47 Missing Memories

In the still darkness, nothing could be seen. Light was robbed from that small room. It was a world without life, without light, and without company. The only sounds present were the maddening tickings of the clock and the small drops of liquid falling to the ground. The unbearable stench of blood, sweat, and rust remained permeating the room with its terrible smell.

Within the blinding darkness laid the small child. Her dark long hair covered her frail body but even then it wasn't able to cover the bruises and injuries that soaked her in blood. Her body was covered with marks and her smooth skin was tarnished with scars. The world above was an impossible dream now. She was a mere 12 year old girl but her memory of the world had long since faded after being chained to that underground room for 3 years.

The child's dim eyes closed waiting for the day in which it all ends. Her eyes had lost their use, there was nothing beautiful left to see in her dark world yet every time she woke up hoping it was all a nightmare.

The memory and thoughts of the past her ran through Daiyu's mind. It was like living a movie and feeling the movie. She could feel the pain but she couldn't stop her eyes from closing or her heart from hurting. It was like following a script half conscious. She couldn't understand her thoughts or remember everything through that memory all that she could do was wait and watch.

Time passed slowly and it all felt like death. It was agonizing and eternal but she could feel that she preferred it this way. Eventually the subtle sounds of familiar steps resonated behind the door. It was the same three people she had once loved and trusted but now they came to her filled with horrible intentions. She could feel it, the terror.

She didn't want to see the light. She didn't want it to come ever. She could feel her body's tremor as the doorknob slowly turned and the door slowly creaked open. Her dry painful eyes seemed to spill once again with tears. Her tied arms and legs which were spread open were tugging at the chains binding her. Everything hurt but it didn't stop her from continuing her futile struggle. The air blew into the room making her realize she was naked. Her only cover was her stiff hair filled with dry blood.

No matter how much she cried and screamed they wouldn't have any mercy but she still tried every time. After all, they were her family and beloved. She showed them her love and laid her heart bare in their hands. Naively she hoped for mercy and forgiveness for unknown faults. She never thought her life would be like this.

The last figure was a young girl looking at everything and glaring daggers at her everyday. It was her younger sister, Elaine, who was completely different now. Her spoiled gaze filled with warmth had hidden her deep hatred. The young man nearing her gazed at her, but what used to look like love was now a sinister gaze filled with contempt and worst of all was the man next to him, her father.

She was but a tool for him.

Every visit made her heart which was already destroyed to the point in which it seemed to be hurt and torn so much it was a miracle, disintegrate and shudder in pain again. Her heart, despite their wrongs, still loved, hurt, and hoped all for naught.

Seeing everything happen gave Fan Daiyu an ominous feeling. She wanted to shut her eyes tightly but they were still wide open begging with tears for pity, mercy, and even compassion. However, who would give her any of that when they harbored nothing but evil. She gazed towards the middle aged man with teary eyes as her hoarse voice croaked.

"Father..... Father please...why are you doing this... I really am your daughter.... Mom... mom... never lied....I saw that lady switch it...she–"

Before she could even finish her covered her mouth with his hand like always. He never let her finish. He never let her explain. He preferred to believe the scheming woman than her mother. He preferred to listen to that seducing vixen!

"Shut up! Your mother was a wh*re and a liar. You are the same. You have to make up for her now. That b committed suicide. HAHA! Now she sees how her daughter becomes just like her."

Desperately she shook her head screaming and struggling as both men held her still. She watched in horror as her father unfastened his belt and pulled down his pants. She pushed and tried to move but her chains held her back. Song Ming fastened ropes around her waist and rendered her immobile. He smiled at her and his lecherous gaze ran down her body.

That was the boy she had known all her life. She grew up with him and loved him just as he "loved" her back. Now her stood before her engaged with her sister her still raping her with her father every other day.

She knew he didn't love her sister. He only wanted the status that came with it now that she didn't have competition. He betrayed her and still he hurts her. He was a jerk and a two faced. Then again all of then were.

She could only shut her eyes and lose hope once again wishing for the light to leave again. She hated seeing that open door as they raped her. She hated seeing the light out side that never gave her happiness. She hated that every time she saw the light which she used to love, her father came to pierce her and leave her dirty.

