember that the wind was strong. My father, who I've never met, suddenly came to pick me up.

My mother didn't agree, but I didn't know what they were talking about. No matter how much I cried, my mother didn't care, and my last impression of my mother was that I was sitting in the car, watching him lean against the front door, looking at me with tears streaming down his face …

"After I followed my father back, I immediately fell gravely ill. From then on, I've never seen my mother again …"

"Why don't you go to her?"

I was always particularly sensitive when it came to Mother.

I have a mother, and if my mother loved me even a little, I would feel like the happiest child in the world.

But she didn't.

In my mother's eyes, I was the last thing on earth that should have been born.

"I've been there, but my mom has moved. I tried many different ways to find her, but to no avail! I don't even know if my mom is still in this world. If she is, then why hasn't she come looking for me for so many years? "

Jiang Yu said as he clenched his fists. I saw that his eyes were bloodshot.

"It's nothing …" "It's okay, I'm here …"

At the moment, I couldn't think of any way to comfort him except to hold him in my arms.

I could imagine the pain in his heart.

New Year's Eve was originally the time for all families to reunite, but Jiang Yu's family members were the same as mine, they were only just blood relatives. Even if they had that kind of concern, it was only to make up for it.

To Jiang Yu, those fake things weren't important at all. What was important was that the person he cared about had left him forever.

For the first time, Jiang Yu laid softly in my embrace, like a child. Looking at him, my heart suddenly softened.

After a while, I let go of him and closed the window.

"Today is New Year's Eve, so I'll accompany you to the streets and watch the lights in the houses."

I don't know what was going on in my mind, but I directly suggested the idea of driving a car to Jiang Yu.

And he did not refuse.

Although the temperature outside the window was very low, we still opened the window and let the wind and snow blow in. I looked at the side of his face, and there was a rare gentleness in his eyes …

After an unknown period of time, when we finally returned to the starting point, it was already very late in the morning.

I brought Jiang Yu back home and accompanied him for a crazy night. Both of them were already exhausted, so I helped him put in some hot water so he could take a hot bath.

Otherwise, according to the degree of risk he had to bear today, he would definitely catch a cold tomorrow.

"Let's go take a bath."

I pushed him, but he just held on to me and wouldn't let go.

"Come with me."

"Stop messing around …"

"Will you accompany me …"

Hearing Jiang Yu's softened tone, looking at her wet eyes, for a moment, my heart softened.