Chapter 480

From the beginning, it seems that he has been trying to please the people around him. He is afraid that one day he will not be liked and will be sent back to the welfare home, so he can only work hard to make himself clever and good.

I remember when I was in primary school, once I played with Shao Ze. Shao Ze bullied me. I pushed him down on impulse. He burst into tears and attracted his mother.

His mother took Shao Ze in her arms and coaxed him to ask what happened?

Shao Ze pointed at me and didn't speak.

I can't forget the angry and disgusting eyes Shao Ze's mother looked at me at that time.

That look scared me to have nightmares all the time. I was worried that I would be sent back.

Fortunately, I didn't, but I also understand that I can't make trouble because I can't afford to make mistakes.

So I became more and more serious. Later, no matter how Shao Ze bullied me, I dare not fight back or respond.

Gradually, Shao Ze also thought I was boring, and didn't bother me any more.

When I grew up with Shao Ze and admitted that people around me praised Shao Ze how much better, I sneered in my heart.

So no matter what he calls my cousin, I can't have a good impression on him.

Primary school because there is no foundation, has been unable to keep up, my mother always time, let me go to bed, for fear that I can't get up late for school the next day, and they have to go to work, ignore me.

I hid in the bed and continued to read until I fell asleep.

Later, the eyes were also damaged, and laser surgery was performed to correct the vision.

So in my memory, I have been studying hard, getting good grades and awards, making my parents proud of me.

After all, it's because I don't feel safe.

Because I'm not their own daughter, I'm their adopted child. If I can't make them like me, they can send me back at any time.

Before I went to college, I always held this idea and lived with fear.

In high school, I went to the same school as Gu mo.

That was my happiest time.

Secretly like a person, do not dare to let him know, and then so quietly concerned, silently like.

I can't believe it when Gu Mo came here.

Fear of all this is just a dream I have!

And dreams will wake up one day.

In the end, it turned out that it was a dream, but it took so long that I thought it was true.

Gu Mo's ideal at that time was to be an explorer. He had a rich family and was the youngest of his family. He could do anything he wanted. He was so willful that people envied him.

In order to become an explorer, he has been exercising his physical strength. He will also take me to camp, climb mountains, teach me swimming, and take me to Liandao to teach me diving.

We just broke up before we could go to chengliandao.

That year, before he finished his studies, he suddenly encountered more serious accidents, and his most beloved brother died by accident.

After receiving the call, he made a reservation for the latest flight and rushed back.

Except for passport, wallet and mobile phone, I didn't get anything, but remember to ask me if I want to go back with him.

At that time, I even agreed without hesitation and thinking.

Maybe that's the most impulsive thing I've ever done in my life.

Only after I arrived at Gu's family did I really know how rich Gu's family was and how far away we were.

At that time, although Gu Mo took me to review my family, he couldn't take care of me, because Gu's family was in a mess, and he needed to stand up and preside over the overall situation.

Imagine a dandy who once only knew how to eat, drink and play, but one day he was forced to stand in the front to bear all the hardships.

And I didn't notice that at that time, because I was too busy myself.

After living in Gu's house for a few days, a nanny came to tell me that the old lady wanted to see me.

At that time, I was still very young and wanted to please the woman who might be my mother-in-law.

In fact, she was waiting to pour cold water on me.

When I saw Mrs. Gu, she spoke to me in a very calm tone. She was not as calm as if she had just lost her son. She was calm as if she had no mood ups and downs, but it made me feel cold to the bone.

Later, she finally told me to the point,

she didn't agree that I was with Gu mo.

This sentence dragged me down from the cloud.

I tried to reason with her and defend my love with Gu mo.

But the fact is naive and ridiculous.

She's investigated me and knows everything about me.

I know that my parents are not my own parents. I know that I have been sold by human traffickers several times. I think that my life experience is not pure and I am not worthy of her precious little son.When I was excited, I argued with her.

But later I realized that what I did was useless, except to make myself look more down-to-earth.

Her threat worked in the end.

I'm afraid to let Gu Mo know my past. I'm afraid of the look in his eyes. I can't even stand him breaking up.

So I mentioned it first.

I told Gu Mo that I want to break up. I can't accept his family background, and I don't think I love him so much anymore. We are not suitable.

Then, regardless of his stay, he went back to school alone.

At that time, I straightened my spine and felt that I had done something very backbone, even though my heart was weeping.

Later, I realized that I defended my poor pride and lost my love forever.

In the next few years, I studied and worked like a zombie, trying to make myself more and more excellent. I thought about it countless times. One day, when I stood in front of Gu Mo, I could say with pride,

I could be worthy of him!

And when I finally threw away all my pride one day and went back to find him, I realized that it was too late!

Gu Mo got married less than half a year before I returned home!

The bride I met at the classmate party was a very young, sweet and simple girl.

I never knew that Gu Mo would like this kind of girl.

But in fact, it's Mrs. Gu.

It turns out that in the years I left, everything is no longer what I thought it was.

As a matter of fact, when I first proposed to break up, I thought that with Gu Mo's character, he might not look back.

But at that time, I could only care about my dignity and pride, and could not manage so much.

In retrospect, I realize that my dignity and pride are based on inferiority.

When Gu Mo was in the most difficult time, I didn't join hands with him. Instead, I abandoned him.

So even if you are unwilling, there is nothing you can do.

The last bit of dignity can only maintain me. I try not to disturb their lives.

In this world, there are many things that can be done over again, but some things only have one chance. If they are missed, they will no longer exist.

If the time can turn back, no matter what happens, I will not leave Gu Mo half step, even if the final outcome or break up, at least I have worked hard for us together, although can't get married, have regret, but at least don't regret.

And now I'm going my way alone. I'm not with Ou Jing. I miss him because I don't want to be greedy for his warmth. I don't want to meet Gu Mo any more!

Maybe one day I can put everything down and really start all over again!

And now I can only choose to be brave and strong!