443 The Song I want to Sing

"She's right, were usually more intimate."

Lila sent Haruka a harsh glare. What on earth is he trying to do?

Kiryu however didn't look phased and continued working on the song. "You better quit acting like a brat, Lila looks pissed off. If you want to make her angry, feel free. But just remember, you can't afford to make her mad."

At that comment, Lila felt Haruka tremble, and she deeply sighed. It's not like she was mad at him or anything. It's just, 'Aizawa Mei is irritating.' Lila wondered what this feeling was.

"I'm not angry at him," Lila interjected, "I'm just jealous," she murmured, and tugged on Haruka's hand. "Can we go somewhere for a bit?"

.....

"I thought my jealousy was bad," Haruka murmured, "What's wrong? You know I don't like her that way."

Lila said nothing and continued to hold Haruka tightly. What is this? Why does she feel this way? Lila didn't understand what was going on. It's not like she can't handle Aizawa Mei. Unlike Rosalia, the girl is so much easier to take care off.

She tugged on his hand and looked at him, "Lila?"

"Kiss."

Haruka smiled and wrapped his arms around her waist as he drew her in for a kiss.

It makes little sense. Lila can tell that Haruka is only thinking of her, and her alone. Whenever they kiss, she can feel his passion and love for her.

"Babe, what's wrong with you?" Haruka murmured against their lips, "Well, I don't mind you being too aggressive."

Ah, this feels weird. She's never kissed him like this before. But Lila wanted to feel more of him; she wanted to make sure. Lila tugged on his clothing and undid the buttons.

"Lila," Haruka said, "What are you doing to me?"

"I want to feel more of you," Lila whispered. To her surprise, Haruka didn't tease her and instead gently kissed her forehead.

"I'm all yours."

All hers. Haruka is hers, he's her husband and yet why did it feel like something was wrong? There are times like earlier where she felt that Haruka didn't belong to her.

....

Waiting room

Her next job after the shoot was an interview, so Lila decided to wait in the waiting room patiently.

While the song Kiryu gave her is essential, the one Lila wanted to work on was the one she started to write with Haruka last month. They've been recording bits and parts of it as a test run, but the full song hasn't been completed yet.

[Cinderella's Flower]

The title speaks for itself, 'About a young girl who experienced hardships and yet transformed by the end,' Lila thought as she glanced at the sheet. It uses the tale Cinderella at the end. A tranquil and peaceful song. It's more of a ballad, and yet the beat isn't too slow to bore the masses. Honestly, in the past, she would never have considered singing a song like this. That's because Lila wanted to move away from such an image. A fragile girl, she didn't want to let the world know that she was weak. During that time, her mother disappeared from her life; she wanted to make sure that everybody saw a strong girl.

But this song shatters that image completely. It's quite risky singing this. It means showing her enemies that she has a weakness. However, when she wrote this song with Haruka, she felt so, so pleased. Writing a song with Haruka, it's different than when she was with Kiryu, and yet it brought her so much happiness. This song

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Abruptly going to London, shortly after they started dating - the majority of their memories before things became complicated occurred there. Their first proper date with his birthday, 'That day Haruka looked so happy.'

Lila tapped the music score sheets in front of her with her pen. A troubled expression on her face.

If she thinks about amazing songs, Acchan's song comes to mind. She's making her intentions. While it's a powerful song, it felt like there was something off. Those lyrics seemed very lonely to her. It doesn't change the fact that it's a good song, however such lonely lyrics, even though Acchan is aiming for the sun, it's not at all bright and cheerful. When Acchan sang that song with her too, she was so refined and elegant.

Even though Lila let go of her sexy image to pull off a cute performance. Acchan simply remained the same. The same.. Come to think of it, Mother...and Takashi Yumi-san were both idols who sang multiple genres, weren't they?

Lila wanted to write different types of songs. Ones with more vigor and intensity. Although she's been singing cool/sexy types songs this whole time, the intensity from when she sings in contrast to her band is entirely different. She wants to sing even more powerfully during her solo lives.

However, maybe its because she's used to Devil's style, that she's not able to completely incorporate what she wants in her solo songs. This is really complicated, then again it's been some time since she was last stuck on composing a song. Everything's been going so well in terms of music recently, once in awhile being stuck ought to be fine. Everything is a learning experience.

To adopt a variety of styles and put it in to practice in her songs. Asking mother would be quicker. But it wouldn't feel right. She wants these new songs to be something much more. An ending to a generation that never got its proper closure, the start of something new ... Lila jots these ideas in her notebook. She's been sitting here and doing trials for how long now?

Judging from her notebook, it's been quite some time. All these ideas are good, and she'll probably take bites to put them all into songs. However, it isn't coming together. Maybe its because she doesn't have a proper focus. Acchan's focus was the red sun, her goal of getting those wings is in the final stages now, and that's why she's able to write that sort of song. But as for her, what exactly does she want to convey in these new songs of hers? What kind of song can the present her, right?

"What are you doing?" a voice whispered in her ear.

The person who snuck up on her is her boyfriend Karashima Haruka. Technically her husband, "Wahh," Lila exclaimed, "Don't just sneak up on me like that."

"Isn't that Cinderella's flower? Weren't we putting that on hold?"

Lila sighed. This oblivious guy doesn't get it does he? "I want to work on this one."

Haruka deeply sighed as he sat down next to her, "Are you still sulking?"

Whose fault is that?

"I'm uneasy, and you're blaming me?"

Haruka shook his head and pulled her into his lap, "I'm not blaming you, don't be mad, yeah?" Lila said nothing and felt his lips on her neck, "Don't be angry anymore, my wife."

It's not like she's upset or anything, she's just troubled by her thoughts. Lila turned around, so she was facing him, "It's troublesome for me, having so many girls like you. I'm doing my best every day to prove to you that I love you so much. Yet these girls show out of nowhere and you believe their feelings right away?"

"That's the issue? Sorry," Haruka apologized, "The reason why is because you really liked Austin Kiryu before, it's hard to believe that you like me all of a sudden."

"Haruka," Lila interjected, her tone sharp and firm. "I realize that the thing with Kiryu makes you uneasy. But, I really do love you, Haruka. After we got to this point, after everything that happened in London. Are you really telling me that you don't believe in my feelings?"

"In London, I believed you. But that's because I didn't see you with him."

"I'll sing Cinderella's flower for the first round."

"Huh, wait?"

"You won't believe me otherwise!" Lila exclaimed. This is the only way. If she can't convey her feelings the proper way, she will do so using her music. Honestly, it's stupid that she even has to resort to this. But it seems like Haruka really doesn't believe her.

"You really are unbelievable. Alright, I understand. But I'll help you out."

Lila's gaze brightened, "Is it okay? The rules.."

"It's fine, this is your solo song, and I'm your manager. Besides, even if you have a good song, if you can't sing it well, there's no use."

"Okay!" she feels so happy. Quite some time has passed since they worked on the song together in London.

"Lila, your getting better at kissing."

Thump. Thump.

"Don't be an idiot, were working now."

Haruka nodded, "Mm, pass me a pen."

Lila hands one over, and their hands brushed against each other. Haruka really is an idiot; she wonders why he has so many doubts still. Because of Kiryu? These days she doesn't even think about Kiryu anymore. Since when did she start thinking of Haruka, and Haruka alone? Her thoughts broke off when she felt Haruka get closer. This idiot.