But she would still stare at it with resentment. She could only stare at it like that. She had become numb to the feeling of her small body being invaded by her own father, numb to the harassment imposed on her body by their hands, numb to the feeling of her skin slapping against theirs, numb to the feeling of their spills inside her, and numb to the glares her sister gave every time Song Ming touched her and filled her up with him.

She was like a lifeless doll used for their pleasure. Fan Daiyu could only watch and feel everything happening again. She could only sigh and cry in relief once they left and the darkness returned. She watched as the year passed quickly and she had her period mid way through. None knew as she would bleed because of the many times the raped her but she knew and soon she became pregnant. No one knew until she had her miscarriage 2 to 3 months in. It was Song Ming's child. He took it out on her and began giving her daily visits. He would tell her he loved her as he raped her and how he dreamed of having more children with her as he assaulted her mouth. Soon enough she lost her sanity. His visits became frequent and she responded to his advances. Her doll like appearance became a seductive one as her breasts developed and her body grew curves. She became what they wanted, a vixen. She would kiss him and touch him as he wanted because there was nothing else to do. Her mind had gone mad and all she knew was that they came and she could do nothing but satisfy.

Her father became obsessed with the idea of incest and also frequented her and made love to her. It seemed he had also lost some sanity as he indulged himself. At one point he didn't leave her side. He stuck to her body and unchained her. All night her raped her and as she slept he never removed himself. Even when he emptied himself he stayed in until his desire emerged again. He spent 3 days and nights stuck to her like glue and the result was as expected. He didn't allow any visits for 2 months and her pregnancy was confirmed. They found out her fertility was astonishing and her father waited another month before carefully devouring her again whenever he could. She gave birth but before she could even see her child's face he was taken from her. Her father was so happy. To take care of his child he stopped visiting for some time but his idea was taken up by Song Ming. She was seen as a baby making tool. He did as her father had done for a week. Although it didn't work at first, his second try had succeeded. She gave birth and she was left alone by them but Elaine hated her. After giving birth for her fiancee, she would find ways of torture and thus filling up the 14 year olds body with injuries that would heal but only after a long time. The days passed until Fan Daiyu saw Elaine poison her.

Eventually, one of the maids delivering food found out and threw the body out along with all the belongings.

That was the day she forgot everything. They thought her dead and she really was. She was so dead and rotten that she couldn't take it. Her lost mind found a way to escape the hell she was living in. She locked away everything and ran.

She ran in the unfamiliar world. People would see her and push her. Light was everywhere. Chaos was everywhere.

So, she ran. she ran until she couldn't anymore and she found her valley. years passed and she grew. She learned from everything people wouldn't appreciate. She would study with all the available resources for free. She would stare at people working and trashed dug for books, newspapers, notebooks, work books, work designs, and anything really. The memory blurred as another took its place.

She was small and she always followed the beautiful woman. She saw how harsh their lives were. Her mother was depressed and abused frequently. She cried a lot until one day she decided to leave her and find release.

The woman caressed her lovingly.

Tears fell from her face and fell on Fun Daiyu.

"Mother... don't cry. Be strong and wait for Daiyu. Daiyu will be smart and make mommy happy. Dont be sad Daiyu will protect you!"

The young woman laughed sadly.

"Daiyu, Mommy is going to be happy now. Mommy will sleep but it will be okay. Mommy is just really really tired and won't wake up in a long time. Maybe you will see me in your dreams and the we'll be happy together. I love you okay. I truly do love you but I'm so tired."

"Okay, mommy! Dont worry Daiyu will be a good girl like always. Daiyu will wait for mommy and the we can play the hide from daddy game again."

Daiyu smiled brightly at the young woman kissed her head and laughed. Daiyu turned and skipped away. The woman watched that small silhouette longingly as she whispered.

"I dont think we'll have to play that again anymore."

News spread quickly and everyone found out that she had slit her throat. During her burial no one cried. Some even laughed but Daiyu just waited. She waited for her mother to wake up and play but it never happened. Months later she was locked away and her mother never woke up to save her.