Chapter 1896

——Xueyuan, I'm sorry.

Although it may be too late for you to know that I'm sorry, but my mother still wants to say it at this time. Maybe your heart will feel better.

I don't know when you will see this letter, but my mother still has something to say to you. The skirt you sent is very nice. I like it very much. Thank you. But I destroyed the gift you gave me. When you were crying and running away, I cried with you. I'm sorry, baby, I'm not good enough to make you face hatred with me.

Your father is a good man, I can't describe more in words, but he is all to me. When I write this letter to you, I already know that I have cancer. I didn't want to be treated. Maybe all these years, I always think about leaving and looking for your father. I hope he will walk slowly so that I can catch up with him.

There are many times I can not accept his departure, we should be a happy family, but the emergence of Zheng Weitan destroyed all this. So I became paranoid, paranoid, crazy. I want to die, but I don't give up hatred and you. I know you are in pain, but I don't know what I should do.

I'm sorry, baby. I've wronged you many times. Every time I feel like a knife. You should have been my most precious daughter, but what am I doing? I'm hurting you. I'm imposing on you the hatred I can't get out of. Mom didn't mean to. She just couldn't accept your father's leaving.

Every time I want to express my love for you and my true feelings for you, I can't control my emotions. I hate Xueyuan too much. You don't understand what it's like to live in hatred every minute and second for more than ten years. Hatred is what I'm used to. So I always hurt you and regret the words and decisions I made.

I cried, I regretted, and even wanted to leave. I think you will be relieved when I die, but I don't trust you to live alone. I'm afraid those people will bully you.

Xueyuan, mother loves you, but her body is piled up by hatred, hiding her love for you so that you can't feel it. It's mom's fault. It's mom's sorry for you. Sometimes I feel that, in fact, the real me has already left with your father. I barely live to see you more, to find some strength to live on, but in the invisible, always hurt you.

After all, I always think in my heart, your father is dead, why can I be happy and enjoy the happiness you bring me?

Mother does not ask you to forgive me, because the harm to you is irreparable.

If I want to tell you to take revenge when I'm dying, please forget about it, hate these things, and let me take them to the grave. But you, don't live as Su Xueyuan who has hatred in her body, but as a simple Su Xueyuan, live happily. This is my mother's greatest wish when she is sober.

The signature of this letter is: love your mother.

Su Xueyuan took the letter and read it over and over again. Her tears kept coming out. Her heart seemed to be crushed by a car. It was painful to breathe.

She is constantly looking at love you, sorry, thank you these words, is she never thought can say from her mother's mouth, at this moment, but appeared in the letter.

Did her mother still love her?

The letter was too contradictory, but Su Xueyuan knew what her mother wanted to express in an instant.

Because I hate so much.

Her mother got all the love from her father, and even her, but all of this, under the destruction of Zheng Weitan, completely disintegrated. Without any preparation, her mother lost her lover, lost everything, and even carried some unnecessary charges.

In this case, anyone would be crazy.

Her mother took her to the Zheng family. Even though she didn't want to live every day, she forced herself to live for revenge.

Obviously, I love her very much and want to get close to her, but I am afraid of such closeness and the happiness and satisfaction brought by intimacy, because I feel sorry for her dead father.

Maybe she can't bear the bitterness of her mother, because she can't bear the bitterness of one's heart.

Su Xueyuan bent down with the letter in her hand, but she was constantly suffering from pain all over her body. She cried very hard, but she didn't make any sound at all, but seemed to roar out all her soul.

For such a long time, although Su Xueyuan never said it, her heart knot was that her mother never loved her.

When she was a child, her cold eyes, those grievances, including the torn skirt, let her gradually realize that she is not a loved child, but a tool for revenge.

But in this letter, she clearly realized that her mother loved her! It's just too contradictory in the heart that makes the other party unable to express love.

But what happens when you know?

Her mother has passed away, and even in the last few days, because of the discontent in her heart, she didn't even have time to say some sincere words.As the letter said, they should have been a happy family of three. Her mother and father would love her very much, but now they have become like this. At this moment, Su Xueyuan suddenly felt the hatred of her mother, which was helplessness and despair for everything she should have been destroyed.

Su Xueyuan continued to shed tears and put the letter on her chest. She was shaking, unable to recover for a long time.

At this time, there was a sound outside.

"Su Xueyuan, what are you doing in there? Open the door

It's Zheng Weitan's voice!

Su Xueyuan suddenly stood up. She held the letter in her hand and felt her mother's hatred. When she heard Zheng Weitan's voice, fierce hatred burst out in her scarlet eyes. At this moment, all her senses had collapsed. She seemed to be back in the afternoon when she was holding a knife. All she thought was to kill Zheng Weitan by herself!

She and her mother have been suffering for so many years because of this. Why can Zheng Weitan live so freely, and even now they still have to question her justly! Embarrass her, despise her!

Su Xueyuan's anger all burst out in this moment, her hand pressed on the door, and the idea that she wanted to die with Zheng Weitan came out in her mind, and it was more and more intense!